Tumitingin ka kasi sa iba, Tingin ka sa Sarili mo.

Kaya tayo nahihirapan makita ang kakayanan natin kasi nakatingin tayo sa iba. Nakatingin tayo sa kung ano meron sila na maganda na wala ka. “Bakit sya ganun?” Bakit may ganun sya ako wala” “Bakit sya nagagawa nya yun, bakit ako hindi” “Buti pa sya..”

Insecurities. Low self-esteem.

Napaisip ako at habang patuloy na nagpapakita ng revelations si Lord sa akin. Binulong nya sa akin “Tumitingin ka kasi sa iba, Tingin ka kasi sa sarili mo.”

Do not get me wrong. Masaya ako sa kasiyahan at success ng iba. Masaya akong makita kapag may mga blessings ang iba, patunay na napakabuti ng Dios hindi lang sa akin kundi sa lahat. May mga panahon lang talga nang dahil sa mga circumstances sa buhay, hindi ko maiwasang magtanong kung bakit naging ganito ako sa sarili ko. Masyado ko ba nilaglag, ganern bes! Ang baba e, to the lowest level, pabagsak na ko nun e.

Unti unti pinakita sakin ni Lord ang mga kalakasan ko. Nung mga panahon na na-depress ako, syempre, hindi mo talaga makita na capable ka. Lahat negative. Ang pangit. Hindi maganda ang depression. Hindi sya nakakatuwa. Nakakaloka sya, literally. Pero tinulungan at tinuturuan ako ni Lord how to deal with it. Nagbasa ako ng mga motivational books, mga personality development, spiritual and inspirational books. Nagexercise ako atbp.

I do not compare my life to others in a negative way. Naniniwala ako na iba iba talaga tayo ng destinasyon sa buhay, iba iba ang nararanasan at tinatahak natin. Nasa sa atin na kung paano natin harapin at iba’t ibang challenges na meron tayo. Kung paano tayo maging grateful and content.

Dumating lang talaga sa point ng buhay ko na ayaw ko na. Wala na! Hindi ko na gusto gumalaw at sumubok ulit. Ayaw ko na harapin yun kaba at takot. Tapos nakatingin lang ako sa iba na nakakatuwa na nagagawa nila mga yun habang binaba ko ang sarili ko, kelan kaya ako? Ang tanong ko.

“Tumitingin ka kasi sa iba, tingin ka sa sarili mo”

I know God wants me to look at Him all the time. That’s the only way I could survive pero gusto ipa-alala sa akin ni Lord na tumingin ako sa sarili ko kung paano nya ako nilikhang kahanga-hanga! O diba?

Kaya nagumpisa ako tignan mga kaya kong gawin, mga bagay na magaling ako, mga talento na binigay sa akin. Andyan na e, andito lang sya, kung bakit hindi ko mailabas at hindi ko makita kasi naging busy ako tumingin sa iba. Naging busy ako sa liwanag ng iba habang ang ilaw ko napundi na.

Hindi masamang mahalin ang sarili. Naniniwala nga ako na dapat matutunan mo muna talagang mahalin ang sarili bago masabing kaya mo na magmahal ng iba. Hindi pagiging selfish ang pagtanggap at pagmamahal sa sarili. Self-love ang tawag dun.

We all know and heard about how God created us uniquely, fearfully and wonderfully. But sometimes we are busy looking at others strength that we don’t have time to look how awesome we are. He made us. Hindi sya nagkamali na nilikha nya tayo. Hindi sya nagkamaling ibigay yung mga kakayanan natin. Na sa atin na e. Ilabas na lang!

Express na bes!

Kung iisa isahin natin ang strengths, abilities na binigay sa atin ni Lord at ititigil na natin ang mga negatibong paniniwala sa sarili, madami tayo ma-achieve, malayo mararating natin. Hindi ko sinasabing maging mayabang na tayo kasi puro sarili ang sinasabi ko dito. Ang point ko, kung isa ka sa mga tao na mahilig at nageenjoy na mag nega thoughts, parang ako, gising gising din tayo! Marami tayong magagawang maganda at dakila. Tingin ka sa sarili mo at maniwala ka na kaya mo.

Kaya ko din. ❤️🙏 So help me, God!

But wait, let me take a selfie!

Maniwala ka sa iyong angking ganda at talino 😂

Thank you so much sa pagbabasa. ❤️

-Princess

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Unexpected But Planned-Part 2

Unexpected But Planned Part 1 

I never thought I will be doing international ministry. I was only planning to join them and get some lessons and expectant for Gods revelations in my life. But I loved it when he calls you to do something impromptu, and yet it turned out great because you did it for Him, for His glory.

I and with some of the leaders of our church in Aruba attended a General Conference of Congregational Holiness Church, our mother church in Georgia. It was held in Gainesville, GA. God had been busy revealing many things to me. Excitingly, he let me see not only one state.

Places/State we went to:

  1. Gainesville, Georgia 
  2. Alabama
  3. Helen, Georgia – Anna Ruby Falls
  4. Cleveland, Georgia – Cabbage Patch Kids
  5. Atlanta, Georgia – Stone Mountain, Hyatt Regency

Alabama

Our pastor, Ptr Roel Tangco was assigned to preach in CHC Alabama. It was a great experience. His wife and I were able to lead a worship song as well. Unexpected. God is so good, I love God’s surprises.

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While on the road, I was in my thoughts. “God, you are amazing. I love doing things for you. I feel like I am fulfilling what I am called. Thank you for the opportunity!”

Does a good career will make you feel successful, fulfilled? I don’t think so. I heard this from my sister Queen when we talk about ministries “Success is doing what God wants you to do” You’ll only feel the satisfaction in your life if you know in your heart that you are doing what God wants you to do.

What a joy we have in Jesus.

God says, “I will use you mightily if you are willing. Make yourself available.”

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We, churchmates from Aruba met the Pastor and wife from this church in Alabama

It was a great Sunday Worship Service.

Helen, Georgia

            Anna Ruby Falls

They didn’t only bring us to the conference for the spritual matter, they brought us also to some places to see attractions. God bless them. We went to Anna Ruby Falls. Nice View 🙂IMG_2786

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Sorry for my chubby face and body. I love myself HAHA

While walking going to the water falls, God reminded me of His Word.

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: he leadeth me beside the still waters. He restoreth my soul: he leadeth me in the paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life: and I will dwell in the house of the Lord for ever.

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I will never lack anything because God is my provider. The green trees remind me of His peace in my darkest days. He never let me fall, he chases me all the time and when I tend to go the wrong way, the other way, he never let me get lost. The woods represent the distraction in our life, we may go in a different way but He will show the path right back to His presence, secured, loved, peaceful, where I belong. He corrects me and teaches me, it may be a hard discipline but He does that to mold me, to make me a better one.

“Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life”

Cleveland, Georgia

              Cabbage Patch Kids

A doll in a cabbage. It’s cool how this attraction was created. Read the Legend of the Cabbage Patch Kids on their official site. But really dolls here are for sale, they are actually adopted by people. When you buy, they will give you baby’s birth certificate. It is a perfect place for babies and kids who want to adopt a baby doll.

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Are you ready to visit the babies in this hospital? Hehe

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Who wants to adopt this little one? HAHA

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The babies move up and down. Hihi cutie!

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It’s so good to be young, huh? Should I get one for me?

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I think I will try to make my own baby first, and adopt one day? What do you think?

 

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My School Bus is waiting… Say bye Dora! Next destination…HAHA

 

Atlanta, Georgia

          Stone Mountain

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Yung sculpture talaga ang kinukuhanan dito e…Nag-focus lang sa akin!hehe 

 

       Georgia – Peach Market/Farm

Georgia is known as Peach State. We went here just to have some fresh peach ice cream. They also sell strawberries, apples etc. I was just focused on peach, I wasn’t able to check other products they have. But what good about here is, they’re fresh.

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Peach Ice cream!!!!!

First time to see an apple tree. Thank you, Jesus! Happy kid..

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There’s a store there who sells this stuff, I love rustic!

Gainesville, Georgia

               Free Chapel Worship Center

Attended Worship Service at Free Chapel. They are amazing! It’s my second time seeing Pastor Jentezen Franklin, an American pastor, author and can be seen on television too. He is the senior Pastor of Free Chapel Worship Center. He is a great preacher.

 

It was Father’s day when we attended the service. He encouraged the fathers to be a Man of Word, a man that obeys His Word so they could be a good example for their children. Truly, that the Word, the Bible is the lamp unto our feet and a light unto our path. Love his heart. God bless him!

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With our church leaders and pastors

 

This experience was a blast! I  thank God for everything. God is so good. When God plans, it is always the best. One thing I am challenged to do, expect more from HIM. He is a great God! HE can do great things. Dare to believe!

Thank you for reading!

Love,

-Princess

 

Forty-Seven Months

46 months:

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I was hesitant to post cheesy stuff about my love life but I realized, I should be really grateful that God has given me this kind of relationship. To be honest, I don’t want to sound bragging. I used to appreciate him in social media more often, but there was a time someone told me that she’s jealous that I found someone like him. I am thankful but really, I don’t want to be a source of someone’s sadness or insecurities. They will start to think like “Why I don’t have this kind of relationship” or “I wish my man is like that” etc etc. or sometimes we compare.

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(Pinakita ko talaga ang likes para dagdagan nyo! HAHA Joke!)

But ladies, let me tell you this. There is no such thing as a perfect relationship and perfect person. We all have weaknesses, shouldn’t compare yours to others. God has a different story for us and different way of making it fun and lovely. What makes a relationship beautiful is when you let HIM write your story and let Him be the center of it. I am not bragging how perfect and good mine is, I am boasting about how God teaches us to be a better partner so we can love each other the right way. We’ve been through ups and downs, adjustments, disagreements, we disappoint each other, we fight but at the end of the day, we still want to please God by forgiving each other, by understanding each others’ feelings. We tend to be selfish at times, we want to be understood and let the pride get in. But is it the way God wants us to be in a relationship? Of course not, pride is the biggest enemy. So ladies, lower our pride. Just eat fried chicken. Hehe!

Forty-seven months, almost four years. September 01, 2017.

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Well, he knows how to reply, at least. HAHA (Minsan pumupuso nalang e! Pero di ako galit bes, pusuan mo man o hindi!)

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Happy 3years and 11 months to my Baby. He’s not a social media person who post things all the time about the relationship, but I know and he has shown me how he loves me. I thank him for his patience and understanding. I thank him for he is waiting. Not every man will wait for this long. There are so many things I want to say but I will leave them on our BIG DAY!

I am engaged with this man who loves Jesus. Thank you for you are my answered prayer.

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(Konting kembot nalang, maging isa na kami. )

Thank you guys for reading!

-Princess