An Open Letter to my Sister

Dear ate Queen,

I woke up in the middle of the night, couldn’t get back to sleep. I asked God to show me who to pray for. I didn’t forget your birthday. I whispered sweet prayers for you. It’s your day, ate Queen! I hope you are having a great time at the moment. Suddenly, my eyes are full of tears. I know you want us to be there with you to celebrate your birthday. But we all know that it is not that easy. How I wish I can just hug you right now, laugh with you loudly (as we usually do), cry with you as we remember the challenges we’ve been through. I wish I can just fly there easily to surprise you with a party, go shopping with you, eat together and just have sisters bonding. Wish I can make you happy by being present on your birthday. But I couldn’t. To make you feel loved (always) even I am a thousand miles away. This is the least I can do.

I have seen you suffered many times but you got up every time. You are one of the strongest people I know. I can say this not only because I know the challenges you’ve been through but because you have become my inspiration. During the times I was so down and depressed, you never stop lifting me up, praying for me. I cannot thank you enough for all the sacrifices you’ve done for me and King when we were younger. You stood up like our parents, ate (older sister) and kuya (older brother) HAHA. Yeah, that’s why you’re boyish. You fought carelessly when someone tries to hurt us and make us cry. As soon as you know we’re hurt, you are ready to go and talk to them with all your deep words that will make them feel guilty for hurting us. LOL Thank you for being our hero. 

You never look down on us. You always believe in us, in our capabilities, our talents and you are always the ‘Stage Sister’. You celebrate with our accomplishments, you prayed harder for our success that sometimes or most of the time you forget yourself. You are selfless. You think others first more than yourself. Everything is set aside, it’s Princess and King – the priority. Thank you for all your love.

We had a big fight just recently, and I think that was the first time in our entire life. I hurt you badly and I was scared when you told me ‘Simula ngayon wala ka ng ate’ (From now on you don’t have a sister, I am no longer your older sister). I cried so hard like a baby and I know, you did as well. That’s the painful words I ever received in my life. I was scared. You blocked me on your messenger list. Up to this day, I couldn’t believe you did that. I just know that moment that we are both hurt. Brandon, my husband didn’t know how to comfort me. I cried at night, to morning. The next day, couldn’t take it anymore and I was ready to make a letter to my boss and asked for a vacation, go to the Philippines and say Sorry.  I can let others get mad at me, unfriended me, or just disappear in my life but not my sister. I just love her and I was so sorry for hurting her. Mommy scolded us both HAHA, we’re too old to fight. Thank God we talked and apologized the next day. I was relieved. 

I miss you. I love you.

As you pray for our happiness, please remember and know that I do the same. I pray and want the best for you, ‘te Queen. I am so glad that after years of praying and trying you, finally get your license as a nurse #RegisteredNurse. You courageously shared your story to the Facebook world. You didn’t hesitate to tell them that before you pass it, you failed many times. For people’s/ world’s view, they are failures, but for me, they are blessings. Challenges mold you, shape you and made you stronger. You are an inspiration. You inspired us and encouraged us to never give up on your dreams. There will be hindrances on the way, you’ll encounter many obstacles but you just keep pressing on and trusting God that He knows what He is doing.

Secondly, for how many years you were single, you finally found the one. Congratulations on your 1st year anniversary yesterday (Nov 18) – Hashtag #fiance #worththewait #MayForever HAHA. I am so happy for you. I thank God every day because I don’t need to worry for you about your love life any more. HAHA God is always on time, ate Queen. It was not in a rush but it was a sincere prayer that one day, you will find a man God has created just for you. And the day has come.

You are gorgeous, inside out.

Happy Birthday, ate Queen. Di ko na ilalagay and edad, wala na tayo sa kalendaryo.  I will say it again, single or married, I will never stop listening to you, caring for you and loving you.

I rejoice with you for all your blessings! We love you so much

(Wala akong picture this time. Madaling araw na.. ZZZZZzzzz manguha ako saglit sa FB.)

Photo Credit: Kuya Manny Jonah Dela Cruz