Do you know someone who is not happy with where he or she is in life? She is frustrated because she is not married, and her internal body clock is sounding an alarm. Or he is upset because somebody is not treating him fairly on his career path. They are constantly worried, trying to reason things out, trying to change things that only God can change.
I believe that we created much of our own unhappiness and frustration by constantly resisting and fighting against situations and circumstances occurring in our lives. We don’t understand why our prayers aren’t being answered, why things aren’t changing sooner. “Why has this happened to me?” Consequently. we live with unrest and uneasiness on the inside.
Learn to relax and accept the place where you are. Admittedly, it may not be a great place right now. We all have things we want to see changed, things we want to happen sooner. If we really believe that God is in control and is directing our steps, then we must believe that we are exactly where are supposed to be. We needn’t be wrestling with life and resisting our circumstances all the time.
Yes, we should resist the enemy; we should resist sickness and other robbers of joy. Now, that doesn’t mean that every minute we must be fighting and struggling. Some people seem to wear themselves out, constantly praying, resisting and rebuking. They beg, “Please, God, you’ve got to change this situation. Change my husband. I don’t like my job. My child won’t do right.”
No turn all of that over to God. Your attitude should be: “God, I’m trusting You. I know that You are in control of my life. I may not understand everything that is happening, but I believe You have my best interests at heart. I’m not going to go around resisting and struggling. I’m going to relax and enjoy my life.” Friend, if you can sincerely pray such a prayer, it can take an enormous amount of pressure off you.
The Bible says to “Be still, and know that I am God.” Notice, you need to get still. You need to be at peace with where you are right now. Things may not be perfect. You may have some areas in which you need to improve. But as long as you are living with worry and stress, you are trying the hands of Almighty God. If you could get to a place of peace, God could fight your battles for you. He can turn your negative situations around and use them for good.
Scripture records, “Those who have believed enter in to the rest of God.”Being in God’s rest means that although you may have a problem, you trust Him to take care of it. It means that you may have a situation that you don’t understand, but you are constantly trying to figure out. It means you have a dream in your heart, but you are not in a hurry, you’re not frustrated because it hasn’t come to fruition yet. In other words, when you are really in God’s rest, you know that God has you in the palm of His hand. No matter where you are, you accept it as the place God wants you to be.
I’m not saying that God wants you to stay there, but if you are truly trusting Him, if you believe He is in control, then wherever you are — in either good circumstances or bad –that is where you are supposed to be. Maybe something unfair has happened; maybe somebody is not treating you the right, or you are struggling financially. Still, that doesn’t give you the right to live upset and frustrated.
We have to understand that God has promised He will use whatever comes into our lives for good. He will use the difficulty to do a work in you. What are you facing currently may not be good, but if you’ll keep the right attitude, He’ll use it for your good.
**This is an excerpt from Joel Osteen’s book, Become a Better You: 7 Keys to Improving Your Life Every Day.
Sinusubukan kong tapusin ang mga write ups ko na na-tengga na sa Drafts. Isa to inumpisahan ko. Ako ay napangiti nang nakita kong pamagat lang pala ang naisulat ko dito. LOL. Bakit nga ba ako nandito?
Sa apat na taon ko dito, patunay lang na hindi pa rin klaro sa akin ang dahilan kung bakit ako nandito. Nakita ko naman ang mga pagbabago sa buhay ko. Ang ilan dito ay maganda pero hindi rin makakaila na meron or mas marami ata yung hindi maganda. I do not want to sound complaining about my life. But if I will be honest with you, mas marami ata ang masakit na nangyari dito.
OFW. Di ko naman siguro kelangan pa isa isahin ang hirap ng isang OFW. Talaga naman kasing para tayong lage nasa battle, laban ng laban. Hangga’t kaya, sige lang. Pero dumarating talaga yun mga oras na hindi mo mapigilan hindi maging malungkot at alalahanin mga naiwan mo sa Pinas.
Dinadaan nalang yan sa tawa at sa panonood ng Koreanovela. Aba mahilig naman kasi talaga ako dyan. Bukod sa ang popogi nila at makikinis, talaga naman maganda ang stories ng mga Korean series lalo na pagdating sa pag-ibig. Ang pure kasi. Kaya marami ang nawiwili dito dahil lahat naghahangad ng fairy-tale love story. LOL 🙂
So Bakit ba ako nandito? :
Dahil kay Papa
Lahat ng mga OFW ang major reason nila ay ang makatulong sa family financially. Syempre yun din dahilan ko, di ako gaya-gaya HAHA pero alam naman natin na ang hirap talaga ng buhay sa Pinas, diba?
Pero isa sa mbigat na dahilan ko kaya ako nandito ay dahil gusto ko makasama si Papa. Bata palang ako OFW na ang parents ko. Broken family din ako dahil din dyan. Hindi ko naman sila masisi pero isa akong product ng broken family. Kung maganda siguro ang buhay namin noon, hindi na kailangan mang-ibambansa ang Mommy. Oo, sya ang unang umalis. 6years old ako noon. Sad truth, hindi ko talaga na experience yung Mommy-daughter moment. Kasi naririnig ko lang sya sa voice tape pa noon. Nararamdaman lang sya sa mga packages, yung pakiramdam na binabalot nya yung mga padala nya sa amin. Di pa uso skype noon and hindi pa techy mga tao. So, buwan ang hihintayin bago mabasa mga sulat namin.
Mahirap ba yun? Aba syempre hindi… hindi ko makaka-ila. Mahirap at masakit. Sa picture mo lang sya napagmamasdan. Kinailangan rin umalis ng Papa, that time ako ay nasa High School na. Third year HS ata ako noon. Pero dahil nga nagkakalabuan na rin sila Papa noon, umalis din si Papa pero ibang bansa din. At dito na nga yun sa Aruba.
Marami na ang nangyari pero gusto ko din linawin na wala akong galit sa mga magulang ko. Tanggap ko na at mahal ko sila kahit ano pa man ang mga naging desisyon nila sa buhay. Bilang isang anak, ayaw ko isumbat sa kanila ang mga naging pagkakamali din namin dahil wala sila sa tabi namin upang gabayan kami. Dahil naniniwala ako na ang lahat ng pangyayari sa buhay natin ay may dahilan.
Ang haba na nito no? Andyan ka pa ba? So to make it short, I wanted to feel having parents beside you. Kasi matagal tagal namin di naramdaman yun. Maniniwala kaba kung ang tanging dasal ko lang noon bata bata pa ako ay ang magkaroon ng ‘family picture’? Simple lang siya pero malalim, mahirap makamit. 🙂
Sa kagustuhan ko mapalapit sa magulang ko dahil sa paniniwala na magiging kumpleto ako pag maramdaman ko na kasama ko sila, nagdecide ako na magtrabaho na din abroad. At alam mo ba na hindi naging madali sa akin iwan ang comfort zone ko? Dun ako nagkamuwang, nagkaroon ng kaibigan, nagmahal at minahal at nagkatrabaho na akala ko hindi pa enough.
Dahil kay Papa kaya ako nandito. I want to be closer to him. Pero alam mo ba na malungkot ako? Hindi ko kasi alam if na-aapreciate nya yun. Hindi ko alam if ramdam nya na mahal ko sya. Hindi ko alam if proud ba sya sa akin. Siguro one day, malalaman nya din na kahit ganito ako ngayon. Nasa bahay lang ako ngayon isang buwan na, jobless. HAHA balang araw magiging proud din sya sakin.
So, may isa pa akong prayer. Si mommy naman. Bago man lang ako magsettle down (naks! ikakasal na ang bata), maranasan ko naman ang Mommy-daughter bonding. Sapat na siguro ang kay Papa, though alam kong kulang pa. Pero I know Papa loves me at mga kapatid ko, lahat ginagawa nya para sa amin. Alam ko na kahit hindi man sya showy, mahal na mahal nya pa rin kami.
2. Para sa kanya
Maarte.’para sakanya pa’ nalalaman. HAHA. Nakilala ko dito ang mapapangasawa ko. So, kaya ako nandito ay para makilala ko sya. O diba? Ang magbabago ng takbo ng buhay ko at apelyido ko. Boom! Wait… wag nalang makasiguro baka pagdating sa dulo hindi rin pala matuloy at sasama na rin ako sa mga organisasyon ng mga single na sumisigaw ng “Walang Forever”
3. God alone
All for God’s glory. Nandito ako para patunayan na kahit na anong hirap ng buhay hindi pa rin magbabago ang katotohanang ang Diyos at tapat kailanpaman. Mahirap maging katulong kahit na tapos ako ng pag-aaral. Pero dahil nga kelangan ko mag-comply sa rules nila dito, tiniis ko. Sa mga panahon na iniiyak ko ito sa Kanya, isa lang napatunayan ko. Never ako iniwan ng Diyos. Sa bawat patak ng luha at pagtawa ko Sya lang ang nagiisang may alam ng tunay na laman ng aking puso. Sige seryoso na to. HAHA Basta ang sinasabi ko langh. Bakit ko nakakya lahat? Kasi andyan si Lord.
Kung binabasa mo pa din ito, salamat po. Naapreciate ko po ng sobra. God bless you!
“Never judge someone
By the way he looks
Or a book by the way it’s covered;
For inside those tattered pages,
There’s a lot to be discovered”
― Stephen Cosgrove
Not all we see is real. Not all we heard is true. This past few months of reading, browsing, researching and following stories after stories, issues after issues about Philippine Presidential Candidacy 2016, I’ve seen and heard how dirty politics is, how bias medias are and how poor governance we really have. Filipinos’ outrage voices around the world had been heard on social media. Posts, video clips, comments and reactions regarding this filled my Facebook wall and timeline.
I participated twice in election but once in Presidential Election. I was not able to vote this year for my name was not in the list. But it doesn’t mean I do not have a voice and won’t participate. I won’t shut up. (Shut up na lang, pag di voters?) I believe election is not for voters only, its for all Filipinos. I so love my country and I can’t wait to see changes. I can’t wait to come home without worrying about the robbers and snatchers. I can’t wait to see the places with less traffics. Safety and security, I can’t wait to trust police who exercise peace and order. I cannot wait to see peace and order.
Do I have a voice? Yes I have. I am not a voter but I am a Filipino. I am an OFW (Overseas Filipino Workers). If our government is not corrupt, there will be no OFW around the world, leaving their country, family and love ones for they want to give their children a better life. Do you think they want to leave them? DO you think they love being in other place, suffering, crying so hard at night because of homesickness. They are not only physically tired but fighting as well mentally and emotionally. I know some of them broke down and completely disconnect from reality. They lost their mind. Not all are strong but all of them striving to be strong. This is a cry of a Filipino who among millions of people desiring and hoping for changes in the country. We are rich in resources. I really believe we are rich but sadly to say Corruption is killing us all.
I am for Mayor Rodrigo Duterte as President.
Rodrigo “Rody” Roa Duterte (born March 28, 1945), nicknamed Digong, is a Filipino lawyer, politician and the 16th President-elect of the Republic of Philippines. He is among the longest-serving mayors in the Philippines and has been mayor of Davao City, a city of 1,449,296 people on Mindanao island, for seven terms, totalling more than 22 years. He has also served as vice-mayor of and congressman for the city.
Popular with the locals due to his successful zero tolerance policies against criminals, he was given the nickname “The Punisher” byTime.Vigilante groups tied to Duterte are thought to be responsible for the execution of drug traffickers, criminals, gang members and other perceived “lawless elements”. During Duterte’s 22 years in office, the crime rate in Davao City, in the 1970s and 1980s known as the “murder capital of the Philippines”, went down. While the city presents itself as one of the world’s safest places,recent data from the Philippine National Police lists Davao City as the city with the highest number of murders and with the second highest number of rape incidents in the country.
I am one of the millions who supports him. He has a bad mouth, yes, he curses and all. He is a womanizer which he admitted also, but he is the only politician I’ve known who really catches the heart of many Filipinos because of his sincerity, love for people and the country. I am a Christian and I do not say bad words but I do not judge him, in fact I started to pray for him and admire him. Hmm… I wanted to say more but yeah… For me, he is still the best among the rest.
But I respect other’s opinion. We have different views and belief. My father is for Grace Poe, my grandmother is for Mar Roxas, Me and my siblings are for Mayor Duterte. We are okay with that. We respect. Vote for who you think the right person. We are all free to choose.
I look up to Duterte, he is like a father to me. My sister and I prayed so hard for him and even want to hug him for all the defamation. We still believe in him. We even cried for him (a lot!) “Change is coming”. Yesterday was the election. After he voted, he went to his parents grave and the video of him went viral for he sobbed in front of his Mom’s grave. I know and I feel that cry is not only because he misses his mom but that is also for the Philippines, for the people, for me, for us. ‘The Punisher’ has surely has the heart. Change is coming and God will use him.
Mayor Duterte leads insurmountable.
‘It’s with humility, extreme humility, that I accept this, the mandate of the people,’ Duterte says in Davao City (Rappler)
Congratulations! I am a Filipino and my President is Rodrigo Duterte.
Kids want to get old and old people wanted to be kids again. The same feeling as others who turned at this age, I had that moment of truth as well. Like “Wait, really? What happened?” This is also a moment where you evaluate your life and will have a deep realizations. Let me share my thoughts on turning 29ish.
LIFE IS SHORT, Be Content.
We usually hear this when a person dies, but this time no one dies. I just become more aware of my age. If we only know when will we die, I am sure all of us will live everyday as if it is your last. But reality check, we do not know when. But we all know that our life here on earth is short to be negative all the time. Why not spend your years meaningful and happy? How?
Contentment is one of the answers. Life is not a competition. We are all given a life to enjoy. Just because some are rich you should hate yourself being poor and choose to pity yourself. Just because you are in Philippines and most of your friends work abroad doesn’t mean you are not successful. Also, just because they work abroad doesn’t mean they don’t experience struggles and hardships. We all do, wherever we are, whatever we do, we all undergo in the process of learning and enjoying life. Admit it or not, we have and/or had depressions and anxiety attacks at times. You started to look down on yourself and believe the thinking that you are nothing because you also starting to compare yourself to others.
We always want more. I remember someone who once said “If I will only have that phone, I will end up there and will not ask for more” he got that phone, but guess what every year he wants to change his phone. High technology, trending, everyone has it and ending up “I want that too”. If cellphone is only a way of communication and if it still works, why should I buy a new and expensive one? It is okay to upgrade or buy whenever and whatever you want. Its not a problem as long as you can afford and know your priorities. My point is, in our lives we never be content if we will freely let ourselves flow how the world goes. You get frustrated when you can’t have what you want, the luxurious life that everyone wants, and start to be feel jealous and compare self to others. Be content. If they are rich, let them be rich. If you think you are poor, you are wrong. God has given us everything we need. You just have to know the difference between NEEDS and WANTS.
5 Keep your life free from love of money, and be content with what you have, for he has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”
1 Timothy 6:6-11 (ESV)
6 But godliness with contentment is great gain,7 for we brought nothing into the world, and[a] we cannot take anything out of the world.8 But if we have food and clothing, with these we will be content.9 But those who desire to be rich fall into temptation, into a snare, into many senseless and harmful desires that plunge people into ruin and destruction.10 For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evils. It is through this craving that some have wandered away from the faith and pierced themselves with many pangs.
When I was younger, I used to be like someone who wants more. I want this and that. I had deep thoughts of being rich. Big own house, car and beautiful branded clothes. I spent time thinking and wishing my life to be like that, perfect as others look at it. And when I came back to reality, I started to get mad at my parents. “If only they are rich” But as time goes by, as I learned from life and see what truly the real treasure is and through God’s word, the light unto our path, I changed. My perspective in life changes. That “if only they/I am rich” turns to “If only I am content”. If only from the very start, I am content, I would be happier and appreciate the beauty of life. It is okay. It’s not to late. God wants us to be content. I do not want to spend my life on earth comparing my life to others. I want and choose to be content. Thank God for his correction and learning.
2. Love Yourself.
This is a broad topic to discuss. I do not want to be misunderstood when I say “Love and Be yourself” God loves everyone of us and he accepts us for who we are. I will only talk about a situation where self pity and low self esteem overwhelm me.
Many of us dwell on the thoughts “I am not good enough” “I am not capable” “I can’t achieve great things” “I am miserable” “I can’t achieve my dreams””I will be forever like this” Regardless of age, we tend to dwell on negative thoughts. “Buti pa sila” “Buti ka pa” Those words and thoughts unconsciously destroying your character and personality. You forget who you are because you are filled with others attainments and start to even look on their flaws as well to make yourself believe either you are better than them, or you think you are wretchedly unhappy. Both results are not good If you don’t know how to balance, you will become insecure and ending up comparing yourself to others and hatred starting to fill your heart to the people too. You think they’ve got them all good together in their lives and you don’t. Sadly you become hard on yourself unknowingly. You become jealous about other’s possessions and achievements instead of focusing on your abilities and accomplishments.
Social media is something we can have an access on others’ lives and you started to think that they are more blessed or fortunate than you are. It is normal that we sometimes feel jealous, everybody feels that, admit it or not. But it always good that you will have a good check in your heart from time to time. If you want to have a peaceful life. Star to love yourself and see the good things in your heart. I personally admire people who are happy to others success. They are very few. Do not be somebody else. Be yourself. Love yourself.
There will always be someone who is better than you, prettier or more handsome than you, smarter than you, richer than you but there is only one YOU. You are unique. When I realized that I really wanted to write, a dream held in my heart for a long time. I doubted it first because I focused on others’ works. They are so good and I am not. I admit I still have to learn things. But one thing I have learned, I won’t achieve any goals in my life if I won’t step on it. JUST DO IT. I do not write because everyone has the ability to write (for bloggers and writers), I write because I love to. I need this to make me feel happy and fulfilled. They are better than me yes, I know. I admire them but instead of focusing on those ‘more than you’, look into your heart, START appreciating your own self and you will be amazed how God becomes gracious in bestowing blessings and favors, abilities, skills, talents and gifts upon you. I can’t say that I am able to write good but by doing this, I am loving myself. It helps me to express myself. So whether people won’t like what I am writing or saying here, I will still do it because I love doing this. 🙂 I am God’s masterpiece. You are God’s masterpiece. It means you are His great art of work.
Ephesians 2:10 New Living Translations (NLT)
10 For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.
3. Nobody to Somebody
I am 30 and during my younger years, negative thoughts like these empower me. It does happen to me still at times. I don’t like it. I do not want my heart be consumed with dirty things such us hatred, greed, anger, jealousy, frustrations, depressions and all. Everyone does not like them, of course. I do not want to live like that, so seeking the ONE who created us is the best way to know what is good and what is not, to have a knowledge between right and wrong. I am so thankful that the life God has given us everyday is a chance and challenge for ourselves to be better. To live a life with a purpose. You learn along the way, your journey of being Nobody to Somebody is not an easy journey yet it is fulfilling. I used to believe that I am just nobody and won’t be able to achieve great things.
Yes, if I have to compare my life to my college friends and batch mates, and define success as possessions and career growth, I would say I am nobody. In my previous posts, you would read how was my life in 4 years living in Aruba. Click A part of my Story if you want to know. 🙂 But I would say I am Somebody now. I am not boasting about my life, honestly, I have nothing to boast about. At this age, I do not have a job everyone dreams, I don’t have a house or a car, I don’t have expensive clothes, I do not have gadgets that everyone wants. I don’t have money to eat to some fine dining restaurants, name them, I have nothing to boast but.. let me tell you, I have a job, not a good position but I have at least I have a job. I do not have my own house but I have people who treat me like their own family, besides from my father’s place, I still find home by those people who are nice to me. Gadgets? To tell you honestly, I didn’t spend a lot of money for my phone, laptop and ipad. They are almost free. Freely given to me. Restaurants, I can eat sushi which we all know are expensive. I ate at fine dining restaurants because of lovely people who invite me at times, again it’s free.
This how I call favor from the Lord. I don’t demand for things, God is showering His blessings to me. I am so blessed. Really. I don’t mind if other people look down on me. I am not explaining myself for the ones who think I have all together. I also experience things here huh! You just have to be content, love yourself and to be somebody. Somebody means, knowing your identity in Christ. When negative of this world strike you, remember who you are in Christ. You are accepted. A new creation, blessed, cherished, designed by God, favored, forgiven, saved, unique, you are loved and you are victorious. The Lord sees us so wonderful, you gotta believe you are. From that person whom I think Nobody, I have learned to embrace the love of God to be this Somebody, knowing my worth.
4. I am Egg! HAHA
Just like an egg mixed to other ingredients to bake a cake. I am like an egg, I used to like to be isolated, I cover myself with my shell. I don’t like to see the world for not being open minded and just believe what I want to believe. I do not want to open myself to anyone. I am okay being inside, comfortable. But I had to let someone break my shell for me to be useful and to live longer I guess (mabubugok ako e!). Breaking the shell could be painful for me, adjustments will happen because I’ve been living inside my shell for a long time. Time comes that I need to be put in a bowl and mixed with other ingredients. I am an egg, that is my purpose of living so I let myself mixed to others. In mixing process I need to blend in for the baker can create a perfect cake. Mixed and put in a pan. When ready, put in an oven to bake, you cannot make a cake if you won’t put the mixture in an oven. Inside the oven, the temperature would be so hot but it is needed for a cake to be baked. As soon as you are ready, the sweet delicious aroma will spread the whole area. Just like when you pass a bakery, you smell the delicious cakes and breads. whooo 🙂 Dushi! And you are ready to be eaten.
I let God break me and release me from my shell. Shellfishness. Haha Selfishness. It is not always about myself, being comfortable, and not to see others needs.I have to give myself to be used and be useful. It does not give you satisfaction when you are alone inside your shell. You are made for something else that is why you are longing for that purpose for you to feel the satisfaction. He needed to break me so I can give myself away. When I say, “Okay, Lord have your way” I let the Baker do as he wish. It was not easy, it’s uncomfortable. “What? why do I have to mix myself to others? Why do I have to blend in? I can be alone.” “I don’t care about them. I will live my life on my own. Yeah. “self” where we can only think about ourselves all the time, what we want, what we feel, what makes us comfortable without desiring to see others needs or situations. That is the moment I go to see different and difficult people around me but still I have to accept them for who they are and blend in because they are also God’s creation with different function in the world just like me. I am not saying that you have to please everyone. The point is, God shows me that I am loved and little by little he also teach me how to love. I am not saying also that I love someone perfectly. Only God can do that. But Jesus inspires us to love others. Well in fact, the greatest commandments God gave us:
36 “Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?”
37 Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’[a]38 This is the first and greatest commandment.39 And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’
Loving yourself makes you love others. Loving others is loving God.
The mixing process produces you with these characters that God wants us to learn. I am not saying I have them at all times. I am human. I am not perfect, I am so perfectly imperfect but I have a perfect God who loves me just the way I am and teach me how to live a life meaningful. His word is a guide for me to be in a right path. Sometimes I am in doubt to write things about this, I don’t want to let people feel uncomfortable by making them feel “I have the perfect life.” Of course not, again, I am not gonna boast about myself but I can boast about the ONE who helps me becoming like this. I still have things to learn, I know. Just like the saying “Experience is the best teacher and the worst experiences are the best lessons” In life, learning is unending cycle. Live to learn.
When the mixture is ready, I have to be put in the oven. Those are the times when you want to get out from it because it is painful, you feel like you can’t endure the temperature anymore. This stage could be the painful experiences in your life, dealing with difficult people, facing different tragedies in life, financial problems, broken hearts, broken lives etc., you feel like there will be no escape. There is a time for everything. Even the baker wants to get you from the oven, he still has to see if you are ready. I have to wait for the right time until I am really ready. Sometimes you really have to endure it the long time, but guess what? When you wait, the result will always be great. There is a blessing in waiting and obedience. When the Baker takes the cake out from the hot oven, he knows that you are ready. The aroma will spread out the place. You will see the smile from the Baker and from the people around you wanting you to be part of their lives. The praise will always goes to my Baker for making a good cake or bread. You are becoming a blessing. You make them happy. It is so fulfilling to see you are blessed to be a blessing.
Life is short. We should learn how to be content and enjoy life. I will say it again, stop comparing yourself to others. While living on earth, do not waste your time on comparing yourself to others instead appreciate yourself. We are unique in our own way. Find things that make you happy. If you have a desire and dream deep down your heart and you still didn’t act with it, just do it. We are all learning. If you fail, its okay but never stop learning. Just like what I am doing, if writing makes me happy, even there are people that is better than me, I will keep doing this, I guess. HAHA. because I am becoming proud of myself for I used to have a low self esteem yet I am sharing my deepest thoughts now which help me seeing my worth. When you learn lessons from life, choose to be a blessing. There’s someone out there needs your story to be refreshed, encouraged and be reminded again. Share yours! Be a blessing!
If you are still reading this, thank you so much for your time. These are some of my great lessons in my 29ish living in this world. I still want and have to learn a lot of things. And may this be an encouragement to you. I would love to hear from you by writing on comment box. Yey! God bless you 🙂
Have you ever think to stop and start again? 🙂 I just turned 29ish yesterday. March 1, 2016, Tuesday. When someone ask my age, it’s kinda difficult to admit I am 30, so I better say 29ish. Okay? I am trying to calm down but really? Am I this old? I demand a recount. LOL.
Hahaha. I really laughed when I see this. What happened? … LOL 🙂
I didn’t plan anything actually. I just wanted to stay home and have a birthday sleeping mode. My friend, Cherry, encouraged me to do something fun. It’s only once that I turn 30. True enough but for me “sleeping”is fun. haha I asked for a week vacation from work. It’s good to have rest like this. Thank God. So yeah, had to gather myself, relax and have fun!
How did I celebrate my 29ish:
I cleaned my room (half cleaned haha)
I washed my bed sheets.
I stayed home with my cousin because everyone was at work.That is sweet of him special mention to Christopher Neil Grajo for going straight here after school. He accompanied me.
My brother took a half day off, well actually I was not the reason, he had to fix some documents. But then I am happy he came home early. Yey! May kalaro na ako.
Papa arrived in the afternoon, nice way to spend your birthday with the family
Decided to eat dinner out with relatives and friends, Papa and Tita Blessie couldn’t join because Papa was not feeling well. But he gave me his gift. 🙂
Had fun at Peanuts Restaurant with them
Busog na busog na ako halata sa tyan. Patawad HAHA
with my fiance and mother in law to be 🙂
Tito Mommy Miles and Tito Daddy Emong , Tita Janet
Sige Birthday nyo? Kayo na malaki image. Sila yun walang sawang mang asar sa akin pero kami tatlo lage magkakasama, I am their Princess. kaya nga wala ako dyan. I am their favorite pag dating sa bully-han 🙂 I love you men! My cousin and brother.
I woke up early in the morning, heard my phone beeping continuously. So I checked it and yeah it’s March 1, people are giving their greetings, encouragements and prayers posting on my Facebook Timeline. One of them is a blog greeting surprise for me made by my sister Queen. I remember making her one last year. I interviewed her friends for some silly and serious questions about her. She did it to me this time. How sweet! 🙂 I am blessed to have her and the people participated. Thank you so much. I feel so loved
She asked three questions:
Who is Yhang to you ? (Yhang is my nickname)
What is/are unforgettable moments or experience with her
Birthday Messages/Prayers for her
Click if you want to know more : Birthday Messages from Friends and Family created by Ate Queen. Sweet 🙂 Thank you so much for the effort and love, people. I can’t mention names one by one but I am really grateful for all the greetings! God bless you all!
February 29 and March 1 are my birthdays. 🙂 Philippine time and Aruba time. My first greeter made me cry at first.
Four reasons I cried after reading this:
Ang hirap basahin. Hindi na ako marunong magbasa ng short texts, Jejemon ka sis. LOL
I wanted to hug you and everyone over there but I can’t, I am too far. But I whispered to God to embrace you all for me. I love you!
The surprise. It was very touching, though I know you all making that for me, I knew it, you guys were so busy na naseenzoned lang ang beauty ko 🙂
My scrapbook materials kept in the baul for 4 and half years. Haha You guys used my materials for the surprise. Funny! It’s okay, I really appreciate the effort 🙂 I am excited! I would surely love it!
My day was already made by the touching messages and revelation from the people close to my heart in the morning. I grabbed my journal and start to write. Thanking God for all the blessings. Its not money or material things but it was a very great gift. God made me feel I am so much loved by Him by giving me those people in my life. Nakakaiyak malaman na naiiyak at namimiss nila ang old times with me. Thank you God for their friendship and love. I feel so blessed and loved, really. Ang sarap sarap nilang basahin. 🙂 Thank you to my sister, dalawin nyo sya, follow din Queen’s WordPress Blogsite. I really really like them, you know? I had so much tears and laugh while reading them. Thank you for everything. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH 🙂 Panalo sa effort te. Pak na pak. I feel loved.
Only One Regret : Yesterday, I could have gone to Starbucks. If it’s your birthday, you do not need to pay anything. It’s free! 🙂 Here in Aruba, it’s free. I do not know with other countries. I was already tired and full from the dinner so we all went home 🙂 I will have to wait another year to have a free Starbucks. Haha Now I want it. Grrr.
To my Facebook friends, thank you so much for the greetings. I appreciate you all. May God bless you abundantly. 🙂
This year is my year! Yey 🙂 On my next blog, I will be writing about My Thoughts on Turning 30. Thank you for reading. I know I am not that good blogger, but I have to do this because I love doing this, it helps me express myself through writing. So, even I am not that well (yet) please bare with me. Let me enjoying blogging. No bashers please. 🙂 Cheers!
I am craving now. this is what I ordered yesterday at Peanuts Restaurant:Fish Chicharon
Pahabol: I love him, I carried him when he was a baby, I did it again on my 30th.
My brother King 🙂
Family. My inspiration. I love you all
Ako na ang latak! haha my Queen and King 🙂
My Grandmothers. I really miss them. Tears 😦 Thank you Mama Esther and Lola Nena
Me! Small and looked terrible 🙂 haha
Princess at 29ish . Happy Birthday to me! Thank you Jesus for another year. 🙂
Kahit gaano kadami ang mabuting ginawa mo sa mga tao, sa isang maliit na pagkakamali lahat yun makakalimutan. Tanging ang mali lang ang makikita. Ganun talaga.
Kahit nga totoo ka sa mga tao, marami sa kanila hindi totoo sa pakikitungo sayo. Mabait sila pag nakaharap ka pag nakatalikod na, iba na. Against na sila sayo. Ganun talaga.
May mga tao din na kahit ganu ka nagpapakita ng kabaitan sa kanila, sa di maipaliwanag na dahilan, galit sila sayo. Ayaw nila sayo kahit wala ka naman ginagawang masama sa kanila. Ganun nga talaga siguro
Iba iba pang karumihan at dungis ang makikita sa paligid, sa mundo. Kung titignan mo ang lahat ng to, nakakapagod nakaka asar. Nakakapanghina at nakakaloka. Sa iba dedma lang. Ganun talaga! Iisipin mo wala na talagang mabuti sa mundo. Wala na nga ba talaga?
Kahit nga sa pag-ibig. Marami ng hindi naniniwala may totoo pa rin naman. Takot na umibig ulit mga taong minsan ng nasaktan sa paniniwalang mauulit ulit ang nakaraan. Mga taong hindi na susubok magmahal dahil sa paniniwalang ang lahat ay tulad din ng iba. Walang forever…Iiwan ka din sasaktan ka din. Walang happy ending.
Ano ang tugon mo dito?
Kahit na hindi ka nila iappreciate,gumawa ka ng mabuti. Kahit ayaw nila sayo, ramdam mo, gustuhin mo nalang sila. Kahit hindi sila totoo, maging totoo ka nalang. Ganun talaga. At least, ikaw, sa sarili mo, sa puso mo. Totoo kang nagmamahal. Totoo ang pinapakita mo. Magmahal.. Love is always the answer.
Masakit oo kapag naging totoo ka sa tao pero ang balik ay maskara lang. Hindi totoo. Peke. Pero ganun talaga e! Be good anyways. Love anyways. Ang hirap diba?
We are made for love.
Kung paano ang magmahal ng tunay? Tumingin ka SA Kanya. God’s
Love is wonderful, real, amazing, unconditional and everlasting. The more you seek him, the more you will find him, the more you find him the more you love him. The more of Jesus in your life the more you will see the beauty of life and the more you will love the people unconditionally. You will love this life kahit na messy, puno ng gulo, crimes at kung anu ano pa..Dahil in the midst of this all,when you know God is with you, You are peaceful. Hindi mabibili ng pera..hindi sa magandang posisyon sa buhay, hindi sa gadgets o sa mamahaling damit or gamit makukuha ang peace at happiness and joy. Puwede ka magkaron ng lahat ng to. Walang masama. Pagpalain ka pa ang aking dalangin. Pero kung wala si God sa lahat ng to. “I am nothing. I am nothing!” tugon ko. You are nothing.
Bakit ko ba sinasabi ito? Hindi ko rin alam. I just found myself typing and saying these words. Sa mundong ito, makikita mo lahat ng uri ng kasamaan,mga sakit at sakuna. Mga paniniwalang hindi mo alam saan ang direksyon. Mga relihiyon nagsasabi na sila ay tama. Sino nga ba talaga ang tma?
Lahat may karumihan. Lahat. Pati ako! Pero kung titingin ka kay Jesus… maganda. Its so good to gaze in His beauty, His word that corrects you and rebukes you, made not to simply hurt you but to make you a better person and be in a right path. Truth hurts. But it will set you free.
Makuha mo man ang ganda at yaman sa mundo kung wala si Kristo sa buhay mo may kulang. Tanging sya lang pupuno sa kakulangan na meron ka. When you have Jesus, you have everything. Emptiness, he will fill it. The question is? Are you willing? It is up to you.
Ito ay isa sa mga posts ko. Wala lang naisip ko lang post din dito. Namiss ko dito e. Lage nasa isip ko ang magsulat pero may mga hadlang na hindi maipaliwanag. Kapag na figure out ko na kung anu-ano yun, will soon share them for sure. Pero kung ikaw ay nakakaramdam ng nararamdaman ko, email mo ko. Kaibigan, usap tayo! 🙂 Ang gulo ko no?
Salamat kung ikaw ay nagbabasa, naappreciate ko po talaga! God bless you abundantly! 🙂
2015 is almost over. December is usually the month where I review and recall how the year went. This is the month where I started to think for the next year goals and prayers. I looked back on my journal and highlighted goals I achieved. It’s not much but at least I accomplished something. Yey! 🙂
2015 Goals & Prayers -(Achieved/Answered)
Get a New Job (with Permit)
As an Overseas Filipino Worker (OFW), it is necessary that you get a job with working permit so you can stay legally. There are Filipinos risk themselves working without paper. Well, I am afraid to be caught by immigration if I would risk myself working outside. Outside, like restaurants, stores or hotels.So I was working inside, in a house, a maid. I can’t believe I am sharing this here. To be honest, I didn’t mind the job at first until I was told not to tell anyone. But why? Being a maid is not a crime, it is still a job. Even graduate students chose to be maid, bravely leaving their love ones for a belief of a better life. I could have tried to apply to other job here but as a Christian I do not think it is right not to comply on their rules. Here in Aruba, you have to have at least 5 permits so you can be signed by another establishments without any hassles. Whether you have a degree or not, living in other country, being fussy about job won’t work. I wrote this goal the first, why? My last 3 year contract job was horrible. I had sleepless nights, my emotions were so tired, physically and mentally exhausted, I was wasted. I couldn’t wait to finish the contract. I do not want to sound gossiping about my former boss but the effect on my personality was awful. I didn’t know who I am and what I can do anymore. Self-pity and low self esteem overwhelm my whole being. Nights that I was just in the corner of my room, sitting down, elbows on my knees, hands covering my face, seemed to break down. I couldn’t express my real self. I wanted to go back home in Philippines but because of my family, my family.. my family.. Oh my God! haha (Bb Pilipinas 2008 Janina. 🙂 Kaway if you get it!) I couldn’t. I had to be strong for myself and for them. It was tough, really…
I still work in a house now but with new employers. Yey. And they are really nice people. I don’t feel a worker, they treat me like I am part of the family. I really thank God for this job and for extended family. It is not a good position for others, but for me, I came to realize, I am really blessed to have this job. Can you imagine, I am a maid but I can eat sushi frequently? 🙂 Dushi (Delicious or Sweetheart in their language) for free most of the time. I can eat on fine dining restaurants for free. I can stay in a hotel for a week, free. Not only that, I really feel free! Words are not enough to express how I felt the moment I left my former employers. It’s like I was in a jail for years and the moment I stepped outside, an indescribable feeling I felt, I just cried and whispered “I am free”. Boom! Freedom Indeed! I was jobless for a month until a door of opportunity opened. This new family I am working with is far different from the previous. They are one of the best family I’ve ever met. Oh God, they are really nice! I am starting to develop my personality again. I know, this may sound dramatic but my past experience was a trauma for me!
I am currently holding the 4th permit, it is annually renewed. One more to go and I will be spreading my wings and fly! Patience is a Virtue. If I had the patience for the past 4 years, I would have, for more years, as long as God is showing me His grace and mercy everyday. He is the source of my strength, my joy, my peace and love. Thank God for the long patience and for experiences that made me closer to Him.
I left them January with the braveness I didn’t know where I got. Not to boast, but I was their first employee endured the 3 year contract. No doubt, I know exactly why they left without any advise. They ran away. I still tried to have a nice goodbye to them but as usual they try to scare me with threats like ‘We will call the immigration office to get you’, ‘You can’t find a job’,’No one will accept you’, etc. my previous employers said. Nevertheless, here’s what I held on “What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? Romans 8:31. My prayer was answered February, got a new job with permit. Ang bilis diba? 🙂
2. See Jesus
It was Sunday, March 01, 2015. My hands were raised up, tears were falling from my closed eyes, seeking Him, gazing in His beauty, pouring out my heart to Him, thanking and worshiping my King, my God, Jesus.
Am I weird to ask I want to literally see him? Jesus reveals himself in different ways, it’s always special and in an intimate way. I can see him through reading his Word, prayers and fasting. In every situation, he can manifest Himself. He is good, I know that well. But I actually did ask him to show me his face like literally.
The congregation were singing:
Our Father in Heaven
Hollowed be your name
Your kingdom come quickly
Your will be done the same
On earth as it is in heaven
Let heaven come to earth as it is
In heaven, let heaven come
For a deep reason, my heart was stirred and I was crying. Thinking all of his goodness in my life, I want him more, I want more of Him. Experiencing trials in this life, makes me wanna go home to my real house. He is the shelter and the refuge, my strength. I want him, I want more of Him. My heart was full of his presence. I could feel them. I really felt home as I started to worship Him. No worries, I just have the joy being in His presence. That is life for me.
Yours is the kingdom
Yours is the power
Yours is the glory
I didn’t mind how I look that moment, I just want to worship and see Him. Grateful I am, I lifted my hands higher as I could, elevating His name higher. He deserved that, more than my hands and arms, more than my worship, He deserved to be adored. He deserved the praises from his people. He wants to see us loving him. 🙂
The next song was about to sing. As the guitarist strummed, I noticed something, I was seeing vision.
Drenta Den Mi Cas
Manera Zakeo lo mi ke subi
Mas halto ku mi por
Mi ke mira bo anhela pa bo so
I hala bo atenshon pa mi
Mi tin Mister di bo Senor
Mi tin Mister di bo mi Tata
Mi ta chikitu misa duna mi bo pas
Mi ke laga tur kos atras
Drenta den mi cas drenta den mi bida
Cambia tur mi struktura
Sana tur mi heridanan
Sinia mi di bo santidat
Mi ke stima abo so
Pasobra bo ta mi gran amor
Hasi un milager den mi
Like Zaccheus, I’d like to climb as high as I can. I want to see you, long for you only and turn your attention to me. I need you Lord. I need you my Father. I am small, I know, but great are you. I want to leave everything behind. Enter in my house. Enter in my life. Change my whole structure, heal all my wounds. Teach me your holiness. I want to love you alone, because you are my great love. Do a miracle in me.
I couldn’t believe at first. He was wearing white, radiantly illuminates the place. It was him and me alone in that place. It was blurry at first and it becomes clear. I saw his smile. I remember as the worship time started, all in my mind was “God I want to see you” He was coming over me, my mind was in doubt, “hmm..its just a thought” I was stunned by His holiness. But at that moment I was silent, looking at him, I wanted him to get closer, more closer. I wanted to embrace him. I was full of joy. In my heart I prayed “Lord if this is you, if this is real or not, thank you because I am home, I feel home, the peace that I wanted for years, now I can rest in you, I can finally see you” I didn’t want to end. His eyes were talking to me, he was staring at me like I am the most beautiful person in the world. I can’t express this in words. All I know it was his joy, it was him telling me “Yhang, I love you” White fluids kept falling from small eyes, forget about my eyeliner, I didn’t mind, I couldn’t control the tears of joy. My heart was full of endearment, though words I couldn’t hear but I felt it. I am loved.
The worship time through music ended. Word of God exhorted. Still in amazement. I was astonished, it kept popping in my head but I managed to listen to the preacher. The service was about to end when Pastor mentioned my name and asked me to go on stage. That day was my birthday. He started to pray and as if God is directly talking to me. I know it was a confirmation that he was the one I saw. “You’ve been longing to see me, I am revealing myself to you. When you worship me, you will see ME. I will use you mightily, when you open your mouth and heart and worship, you will release my message to people, there will be healing and deliverance. Keep seeking Me, I want you to know that I love you” says the Lord, Pastor said. Amen.
Sobbed. “I Love you” These words he wanted to confirmed. Through vision, where I was still in doubt, he used a person to tell me his message straight to me. He was the one I saw. He confirmed that through Pastor’s prayer. It is true, that whenever I worship Him, I feel different. It was not me. It was him who is working through me. As a worship leader in our church, I honestly sometimes tired of leading when you see the members not engaging. What on earth are they doing at church? Why aren’t they worshiping? Why are they so numb. Isn’t he faithful to their lives? I think every worship leader can relate to what I am trying to say here. They usually stare at you as if telling you “what the heck are u singing, you better stop” haha 🙂 and you feel that you are not good enough, this is not your calling and just quit. There were times, that I just want the ground to be opened and be eaten down. Shame. But as time went by, one thing I’d learned that worship is not about the people. Do not mind how they worship, you start to give reverence to your Creator and keep your heart poured out to God, he will spill his presence to you and freely overflow to the people around you through you. Worship leading is not about singing and people, it is about Jesus. Focus your eyes on Him. He is so beautiful and wonderful.
This was the greatest and wonderful birthday gift I’ve ever receive in my 29 years of living in this crazy world. 🙂
3. Learn How to Play Keyboard/Piano
Achieved. I know now the basic and I can play and sing. I wanted to learn this to accompany my singing. Worshiping Him everyday is always the best feeling. It is my escape. When troubles come, I worship. When I am happy, I worship. When I am mad, I worship, When homesickness strikes in, I worship. This is where I belong, my hiding place, in God’s presence. Thank you keyboard for accompanying my year!
Out of 11 Goals, 3 were attained. The others are half way answered and others simply will go and added for the next year goals.
Driving License – x
Save Money – I only have 200dollars at the moment. Lol Proud! Hirap kaya mag ipon. Labas kasi lahat. Alam na ni Lord yun. 🙂 Lets start again!
Read or at least finish Old Testament – I am still at 2nd Samuel. Shame. haha 🙂 But I do read Bible and devotionals. I was just planning to read from Genesis.
Know your spiritual gifts and use them– I kind of know mine but there were days I was procrastinating. I didn’t use them well. One of them is teaching. I handle a tambourine dance for kids. I also minister to them, I don’t only teach them the tambourine patterns but trying to lead them to Jesus, let them know how good and faithful God is in their lives, how he loves them and remind them from time to time to check their motives, it is the heart towards God matters most. Walang yabang!
Memorize verses from the Bible– Mahina ako dyan! 🙂 10? LOL
Now, I come to see this, I realized that I didn’t ask for material things that much. E di wow! I just noticed. But I still feel fulfilled. Through out the year, God has been faithful to me. I couldn’t ask for more. Experiencing His love is the best. I have desires and prayers, yes, but at the end of the day, at the end of the year literally, I still want him. His presence is life to me. It completes me. I know I can face my tomorrow with confidence because He is God, I might change many times, I might fail always, but His love will remain and his grace will amazingly given. He will remain God, who is forever faithful. What a mighty God I serve! Yey! 🙂
Thank you and Goodbye 2015! Happy New Year 2016! I am ready to face you. I am excited! 🙂 Have you written down your new year goals?
May you all have a successful 2016! 🙂 Blessings!!!
1..2..3..smile! Selfie .Positioning my phone a bit inch from afar, a little higher, to make me look skinny. Oh wait let me pose side view so my pimple won’t show on the left side of my chubby face. I have to smile to look happy, right? Okay.. 1…2…3 Selfie No filter? I look dark, let me choose Juno image effect, posting through Instagram. Be happy caption, #hashtag #happy #selfie.
The upper and lower bony structures in vertebrates forming the framework of the mouth and containing the teeth, (Ang galing ko mag English, sa Google ko yan nakuha, search mo, yan lalabas LOL), my jaw (yun lang yun!) was literally hurting after hundred times of taking selfies. I couldn’t still choose the best shot. Parehas lang naman! The struggle was real, wasn’t it? Relate much?
“One tall frappuccino mocha, please” What is your name Ma’am?, Starbucks employee asked, handling the cup and a pen. Yaya Dub.
Wag kayong umangal, kunwari lang uy! It was Yaya Dub’s day off, time to relax. But first let me take a selfie . Pose. Pose. Post and post. And that awkward moment when someone is looking at you while you are taking picture of yourself. Kinda hard to smile. Istorbo si kuya e!
Ganito eksena minsan…
Selfie doesn’t mean you’re always by yourself. You do that too when you are with your peeps, groupie sometimes. Pre papicture nga. 1..2..3.. patingin? Isa pa pre yun kunware malaki muscle ko. Isa pa, isa pa. Okay. Wait, try to include the background tska yung food. Benihana and sushi. E di wow! or where guys usually go Hooters , yung ang specialty ay chicken…. wings ba or breast? .
E yung nasa restaurant kayo hindi pa kayo makakain dahil picture-an muna. Kalam na kalam na ang tyan but everyone is smiling, posing and enjoying the view at the beach side restaurant, picture-an muna ang food. Sakit sa panga ng pagsmile tapos tyan din dahil sa gutom. LOL But it’s fun!
Capturing memories. Enjoying the time when you are off from work. Enjoying the view. Trying to be happy. I love it! Keep doing that!
We go on restaurant not because we want to show off. We want to have a life sometimes. It’s normal. Everybody has the right to enjoy yung pinag-hirapan nila. Hindi masama ang lumabas and magsaya paminsan minsan.
Rewind before Selfies
My chest are tightening, lips are twitching, eyes turning to red. Pearl-like salty liquid about to flow, I couldn’t breath. An expression of pain. Shed tears. “”She is really a good actress, Oh my gash, she got me there” This is me while watching “On the Wings of Love” episode.
Tiffany and the rest of the neighbors organized an event to raise funds for her father who is suffering with heart problem. He refused to be operated because of financial difficulty. He is a good person, it was not a bother to them at all to be of some help. Tifanny, as a loving daughter, did everything to make the concert a success. She had taken the risk of pleading a popular actress, who has a hectic schedule, to be the special guess at the said activity. Without any confirmation, unsure as she is if Anne Curtis is coming, her father found out that the star didn’t make any notice, he decided to go at the stage to inform the people and just simply apologize for the disappointment it had cause. “Good Evening everyone, we thank you for coming over and we are sincerely…” Suddenly, an expensive vehicle arriving, a tall, sexy and beautiful lady going out from the car, crowd screaming. “…welcoming Ms. Anne Curtis” surprised father shouted.
She came. She spoke and explained that even in her busy schedule, she couldn’t say NO to a daughter who sent her a letter that truly touched her heart. She would do the same thing, taking all the risks, whatever it takes to save her father. So let the celebration started.
Meanwhile, another daughter living in the United States of America, working to help her family financially, doesn’t know that her father is sick. She herself pretends that everything is well in there, of course not, it’s not easy to work abroad, covering up with her smile and happy tone whenever they talk through Skype. OFW.
Drama. It happens in real life. While watching this episode,breaks my heart. Besides from I am an emotional person I kinda relate myself to the situation. Tama na yan! Palabas lang to uy! Drama pa more!
My chest are tightening, lips are twitching, eyes turning to red. Pearl-like salty liquid about to flow, I couldn’t breath. An expression of pain. Shed tears.
That moment when your grandmother who took care for you for a long time is being confined at the hospital, fear suddenly runs through your blood, I want to go home, I want to see her. Scared to death that you won’t be able to see her again.
When your 2 year old son got an accident, a tricycle hit him, a boiling water accidentally fell on him, or a daughter who was diagnosed having a dengue fever, I want to go home, I want to take care of them. I want to be by her/his side. I want to be there. Scared to death that you wouldn’t able to see them again.
When your parents are sick but you are not beside them physically. You sacrifice the happiness being together because you wanted to give them everything as much as you can financially but your strength isn’t enough, they think you are just fine, never let them see when you are breaking, all you just need sometimes is their smile, their hugs and you will be alright. I want to go home.
You worked as an office worker when you were at your own country, and you have chosen the path of being a maid in other country. Horrible feeling! But you’ve gone through it because of love, the love for your family. You cried I want to go home.
Long distance relationship. Your can’t be there with your love ones, you can handle or you couldn’t handle LDR, it’s still painful. You’ve given up or you’ve been fighting, it’s still distressing. You had been cheated or you cheated, it’s heartbreaking. You are away from them, you can’t control the situation, it causes you anxiety and depression, the extreme sadness you’ve never had before. It’s real, to the highest level. I want to go home, your heart speaks, it screams, you are sobbing but no one hears. That’s how we live, OFW.
We shed tears. We release pains. Iyak pa more. Just in case no one ever told you this, if you are an OFW, “I am proud of you” We all have different situations that caused us to be distressed and yet we can still stand up and smile at the camera. Selfie pa more! Isn’t it cool?
Living far from your country, far from your family and friends troubled you at times. If you are an OFW (Overseas Filipino Worker) you can understand the level of loneliness I am saying. You are blessed if your whole family is with you now. You passed the stage of this. Even so, I believe you’ve gone through lonesomeness as well. For those who had left their love ones – friends, spouse, children, girlfriend, boyfriend et al, taking the risk of having the so-called ‘good life’, you surely have an idea of what I am talking about. But are you really having a good life? Did you really choose the right path? Is this really a good decision? These might be some of the questions once or still keep being asked in your mind sometimes. To spend most of your days sacrificing, working hard, alone moments, worrying too much for love ones from afar, homesickness, self pitying, depression etc., you tend to cover them up by hanging out with friends, being drunk, partying, treating yourselves in the restaurants and most of all, hindi mawawala, taking selfies. “I am having a good life”, caption, #hashtags.
“I understand them ‘te Lei, that’s how they release their stress”, someone told me. And to tell you the truth, I have nothing against with all of these. I don’t judge them, I do not condemn them, I totally understand them. But it saddens me as well. We try our very best to be happy, we fought everyday. I do! So do not think that you are alone experiencing the same thing. Everyone has different struggles everyday. Everybody has their own way to unwind, de-stress, and take loads off. Physically, emotionally and mentally you’ve been fighting all along. Who are you when no one sees you, when you are alone? Were you still the person who laughs in front of people,smile over the camera? ‘Everything is well with me’ portrait. Admit or not, you sometimes feel empty, there is something missing that makes you wanna stop living. (Aha magka-rhymed )
It is okay to be sad at times, to sometimes feel lonely, to sometimes feel tired and stressed. It is okay to cry, it is okay to be in pain and sorrow. But take this as an opportunity to draw near to the One who can give you strength to survive the day. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9
The truth behind OFW’s selfie:
People think when you work abroad , they have this idea that you save a lot of money, you are rich and you are super duper mega over happy. But the truth is..
1. We are sad but we try to be happy.
Those selfies were sometimes taken after the feeling of homesickness and self pitying. Selfie helps us to be strong and confident. Masarap kaya yung feeling maganda. Try mo!
2. We are poor, we are not rich. We are just blessed.
At least for me, this is true. Just because you saw me eating at sushi bar or fine dining restaurant doesn’t mean I have plenty of money. Most of the time, they are free. I am just simply blessed! Thank you Jesus. However, others spend some of their money to eat outside to de-stress. Please understand ,they are not luxurious, there were only the day where they can enjoy life. It is not always. Wag kayong judgmental. Hehe
3. We are not shopaholic.
I am not. I dunno with the others. LOL. I am telling the truth, the majority of my dresses are gifts. Namamasyal lang kaya may selfie sa mga stores. Sa iba naman, that’s the way they make themselves happy in exchange of the many sad days and nights nila.
4. We are prayerful
I do not go out all the time. I try to spend time praying. This is the only way where I can connect with the people I love far from me. God has been pouring out his grace upon me and I should be always thankful and be proud. Selfies with verses and inspirations are not intended to show off and tell people how religious I am, it’s just being grateful that someone like him, gives me the courage to go on, believes in me, makes me feel beautiful, precious and love. Bonus na lang ang ganda diba? Maganda ba ako? Weh? wala kayong paki, kung gusto nyo gawa din kayo sarili nyong selfie- Pabebe
Marami pa at hindi ko na siguro masabi lahat. I just want to clarify that we are also humans, we have problems but we try to find ways to be happy just like the others. We are only thankful,although homesick strikes a lot of times, we still have reasons to enjoy our days here on earth.
Today, I got the courage to speak out. Instead of bringing all up those dishearten me, I want to be thankful. I have reasons to be grateful and so you are.
This is the day that I have made! As you rejoice in this day of life, it will yield up to you precious gifts and beneficial training. Walk with Me. along the high road of thanksgiving, and you will find all the delights I have made ready for you.
To protect your thankfulness, you must remember that you reside in a fallen world, where blessings and sorrows intermingle freely. A constant focus on adversity defeats many Christians. They walk through a day that is brimming with the beauty and brightness, seeing only the grayness of their thoughts. Neglecting the practice of giving thanks has darkened their minds. How precious are My children who remember to thank Me at all times. They can walk through the darkest days with Joy in their hearts because they know that the Light of My Presence is still shining on them. Rejoice in this day that I have made, for I am your steadfast Companion.
This is the day the Lord has made; let us rejoice and be glad in it. Psalm 118:24
I will sacrifice a thank offering to you and call on the name of the Lord. Psalm 116:7
From a book ‘Jesus Calling-365 Day Devotional’ by Sarah Young. I can feel that God is directly talking to me. There are so much more to be thankful for.
Let us count our blessings and take selfies! Happy Thanksgiving Day!
I am sitting on a very comfortable sofa drinking a one tall Frappuccino Mocha at Starbucks. Wearing a casual sleeveless with a combinations of black gray and white stripes, above the knee dress. It is indeed a wonderful time with myself. Yes, me and myself will have a great bonding tonight.
Time check: 5:30 pm, November 20, 2015. Friday @ Paseo Harencia, Aruba
I was waiting for this moment that I could walk alone and will have a quality chat with my mind outside the house, outside a four corner room. It’s been almost four years since I had this moment. I usually do hang out with family and friends but I always wait for that moment where I can sit and relax, walk around, think and write anything that comes in my mind. I used to share my thoughts to people close to mine but these past few years I am becoming more deep and thoughtful, serious and purposeful, not open to everyone, remembers negatives, moody and depress. I am becoming an introvert, having a melancholy temperament.
I always believe that I am Sanguine. Bubbly, jolly and talker. The more people I get to see the more I feel better. Extrovert. People do change huh? I know why I become like this, I might tell my story in the future posts. Because tonight Yhang, it’s gonna be different. Let’s have fun! Let us try to be Sanguine and Melancholic at the same time. 🙂 Hmmmm.. No, I want to be a Pincess today.
A guy is passing by and from a far I can see he is staring and smiling at me. I do not know why but I did smile back. I am not that bad, why wouldn’t I give my smile to a person who smiles at you? It is not difficult to do anyways. This is what I love about the people in Aruba. They are friendly, they will greet you even they do not know you personally. In our culture, you’ll become suspicious if you smile to a person you do not know.
There are three ladies coming out from the inside. By the way I am sitting outside the coffee shop. One of them asked me if I could take picture of them three. She’s speaking Spanish. “Okay, sure” I answered. “1…2…3…Smile, One more time 1…2…3 Smile.” I was smiling so wide as well, seems camera is in front of me. “Thank you” “You are welcome”
Cring! Cring! Cring! ….
My phone is ringing. Someone is calling.
“Hello ‘te Lei, andito na ako” (Hello, I’m already here)
Reminder: No one is allowed to call me ‘te Lei except my brother. He is the only person who calls me with that nickname. I think that is sweet. 🙂
I asked Papa to drop me at Western Union to send a birthday gift to my sister. Unfortunately, while driving over there, I forgot my passport for a valid ID requirement. I didn’t tell him. I don’t know, I had a feeling that he would get mad at me. I could have asked him to send by his name but I said to myself, No! I will find ways when I get there. I phoned King. Thank God he is my savior for today. I badly wanted to send it today. While waiting, I went to Starbucks and couldn’t wait to have that ‘muni-muni na’ (to reflect). Ma-drama talaga ako minsan but I really do love meditating.
I hurried back to Western Union and there he is. Standing outside, wearing a black polo shirt and jeans with a good posture. My brother is really a handsome man. Thank God for that! Praise you Jesus. I’ve learned this from my sister: to always compliment someone. She does that to us so nagbobolahan talaga kami. 🙂 LOL
There are kababayans (Fellow-Filipinos) who will send money to their family in Philippines. ‘Inaamoy lang natin no? Padala na agad.’ ‘Ganun talaga’
No regrets. We, Filipinos, love to help our family by all means. We will do everything for our family to give them a good life. It’s not an easy journey but it is very rewarding. We have heard some stories from Overseas Filipino Workers around the world that truly touched the lives of many. One day, I will share mine. Mabuhay!
Done at WU. Okay bye King, thank you!
At Starbucks again. It’s free WiFi here. Wag kayong ano, masarap pag free!
Second round, White Chocolate Frappuccino 🙂
I am enjoying this: seeing people, observing them.
This is cool. I am outside, alone but not lonely. YES! As a Sanguine person, like what I said earlier the more I get to see people, the better I feel. I am joyous to see different kinds of people. I love smiling at them. My heart is happy.
A woman next to my table is holding her cellphone, browsing perhaps while her husband is eating bread. At the other table, a guy doing the same. I can see from here, he is on Facebook scrolling down, down, down. He took a selfie and maybe posted it to his Instagram or sent to his chat mate. A group of people to my right, they are together but they are silent because everyone seems praying, bowing their heads towards their cellphone. Why would I care? I do not mind. I am just observing. Looking around, everybody is on their gadgets. This is how the social media taking our lives huh? I am actually one of them. Welcome to the cellphone world!
But I am not sad. Not that I don’t care but here’s the reality of life. Everyone is into it. It’s one of the basic necessities of our daily lives. We can’t control that but we have our choice. Choose to balance life. Be in a high technology world, that is not a problem but have a life as well. Spend quality time with your love ones. When you go out for a dinner together, you may have a rule, a specified amount of time to take pictures, to post them and when time is up, enjoy the time, look at their eyes, listen to their stories, laugh with them. For an OFW like me, social media is very useful. There are a lot of times you do not have someone to share your stories with but you can communicate through your social accounts. Posting, liking images, commenting and sharing them are not bad at all. But for me personally, I do appreciate when someone sends personal messages, sincerely asking how’s my life going on. It’s really a big thing to me. I feel missed and valuable. Hindi ka pa rin nila kinakalimutan kamustahin kahit na matagal na kayo hindi nagkikita. Yung alam mong hindi ka abala kapag kinausap mo sila, they will take time to listen to you. I say thank you for those who are still keeping in touch with me. Your “HI and Hello” are very much appreciated. I wouldn’t dare to say “Goodbye” to these kind of friends. Malayo man, malapit pa din. Dito o? Sa puso ko. Maraming Salamat po!
But first, let me take a selfie.
Nahiya naman ako mag-smile. May nakatingin. Awkward! HAHA
Oh wait, I remember I have to give her the Western Union control number. Called my sister, choppy. Naubos na load hindi pa rin nagkaintindihan. Enebeyen o! Gonna find loading station. Out of credits na!
I went to rest room first, then walked around, I found a mini store.
Do you sell Digicel load? Oh, NO. I’m sorry.
Hindi yan katulad sa atin na kahit saan tindahan may loading station. Dito, kelangan mo pumunta sa mismong network to buy. Meron din mga store na nagbebenta pero mahirap maghanap. So I got out from the store and was looking for my phone to call someone. I groped for it in my bag, I couldn’t find. I stopped for a moment. I found a small table, I took out my things from bag one by one.
Oh no! My cellphone. I left it at Starbucks.
I’d better hurry. Run Yhang, run! Or else you will go home walking. Haha That is another problem, I need a ride to go home. I was about to call my father to pick me up later.
Thank God, my cellphone is resting on the chair. Wew!
I had a chance to call tita Blessie to put credits on my number and will pay her when I get home. Yey I can still find ways huh! Thank God.
Talking and laughing with my sister made my day! Thank God. I don’t usually give her calls. Ang mahal kasi! Hehe But I was talking really fast thinking that my call will be disconnected anytime soon. Every second counts.
20 minutes and 34 seconds = Awg 15- (8dollars) /8 x 42 = P336.00
Ang bilis naman! hehe 🙂 But it was great hearing her voice.
Five minutes later, a call from best friends Ehdz and Cess. And we are complete today. No matter how busy you are, spend time with your love ones.
A princess is willing to wear a smile to everyone. A princess helps and is happy to other’s happiness. A princess is kind. A princess spends quality time with family and friends. A princess laughs. We have a saying Laughter is the best medicine. A princess appreciates the beauty of life. A princess compliments. A princess trusts God. A princess prays. Today, I become who I wanted to be. I’m Princess. 🙂
Nung sinundo ako ni King. Usapang OFW kami sa sasakyan.
“Ako lumawak ang pag-iisip at pang-unawa ko dito” -King
“Akala ko nung una wala akong pwedeng ika-proud sa sarili ko, but I came to realize that I am actually proud of myself” -Yhang
Kung bakit? Ikukwento ni Princess sa susunod.
It’s time to zzzzzzz.
Thank you! 🙂 Be a blessing today!
Life on earth is ephemeral. Do what makes you happy!