An Open Letter to Myself

Dear Princess,

It’s okay to be not okay sometimes. What you are going through right now is not unplanned. God knows it and he knows what He is doing. I want you to hang in there. I want you to again see your worth. Negative thoughts, extreme sadness and feeling so low are not good, I know. But here.. “Now is not Forever”. There is a time for everything. Everyone experiences hardships and pains. Doubts and fears are so present in you right now but I know you know what to do about it. Open your heart again, open your Bible and remind yourself how God sees you. You are fearfully and wonderfully made. I understand if these past few days you have been struggling,  not doing anything, staying in room, not going out and procrastinate the whole day. It’s been two weeks, I’ve seen you suffer that long. I understand, but aren’t you getting up this time? That’s enough, Princess. You have to get up and pull yourself together.

Those choices and poor decisions you made are all in the past now, please get up and move on. Do not dwell on the past. People around you will say something, will judge you and even gossip about you but please be reminded that your worth doesn’t depend on their opinions. Let it be and let it go. Do not be too harsh on yourself. You are not a criminal. You are not what you think you are. You’ve been telling yourself that you are dumb, nothing and such a disappointment. Well, you are so wrong. It’s the enemy that keeps instilling those on your head. God doesn’t look at you like that way.

You are a jolly person, you are responsible, you are smart and you can do anything for God gives you strength. You are loved and highly favored. Don’t you remember all the prayer answered. Why are you so sad? Remember His love towards you, Princess. You asked for it, right? You wanted to experience having a parent around. God answered you. He brought you here in Aruba where you can see your father. One Happy Island? Yes, it’s not as happy when you were in the Philippines but admit it there are things in here that make you happy as well. Remember those and see the beauty of life. Enjoy them and be thankful.

Do you remember when you asked God to bring your siblings here? You were crying almost everyday asking God to bring them. God did. It was a great day to you and you were really grateful. See? God answers prayers, He will grant our requests in the right time. Unexpected and uncontrolled situation happened, your sister needed to go back to Philippines. It was an awful season to you and your family. But God helped everyone to get up. That’s part of His plan so you learned to let go. How about the request you asked about your first employer? Everyday was a struggle to you but you endured it for three years? You didn’t show to everyone that it’s really difficult because you focused on His promises. “He will not leave you nor forsake you, he will rescue you.” I can still remember how happy you were the night you took all your things out of that house. You can’t help but cry and whisper when you were in the car “I am free. Thank you, Lord” Tears fell. They were tears of joy. You persevered, you endured the years, Princess. It was not easy but you finished it. Because you can do anything. Don’t you believe that?

After that day, you went home to your father’s house. You brought all your things together with your heart, hopeful that there will be doors of opportunity coming. You needed someone to sign again for you for your next permit. You didn’t actually do anything but God sends your next employer right in front of you. He’s been faithful. I guess, He really wants you to stay in the island. You didn’t have any problem with permit. He loves you so. While others struggle to have permit, some were living here for quite some years and yet they don’t have legal permit. Here you are, enjoying all the freedom and benefits. God is good in your life.

Just last year, you received a monster blessing. Your US Visa was approved and you got to see your Mommy in the US. It was your first time to spend that long, one month with her after she left abroad when you were 5years old. Isn’t it amazing? God is so good to you. Other Filipinos were telling that only those who have resident permit can be approved. It means only those who have 10permits, 10years living in Aruba. You only had four permit that time. They also said that you should have a property here. You don’t have. There are a lot of reasons not be approved to be honest, but your visa still has been approved. I told you, You are highly-favored. That is for you. His gift for you. So pull yourself together and be grateful, count your blessings.

You have finished your contract from the second employer. They were so nice to you. It’s a blessing. Did God forget about you? He wants you to know that He is in control. Sometimes you think, you can’t handle things anymore but God shows His mercy and grace. Recently, you just got an appointment for  your next permit. Did God ever forsake you? No. He sends another one to sign for you, and you didn’t really chase for it. God is using people for you to see that everything is under control.

But didn’t you know why you got all the answers? These are some of His blessings to you. It’s not all. You had more. But are these enough to remind you He knows everything? He answered every single thing you asked, you know why? Today, I will remind you why. You got lost these past few days but today I will remind you again. It is because you BELIEVE. It’s already given and proven that God loves you so much. But God was delighted because you have believed. You let Him take control about everything and you just trust Him that He can do impossible things possible. When God says “YES” no one can stop him. He will fulfill his plans in your life no matter what. So why don’t you let him do it it again? believe again? Believing means even you don’t see the answer yet, still you stay calm and let him take control. His answers are on the way now. Behind the scenes, he is working. You can’t understand that now but sooner or later you will. He will reveal them to you. 

While you are waiting, why don’t you worship again. That’s what you usually do. You pour out your heart to Him no matter how difficult the situation is. Because you know that this is the only and best thing you can ever done while you are waiting — Worship. Thanking Him for all He has done in your life, giving him the glory for all the achievement you have received. Whatever his answers to your questions and requests,  you receive them freely because you are trusting him. Say these again to Him “I will still love you even it hurts””I will still choose you no matter what” “I want you in my life””I will worship no matter what the circumstances” You know when you worship, you found peace, joy and love, you found life. That’s where you belong, Princess. In HIS presence. 

So let it be. Let it go. Lay it all down. Trust Him. Believe that He has greater plans in your life. God believes in you so you have to believe in yourself again. These trials are nothing compare to what God has prepared for you in the future. Fix yourself, fix your eyes on Him again. He is all you need. Do not worry on what people may say. Listen to what God is telling you. So get up and be confident in Him. 

You are a Princess. His princess. His daughter. Smile and be confident. You are beautiful.

 ** I had to remind myself so I wrote these things on my planner/journal. Thank you for reading. Yes, I struggle but I will get up so I hope and pray for those who also experience the same thing, the letter is for you too. He loves you so. Love yourself too.

 Stand up, stand out and Shine!

 

-Princess

 

DIY 2017 Bullet Journal/Life Planner Set Up

I love writing and journaling but this is actually my first time doing a BuJo. After browsing on the internet especially on Pinterest. I finally decided to make my own. 

I used colored cardstock, white papers and some stickers. I bought them at Palais Hindu and Dyon Center. At first, I wanted to just simply buy one. I saw a beautiful planner/journal at Kate Spade. I wanted it so bad but it’s quite expensive. So I decided to do DIY Planner. It’s more fun to design your own, though. 

The categories I have:

1. Day Planner- my daily plan

2. Ministry – all about church stuff.

3. Expenses

4. Notes

5. Goals 

6. Projects

7. Contacts

Honestly, I just use this dividers I saw from an old organizer at home. I didn’t buy them. You can always make your own. Go to Microsoft Excel or Word, type your categories and print. 
Someone gave me a hanging calendar. I used it for my planner. 

I don’t really have much to do but I decided to plan to be productive. It is helpful for me to stop procrastinating. I honestly lost my motivation here, I wanted and praying to go back Philippines. It is really hard to be an overseas worker. I have to be strong and strive harder. So this is good to track how am I doing with my life. But you know, its not that easy to go back to my country because I have met my love of my life here. So trying to motivate myself and keep going. 

 
That’s my daily plan looks like. I am sorry for the mess around. I don’t have table in my room. I have a small room but I am thankful I have place to sleep. 😝 I put verse everyday so I am always be reminded how faithful God is and to trust him everyday. I also add a habit tracker. Since, I also love scrapbooking, I kinda like to design my pages sometimes. I am planning to add pictures as well. Sounds fun!  Besides from daily plan, I also have a weekly plan. To be honest, I am more into designing my pages. 😂  But I have to remind myself to plan and be really serious about doing it. Keep motivated and determined. Every good memories are good to write down. When you have to look back, you’ll remember how you days become happy! I put a page for special memories.  If you are planning to make one for your journal, bring out the artistic spirit in you. As long as you are having fun, go for it!


I love watching movies with special someone,family and friends. One of my to-do list for this year is to watch alone. Let’s see! Hihi. And, of course, Korean series are the best! OMG it’s really fun to watch korean love stories 😍 This is not necessary but for me it’s fun to write them down. I added page for them 😅

Next, birthday and special events. You’ll be reminded to greet them and do something for your friends and love ones. I added this because I used to memorize all of their birthdays but because of technology, we sometimes depend on fb reminders or phone reminders. It’s not bad to do that but for me, I wanted to remember them by heart. 


Because of so much websites to join, we sometimes forget our passwords. So Websites with Password page in your journal can help you remember them. But of course, be really careful not to leave your journal unattended. 

Good thing about Bullet Journal, you can add more pages as much as you want. I also put some quotes and motivational and inspirational reminders between the days or weeks. You can choose where you want them to put. It’s really helpful for me to keep going especially when I don’t have enough courage to do something. Reminding myself that God created me to do something  great in this world. Remind yourself everyday that you are fearfully and wonderfully made. 

So far, this is my set up. I got some ideas from Youtube and Pinterest. Happy Journaling! 😘 
Princess

Better Late Than Never

Yes, it’s 2017. I’ve been wanting to write but I was so off these past few months. But it’s new year I have to gather myself, stand up and face the new chapter of life. Today, I decided to review my 2016  life. God wants us to be thankful and rejoice all the time. I am a Christian, yes, but it doesn’t mean I don’t experience sadness and all. Everyone is under construction, I believe. Everybody has problems in different forms. We just have to learn to face them and handle them well. Anyways, I will be sharing my 2016 Goals accomplished & unaccomplished and Prayers answered in this post.

2016 Goals and Prayers – Review

  1. Gift of Giving

God has been so good to me ever since and he never stop showing me that He is my Jehovah Jireh, my God who provides. There are a lot of people around me that always give so I prayed and desired to exercise the gift of giving. It was kinda difficult for me because my status here in Aruba is not stable but still I wanted to share even little things.

  •  I donated some of my clothes.
  • I helped a friend with financial.
  • I gave handmade bookmarks
  • I created handmade cards and gave to those I loved and appreciated.

     2. Driving Lessons/License

Unfortunately I still didn’t get my license but practicing driving.

      3. Bank Account

Yey! Finally, I opened February 2016. I arrived here in Aruba 2012 and I struggled to open an account because of some circumstances. I am not trying to broadcast everything about my life but for me this is really an accomplishment. HAHA 🙂 Thank God.

     4. Read books/novel. (10 or more)

Hmm.. I only read 5 books:

  • Kontento ka na ba sa kaperahan mo? Vic and Avelyn Garcia (Unleash the highest Potential of you Money)
  • Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom
  • The Power of Right Believing – Joseph Prince
  • Best of Me – Nicholas Sparks
  • Become a Better You (7Keys to Improving your Life Everyday) – Joel Osteen
  • Hunger Games (Mockingjay) – well this, until now I didnt finish the last book. Hihi (almost..almost!)

   5. Study /Learn Papiamento

I understand but I can’t speak fluently.

   6. Be confident.

To be honest, I struggled so much with confidence but God is guiding me. There are times I really feel brave and confident.

     7. Apply for a New Job

I did. I had part times. And again, because of my status here in Aruba which is not stable, I couldn’t get a full time. But I am good. I thank God for His provision and grace everyday.

       8. God’s presence and obedience to Him.

This should always be the top priority of every Christian.He is so good and deserve our service. I still am a Worship Leader at our church and a Tambourine Dance Coordinator.

    9. Cover Songs with Brandon (him playing guitar, me singing)

Well we jammed few times but we still haven’t record any. HEHE this for 2017 Goals 🙂

     10. Travel (anywhere God wants)

This is unexpected but I prayed for this and when I returned to my notebook. I was really in tears for he answered prayers. Places I went to:

  • Curacao
  • US – Orlando, Georgia, Savannah, South Carolina

    11. Write Consistently.

I can say that this year I did write so much. Blogs, journal, personal etc.

    12. New Laptop

I know maybe those who read my old posts, I always say about God’s grace. I am not exaggerating it but His grace is truly amazing. I got mine for free. 🙂

    13. New Printer

Yes, I got one. Thank you Lord

   14. Get more followers on WordPress.

When I was writing this last year, I had 6 followers on my blog. I targeted and wanted to reach 50 followers. I have 62 followers now. WOW! hihi Thank you so much.

     15. Dental Check up.

I had a root canal operation.

   16. Receive an unexpected blessing! Great things. I am excited.

I wrote them exactly like that. The monster blessing was US Visa was approved. I got a chance to travel last year and visit my mom. It was really awesome experience.To God be the glory!

     17. Lose Weight.

HAHA. Sorry but I gained more. 🙂

The Bible says in Proverbs 16:9, In their hearts human plan their course, but the Lord establish their steps. 

I do not ask more and unbelievably ones. I only asked God that whatever I have, to help be content and be happy. I think that is more important in life. BE CONTENT. I had so much blessings last 2016, I also had down moments but those are also blessings so I can draw more closer to Him. I thank God for everything. For material blessings, unexpected ones, great ones but also for all the pains and struggles for they are also used to make me brave. God makes me brave. I praise God for the last year and I will thank and adore Him for this new year. Better Late than Never. Happy New Year! 🙂

 

 

 

You Should Go and Love Yourself

I always wanted to write something about love. I just don’t know where, when and how to start. So, I am here typing and letting my heart out. Everyone wants to be loved, right? We long for someone who can be there to understand and accept who we are, spend quality time with us, embrace our strengths and our weaknesses, someone who can see beauty in us, someone who brings the best in us. That feeling of being accepted and loved is the best feeling ever.

But…to love is another story. Do you really know how to love? Is the love you think you are showing to your partner, friends, parents, family or any relationship you are with the right love, the right way of love? I will ask you again, do you really know how to love?

When I was younger, I got easily fall to someone I don’t even know. I had a lot of crushes (which is normal, I guess ! HAHA) I remember someone who broke my heart without him knowing because I got frustrated because he didn’t like me. I had a crush on him for a long time. I wanted to be liked, be attractive to him and be loved. I even thought that I would be the most happiest person on earth if he will be my partner. I do believe that everyone went through this kind of feeling. Puppy love. I was high school back then.

You started to feel ugly, not beautiful, unaccepted or unwanted when the person you like doesn’t like you back. Every kind of negatives will begin to overwhelm you. You start to look down on yourselves and instead of looking on the beauty within you, you only see the ugly ones that your mind is telling you. The worst, you compare yourselves to others. Insecurities will always be present when there is comparison.

When emotions overwhelm us, we become weak, sad and depressed. Anxiety attack! What do you do when you feel all this? I am not a Love Adviser or something, I am not like Papa Jack in Philippines who gives advice about love. But I am thankful that God had shown me what it is to be loved and to love. I am from a broken family and I grew up observing couples, married or anyone in a relationship because I always wanted to have a perfect relationship. I believe that any relationship can be right if we all know how to do it right. I wanted to share what I have observed and learned from my observation and personal experiences

LOVE YOURSELF

For you to love someone the right way is to first LOVE YOURSELF. Here’s the question for you? Do you love yourself? When I say love…

According to Google : “the unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another”

I am not gonna say that Google or the dictionary is wrong. This is right but I am gonna say this, you cannot love others unselfishly when you do not know how to love yourself. You can be good to others but you have to be good to yourself too. Do you accept yourself? your face, eyes, nose, lips, your body, your whole being? Your attitudes? Do you like everything about you? I believe, none of us will say YES, I do! All of us has insecurities somehow. This is my advice, do yourself a favor. LOVE YOURSELF. Our imperfections should not be the reason of not being yourself. There is no such thing as perfect people. Everyone has flaws but before anyone can accept you, accept yourself first. How? Try to look at all the good things in you. Discover yourself. Discover your passion. What are the things that you can do and makes you feel great? Do you even appreciate yourself. Well, there is warning in loving yourself. Do not be proud. I am not telling you to be selfish by loving yourself. Loving yourself is not being selfish it is self-love.

There are a lot of people especially women who live their lives insecure. Accept this: there will always be a person who is more beautiful, sexier than you, someone who is better than you. But there is only ONE YOU. And you gotta love that ONE YOU. Love yourself.

As you discover the good things in you, you will learn the meaning of love. This is only one of the ways of loving someone the right way. Stop looking down on yourself. There are so much in you that is bursting to be shared to the world. Believe that you are awesome. Stop comparing yourself to others. Go, love yourself. Remove that insecurities because that is not God wants you to live. Your heart will never be okay when you dwell on your insecurities. It’s okay if there are people who is greater than you. Just keep going and be the best version of yourself.

Easier said than done, huh? I observed when my heart is not okay, if I dwell and somehow enjoy my insecurities and all the negatives, I treat others negatively too. I judge them and I don’t see good in them. The way you treat other people is the reflection of yourself, the reflection on how you treat yourself. I remember when I used to be insecure and negative, my actions are all  a mess. I messed everything up. I hurt others by my words and actions and also hurting myself too. I ended up exhausted and almost giving up, I wasn’t able to see the beauty in me and others, my surroundings, everything is dark and gloomy. It was so tiring and I wanted to get out to that situation of my life. I asked God to show me how.

I won’t be shy if I said that I went through a deep sadness and depression. It was the very terrible days of my life, I even wanted to end my life. No one would ever believe when I say these words because they usually see me a jolly person. I love smiling to people and show that everything is okay. My smile is my cover that everything is just alright. I am a worship leader at church, so somehow they are looking up on me. Everyone thinks that I am just so fine and well. When I go home, alone in my room, I reveal myself , the real me to the ONE who helped me overcome all of this. I wanted to tell everyone I am not okay. But the Lord taught me to seek HIM alone. Only Him can understand how I feel.

Look at yourself the way He sees YOU.

To make it short, I started to seek HIM more and ask him to show me what’s really the root of all of this. His answer: See yourself the way I see you. He shows me who I am. Not only that, HE wants me to see how He sees me. He wants me to love myself the way HE loves me.

He sees me beautiful. 

Let’s start with this, I used to be so insecure. I didn’t accept myself. God’s definition of beauty is different from the world. Do not define beauty according to what you see in this world. When I was in Philippines, I can see and observe how people define beauty. When you are light or white, tall and sexy, you are beautiful. When you have branded clothes and stuff, you are attractive. When your skin is dark, you won’t be on the top list of beautiful ones. White or light skin is their standard to be beautiful. Whitening soap or pills are trending now in the country. Your environment affects the way you look at yourself, to be honest. Culture has a great impact to your whole being, as well. The world define beautiful differently.

Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes.
Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight.
1 Peter 3:3-4

Inner beauty is the most important factor of being beautiful. I might not have the FHM body but what I will focus on having is a heart that’s great to God’s sight. And my heart is happy.

But the LORD said to Samuel, “Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.” 1 Samuel 16:7

Guarding my heart is one of my purpose in living, for heart is the wellspring of life. When you guard your heart, avoiding all negative feelings towards yourself and others, you live happily and contented.

He sees you righteous.

This is taking too long, huh? Are you still there? 🙂 God is not counting your sins. If you have done mistakes, I want you to move on and be kind to yourself. God has been so patient to us, so be patient to yourself too. HE sees you a righteous one. He loves you. It’s so hard to imagine how God love someone who is so bad like me. If you are still reading this and you are that person who verbally declaring all the negative traits you have, I challenge you to speak the opposite. “I am a good person” instead of “I am bad” “I am loving him/her the right way”  instead of “I don’t love and he/she doesn’t deserve someone as dumb as me” “I am worthy” instead of “I am unworthy and undeserving of your love”.  Believe that God created you uniquely and wonderfully.

Knowing your identity in Christ is very essential in loving yourself. If you know how God sees you, how he loves you, you will begin to see yourself valuable and worthy, deserved to be loved. I might post in the future about your identity in Christ. 🙂

FINAL WORDS

If you are having problems in your relationship, I hope that this post can help you realize things. I am not that so good about this, but it is my joy to encourage someone. If you aren’t loving yourself yet, it’s okay. I am not judging you,and it is not too late to start. Look at yourself the way God sees you. He sees you awesome, righteous, wonderful etc. Your story is different from others. Your love story is different and unique, do not compare. You will be able to love your partner the right way if you begin to discover yourself, to love yourself. If you fail to love yourself, it would be difficult for you to love others. Get rid of all the negatives you’ve been feeding your mind and heart. You are not a mess. Do the right thing because God has given you all you need, you just have to choose to do the right thing. Go, and LOVE YOURSELF.

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I want to re-read this and edit but I am so sleepy but I want to publish this immediately so, I apologize if my sentences are not good. Thank you for reading! Enjoy! 🙂 I am also willing listen to your stories. Blessings!

-Princess

 

Life is a Beach

I walked by the hotel areas and by the beach. I was stunned and made me say “Gosh, Aruba, you are truly beautiful.” Aruba is known as One Happy Island, reason why many tourists come back and forth in the island. It is a great place to relax and be away from stress at work, family and all.

People also walk or run in here especially at the hotel area. You would love to see the view, hear the sound of the waves, the sand, the people wearing swim attire with their beautiful body. (Men would actually love that). Life is beautiful. Life is a beach. 

 There are so much to be thankful for. I used to stay home when I am sad and going through some difficulties in life.Exercising is the best cure for anxiety and depression. Get out of your room and see the beauty of your place. So, I’ve learn to embrace the place where I am now. No to homesickness or depression. Yes to appreciating life and be positive everyday 

A perfect spot for lovers, huh? While walking I see them, my heart is so happy to see couples spending their time together at the beach. It’s so romantic. 😍

Kids love beach so much. Their voice and laugh while playing are good to ears, they are the sound of joy and happiness. Life is a beach. 

Let me not label them as old. They are young at hearts. They are enjoying the view and waiting for the sunset. Cameras everywhere, you’ll see. 

It was a beautiful walk. I enjoyed it so much. My heart was so happy! 😘 Life is a beach. Enjoy it. 

Aruba, You are Beautiful

 

Last week, I had a chance to walk/jog with some of churchmates.Everybody has problems in life but when you get out and see how beautiful God’s creation is, you won’t feel any anxiety or sadness. The beauty of Aruba calms my heart. I have to embrace the place where I am. God leads me here and I have to joyfully seek His will and do His will. 

Exercise is good for your health.It is also good for your heart! It’s really beautiful. This is the beach at Renaissance Park.

Yes, I am the youngest but I feel so at home and comfortable with them because they are cool. I thank God for them. The place becomes more beautiful with awesome people around

God brings us to a place where he doesn’t lead. I am trusting God for today and tomorrow and for the next days. Thy will be done. 

Bunita! It is a papiamento word means beautiful. Aruba ta Bunita. 

Of course, lastly, I thank God for who I am. I have flaws but because of His great love, I still feel loved, accepted. This is one the days where I need to remind myself no matter what happen, God loves me and He remains faithful. 

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Embrace the Place Where You Are

Do you know someone who is not happy with where he or she is in life? She is frustrated because she is not married, and her internal body clock is sounding an alarm. Or he is upset because somebody is not treating him fairly on his career path. They are constantly worried, trying to reason things out, trying to change things that only God can change.

I believe that we created much of our own unhappiness and frustration by constantly resisting and fighting against situations and circumstances occurring in our lives. We don’t understand why our prayers aren’t being answered, why things aren’t changing sooner. “Why has this happened to me?” Consequently. we live with unrest and uneasiness on the inside.

Learn to relax and accept the place where you are. Admittedly, it may not be a great place right now. We all have things we want to see changed, things we want to happen sooner. If we really believe that God is in control and is directing our steps, then we must believe that we are exactly where are supposed to be. We needn’t be wrestling with life and resisting our circumstances all the time.

Yes, we should resist the enemy; we should resist sickness and other robbers of joy. Now, that doesn’t mean that every minute we must be fighting and struggling. Some people seem to wear themselves out, constantly praying, resisting and rebuking. They beg, “Please, God, you’ve got to change this situation. Change my husband. I don’t like my job. My child won’t do right.”

No turn all of that over to God. Your attitude should be: “God, I’m trusting You. I know that You are in control of my life. I may not understand everything that is happening, but I believe You have my best interests at heart. I’m not going to go around resisting and struggling. I’m going to relax and enjoy my life.” Friend, if you can sincerely pray such a prayer, it can take an enormous amount of pressure off you.

The Bible says to “Be still, and know that I am God.” Notice, you need to get still. You need to be at peace with where you are right now. Things may not be perfect. You may have some areas in which you need to improve. But as long as you are living with worry and stress, you are trying the hands of Almighty God. If you could get to a place of peace, God could fight your battles for you. He can turn your negative situations around and use them for good.

Scripture records, “Those who have believed enter in to the rest of God.”Being in God’s rest means that although you may have a problem, you trust Him to take care of it. It means that you may have a situation that you don’t understand, but you are constantly trying to figure out. It means you have a dream in your heart, but you are not in a hurry, you’re not frustrated because it hasn’t come to fruition yet. In other words, when you are really in God’s rest, you know that God has you in the palm of His hand. No matter where you are, you accept it as the place God wants you to be.

I’m not saying that God wants you to stay there, but if you are truly trusting Him, if you believe He is in control, then wherever you are — in either good circumstances or bad –that is where you are supposed to be. Maybe something unfair has happened; maybe somebody is not treating you the right, or you are struggling financially. Still, that doesn’t give you the right to live upset and frustrated.

We have to understand that God has promised He will use whatever comes into our lives for good. He will use the difficulty to do a work in you. What are you facing currently may not be good, but if you’ll keep the right attitude, He’ll use it for your good.

**This is an excerpt from Joel Osteen’s book, Become a Better You: 7 Keys to Improving Your Life Every Day.

Worship even when you don’t feel like doing it.

It is such a privilege to be part of God’s ministry. As a worship leader, there were times I just simply don’t want to do it but I still do it. It’s not about how I feel but it is about who God is. He deserves to be adored so no matter how I feel, no matter what my situation is, I will still worship the ONE who deserves all the glory. I do not want to sound religious. I have my flaws too. But in this writing, I want to you to be encouraged as much as it encourages me whenever life seems all a mess. whenever I feel I am not doing the right thing and my best. It is not enough to just sing

I remember my mentor when I was younger. I was assigned to worship lead at our church for the next Sunday. Everything in my life was a mess that time and I asked her if he can help me find someone to replace me to lead on Sunday. She asked me why, and there I did tell her all the drama in my life. It’s not that bad, I just don’t feel doing it. She is very strict but loving person. She then answered me after telling the story “Is that the way you should serve your God?” And I answered “I do not want to transfer the spirit I have right now to the team because I am not really okay?” “Oh, so whenever you are not okay, God shouldn’t be worshiped? Is that what you meant?” I understood it and my tears kept falling.

God will remain God no matter what. No matter the situation is, whether you are okay or not, God is a God who deserve our worship. We should have a heart like that. Even things are not going well, we should still choose to adore HIM. There are so much reasons to give Him the glory in our life. I do not want to sound that my life is perfect. I actually don’t have. If I have to tell everything in here, you will be spending hours and hours reading. Everyone has problems and it only comes in different forms. But what makes it difference is the way we handle and face them.

I will always have problems, that’s what I believe. There will always be times that I will just lie on my bed, cry my eyes out and with so much pain. In the midst of adversity, God is wanting us to do the best thing. You know what the best thing is? Worship. God’s presence will always be the best place to hide when you do not know how to handle things. In seconds, 5 minutes, 10 minutes being in His arms, soaking yourself to His Word, praying, singing praises, thanking God for all He has done to you, counting all the blessings and all, is better than thousand years. It changes everything. It changes your view in life, your terrible feelings and loneliness suddenly turn to positive and wonderful feeling. Let me say God’s presence is everything. Jesus is everything we need.

I am not good of explaining things theologically, but really.. His presence is life to me. It’s amazing to have experienced this, it’s privilege, it’s an honor. I forget things that worry me, I forget the pain, I forget the struggle in just few seconds or minutes as soon as I know God is covering me with his love. Knowing how he really loves me changes the way I look at things.

 The social media is a big destruction to our relationship with Him. When I found myself browsing and scrolling my Facebook, Instagram and others for hours, I had to stop and tell myself “Stop scrolling, Read your Bible” I am not saying I am a person who read the Bible all the time consistently. I just understand that His word is a lamp to our feet. A perfect guide and light unto our path according to Psalm. And it is really true. So whenever you feel that your path is not the direction you should be taking in, remind yourself God wants to direct your path. Reading His word is a step of knowing him more, finding him and loving him.

I am still one of the people who want to know more about Him and I am still in the process. I am under construction, letting my architect to design me. I am the passenger wherein I let the driver take over my life. It is more about trusting Him. I might not understand everything that has been happening in my life right now but what I am sure of is God never changes. He remains faithful. He loves me for who I am. My situation doesn’t define me, I will believe what God says who I am. I am beautiful, I am precious and I am a victor. My success  doesn’t define the way the world define it. My treasure and my success is in God. It’s in His presence. It’s in my worship towards Him I truly belong. IN HIM alone.

“Is this the way I serve God?” I  will ask myself this question whenever I don’t feel coming to him, whether I don’t feel thanking Him and whether I don’t feel worshiping Him. Because the question will always remind me whenever I see myself not doing my best to the ONE who created me, I am missing something. HE deserves more than anything else in this world. HE is my God, the one who loves, forgives, rescues, comforts, corrects, accepts and adores me, the only One who can touch my heart so deep. How could I not give my best? He deserves our everything. He wants our heart. Give your heart and do your best.

Worship even when you are sad, even when you do not have a job, even you have financial problems, even when you are in pain. Worship. God remains God no matter what and He deserves our adoration. 🙂

Blessings!

Princess

Tuesday Random Thoughts

Everybody wants to be accepted and loved. Everyone wants attention and care. I admit sometimes I am trying to find my satisfaction from people, from my parents, friends and love ones or special someone. I want their time. I long for their love but the more I expect from them, the more I get disappointed. I ended up becoming bitter towards them.

Bitterness and eventually turned to brokenness. I started to think that no one loves me and no one cares. The result: I give up on loving people even those people who didn’t do anything wrong to me.I held that love that suppose to be shared and shown. God wants us to love unconditionally. But it is our nature to love with conditions. God is the only one who love that way –perfect, unending, without expecting anything in return. Well, I guess I didn’t understand that before.

I can be desperate for someone’s attention. But at the end of the day, our gracious God will let me feel that no one else can touch my heart like he does. Why am I looking for anyone’s attention? Why am I wanting to be accepted? Why do I want to look attractive? Do I need those to gain people’s care and love? No, of course not. God wants me to be me. because he loves me as who I am. And there, His touch will change everything I feel. Knowing I am not alone. I am precious in His sight. I am the apple of His eyes. He knows everything. He knows me so well. Nothing is hidden, he knows every detail of my life. So, why should I be ashamed of what I feel? I can be real in His presence.

I am thankful whenever I feel this, whenever I feel unaccepted, unattractive and ugly. “U” things HAHA. Why? Because it is a reminder that  I am accepted because He said so. There are people who love me as I am. I thank God for that. I am attractive. He gave me this heart towards HIM and he looks into our hearts. Every time I see how people looks on the outward appearance, I remind  myself that inward beauty is the essential part of living. Physical beauty will fade but a person who has a good heart will shines and lasts. For me, that’s the real beauty. If people won’t notice that, does it really matter? No. Because we live for our King and he will be honored if we will continue to guard our hearts. If our purpose in life is to give God the glory, these things don’t matter. Your heart is.

I feel sad and bad for ladies who cry over men who don’t even notice them. I understand them completely, I did and do feel that sometimes. We chased, we stalked, we waited but seenzoned. HAHA 🙂 But it doesn’t define us, right? It doesn’t mean you are ugly. Maybe God is sparing us for the wrong person. Maybe God wants us to seek Him earnestly and asked Him for a man/woman He wanted us to be with. And trust Him more. I don’t know why I am thinking this stuff but today is one of those days I couldn’t stop my thoughts, an urge to share. Well, everybody is free to share their thoughts. So, if you are reading this, thank you and I really appreciate you visiting my page.

My point is. God loves us the way we are. You do not need to be someone else. You do not need to impress someone. Because God sees you beautiful. You are awesome. I wonder if God also feels that butterflies in stomach whenever we see our crush, when he/she replies on our messages, enjoys being with that someone we love. I think so, He must be really happy when His children, His brides enjoy His presence. So, instead of trying so hard to be accepted by anyone, be reminded that you are already accepted. You are loved. You are wanted.  Enjoy God’s beauty. Be filled by His love towards you.

Prayer:

God, I thank you for you never reject me. You love me as who I am. When I think about all my weaknesses and flaws, I can’t help but cry and ask why on earth you love me. But it is your nature. You delight in showing your love, grace and mercy. Whenever I want someone to comfort me, help me to run to you. Whenever I long for someone’s time, help me to give my time in praying and reading your Word. Whenever I feel hopeless, let me see your beauty, your grace and let me be amazed all the time. I know I made and will make mistakes, but God, you are all I need in this life. I want to seek you with all my heart. Thank you for I know you do not miss a thing, you notice me and you see everything. Father, I give my heart to you. Help me to understand your love so I will love myself and others. Help me to see myself the way you see me. Beautiful. Complete me and I give my all. Take over. Amen

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Thanks for your time reading my post. I pray that God will speak to you. If you are one of those who feel unaccepted and unloved  I would love to listen and pray for you. Inbox me 🙂

-Princess 

Life on earth is ephemeral. Do what makes you happy!