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Forty-Seven Months

46 months:


I was hesitant to post cheesy stuff about my love life but I realized, I should be really grateful that God has given me this kind of relationship. To be honest, I don’t want to sound bragging. I used to appreciate him in social media more often, but there was a time someone told me that she’s jealous that I found someone like him. I am thankful but really, I don’t want to be a source of someone’s sadness or insecurities. They will start to think like “Why I don’t have this kind of relationship” or “I wish my man is like that” etc etc. or sometimes we compare.


(Pinakita ko talaga ang likes para dagdagan nyo! HAHA Joke!)

But ladies, let me tell you this. There is no such thing as a perfect relationship and perfect person. We all have weaknesses, shouldn’t compare yours to others. God has a different story for us and different way of making it fun and lovely. What makes a relationship beautiful is when you let HIM write your story and let Him be the center of it. I am not bragging how perfect and good mine is, I am boasting about how God teaches us to be a better partner so we can love each other the right way. We’ve been through ups and downs, adjustments, disagreements, we disappoint each other, we fight but at the end of the day, we still want to please God by forgiving each other, by understanding each others’ feelings. We tend to be selfish at times, we want to be understood and let the pride get in. But is it the way God wants us to be in a relationship? Of course not, pride is the biggest enemy. So ladies, lower our pride. Just eat fried chicken. Hehe!

Forty-seven months, almost four years. September 01, 2017.


Well, he knows how to reply, at least. HAHA (Minsan pumupuso nalang e! Pero di ako galit bes, pusuan mo man o hindi!)


Happy 3years and 11 months to my Baby. He’s not a social media person who post things all the time about the relationship, but I know and he has shown me how he loves me. I thank him for his patience and understanding. I thank him for he is waiting. Not every man will wait for this long. There are so many things I want to say but I will leave them on our BIG DAY!

I am engaged with this man who loves Jesus. Thank you for you are my answered prayer.

PreWed B&Y-52

(Konting kembot nalang, maging isa na kami. )

Thank you guys for reading!



An Open Letter to Myself

Dear Princess,

It’s okay to be not okay sometimes. What you are going through right now is not unplanned. God knows it and he knows what He is doing. I want you to hang in there. I want you to again see your worth. Negative thoughts, extreme sadness, and feeling so low are not good, I know. But here… “Now is not Forever”. There is a time for everything. Everyone experiences hardships and pains. Doubts and fears are so present in you right now but I know you know what to do about it. Open your heart again, open your Bible and remind yourself how God sees you. You are fearfully and wonderfully made. I understand if these past few days you have been struggling,  not doing anything, staying in the room, not going out and procrastinate the whole day. It’s been two weeks, I’ve seen you suffer that long. I understand, but aren’t you getting up this time? That’s enough, Princess. You have to get up and pull yourself together.

Those choices and poor decisions you made are all in the past now, please get up and move on. Do not dwell on the past. People around you will say something, will judge you and even gossip about you but please be reminded that your worth doesn’t depend on their opinions. Let it be and let it go. Do not be too harsh on yourself. You are not a criminal. You are not what you think you are. You’ve been telling yourself that you are dumb, nothing and such a disappointment. Well, you are so wrong. It’s the enemy that keeps installing those on your head. God doesn’t look at you that way.

You are a jolly person, you are responsible, you are smart and you can do anything for God gives you strength. You are loved and highly favored. Don’t you remember all the prayer answered? Why are you so sad? Remember His love towards you, Princess. You asked for it, right? You wanted to experience having a parent around. God answered you. He brought you here in Aruba where you can see your father. One Happy Island? Yes, it’s not as happy when you were in the Philippines but admit it there are things in here that make you happy as well. Remember those and see the beauty of life. Enjoy them and be thankful.

Do you remember when you asked God to bring your siblings here? You were crying almost every day asking God to bring them. God did. It was a great day to you and you were really grateful. See? God answers prayers, He will grant our requests in the right time. An unexpected and uncontrolled situation happened, your sister needed to go back to the Philippines. It was an awful season for you and your family. But God helped everyone to get up. That’s part of His plan so you learned to let go. How about the request you asked about your first employer? Every day was a struggle to you but you endured it for three years? You didn’t show to everyone that it’s really difficult because you focused on His promises. “He will not leave you nor forsake you, he will rescue you.” I can still remember how happy you were the night you took all your things out of that house. You can’t help but cry and whisper when you were in the car “I am free. Thank you, Lord” Tears fell. They were tears of joy. You persevered, you endured the years, Princess. It was not easy but you finished it. Because you can do anything. Don’t you believe that?

After that day, you went home to your father’s house. You brought all your things together with your heart, hopeful that there will be doors of opportunity coming. You needed someone to sign again for you for your next permit. You didn’t actually do anything but God sends your next employer right in front of you. He’s been faithful. I guess, He really wants you to stay on the island. You didn’t have any problem with the permit. He loves you so. While others struggle to have a permit, some were living here for quite some years and yet they don’t have a legal permit. Here you are, enjoying all the freedom and benefits. God is good in your life.

Just last year, you received a monster blessing. Your US Visa was approved and you got to see your Mommy in the US. It was your first time to spend that long, one month with her after she left abroad when you were 5years old. Isn’t it amazing? God is so good to you. Other Filipinos were told that only those who have the residence permit can be approved. It means only those who have 10permits, 10years living in Aruba. You only had four permits that time. They also said that you should have a property here. You don’t have. There are a lot of reasons not be approved, to be honest, but your visa still has been approved. I told you, You are highly favored. That is for you. His gift for you. So pull yourself together and be grateful, count your blessings.

You have finished your contract from the second employer. They were so nice to you. It’s a blessing. Did God forget about you? He wants you to know that He is in control. Sometimes you think, you can’t handle things anymore but God shows His mercy and grace. Recently, you just got an appointment for your next permit. Did God ever forsake you? No. He sends another one to sign for you, and you didn’t really chase for it. God is using people for you to see that everything is under control.

But didn’t you know why you got all the answers? These are some of His blessings to you. It’s not all. You had more. But are these enough to remind you He knows everything? He answered every single thing you asked, you know why? Today, I will remind you why. You got lost these past few days but today I will remind you again. It is because you BELIEVE. It’s already given and proven that God loves you so much. But God was delighted because you have believed. You let Him take control about everything and you just trust Him that He can do impossible things possible. When God says “YES” no one can stop him. He will fulfill his plans in your life no matter what. So why don’t you let him do it again? believe again? Believing means even you don’t see the answer yet, still you stay calm and let him take control. His answers are on the way now. Behind the scenes, he is working. You can’t understand that now but sooner or later you will. He will reveal them to you. 

While you are waiting, why don’t you worship again? That’s what you usually do. You pour out your heart to Him no matter how difficult the situation is. Because you know that this is the only and best thing you can ever be done while you are waiting for— Worship. Thanking Him for all He has done in your life, giving him the glory for all the achievement you have received. Whatever his answers to your questions and requests,  you receive them freely because you are trusting him. Say these again to Him “I will still love you even it hurts””I will still choose you no matter what” “I want you in my life””I will worship no matter what the circumstances” You know when you worship, you found peace, joy, and love, you found life. That’s where you belong, Princess. In HIS presence. 

So let it be. Let it go. Lay it all down. Trust Him. Believe that He has greater plans in your life. God believes in you so you have to believe in yourself again. These trials are nothing compare to what God has prepared for you in the future. Fix yourself, fix your eyes on Him again. He is all you need. Do not worry about what people may say. Listen to what God is telling you. So get up and be confident in Him. 

You are a Princess. His princess. His daughter. Smile and be confident. You are beautiful.

 ** I had to remind myself so I wrote these things in my planner/journal. Thank you for reading. Yes, I struggle but I will get up so I hope and pray for those who also experience the same thing, the letter is for you too. He loves you so. Love yourself too.

Stand up, stand out and Shine!




DIY 2017 Bullet Journal/Life Planner Set Up

I love writing and journaling but this is actually my first time doing a BuJo. After browsing on the internet especially on Pinterest. I finally decided to make my own. 

I used colored cardstock, white papers and some stickers. I bought them at Palais Hindu and Dyon Center. At first, I wanted to just simply buy one. I saw a beautiful planner/journal at Kate Spade. I wanted it so bad but it’s quite expensive. So I decided to do DIY Planner. It’s more fun to design your own, though. 

The categories I have:

1. Day Planner- my daily plan

2. Ministry – all about church stuff.

3. Expenses

4. Notes

5. Goals 

6. Projects

7. Contacts

Honestly, I just use this dividers I saw from an old organizer at home. I didn’t buy them. You can always make your own. Go to Microsoft Excel or Word, type your categories and print. 
Someone gave me a hanging calendar. I used it for my planner. 

I don’t really have much to do but I decided to plan to be productive. It is helpful for me to stop procrastinating. I honestly lost my motivation here, I wanted and praying to go back Philippines. It is really hard to be an overseas worker. I have to be strong and strive harder. So this is good to track how am I doing with my life. But you know, its not that easy to go back to my country because I have met my love of my life here. So trying to motivate myself and keep going. 

That’s my daily plan looks like. I am sorry for the mess around. I don’t have table in my room. I have a small room but I am thankful I have place to sleep. 😝 I put verse everyday so I am always be reminded how faithful God is and to trust him everyday. I also add a habit tracker. Since, I also love scrapbooking, I kinda like to design my pages sometimes. I am planning to add pictures as well. Sounds fun!  Besides from daily plan, I also have a weekly plan. To be honest, I am more into designing my pages. 😂  But I have to remind myself to plan and be really serious about doing it. Keep motivated and determined. Every good memories are good to write down. When you have to look back, you’ll remember how you days become happy! I put a page for special memories.  If you are planning to make one for your journal, bring out the artistic spirit in you. As long as you are having fun, go for it!

I love watching movies with special someone,family and friends. One of my to-do list for this year is to watch alone. Let’s see! Hihi. And, of course, Korean series are the best! OMG it’s really fun to watch korean love stories 😍 This is not necessary but for me it’s fun to write them down. I added page for them 😅

Next, birthday and special events. You’ll be reminded to greet them and do something for your friends and love ones. I added this because I used to memorize all of their birthdays but because of technology, we sometimes depend on fb reminders or phone reminders. It’s not bad to do that but for me, I wanted to remember them by heart. 

Because of so much websites to join, we sometimes forget our passwords. So Websites with Password page in your journal can help you remember them. But of course, be really careful not to leave your journal unattended. 

Good thing about Bullet Journal, you can add more pages as much as you want. I also put some quotes and motivational and inspirational reminders between the days or weeks. You can choose where you want them to put. It’s really helpful for me to keep going especially when I don’t have enough courage to do something. Reminding myself that God created me to do something  great in this world. Remind yourself everyday that you are fearfully and wonderfully made. 

So far, this is my set up. I got some ideas from Youtube and Pinterest. Happy Journaling! 😘 

Better Late Than Never

Yes, it’s 2017. I’ve been wanting to write but I was so off these past few months. But it’s new year I have to gather myself, stand up and face the new chapter of life. Today, I decided to review my 2016  life. God wants us to be thankful and rejoice all the time. I am a Christian, yes, but it doesn’t mean I don’t experience sadness and all. Everyone is under construction, I believe. Everybody has problems in different forms. We just have to learn to face them and handle them well. Anyways, I will be sharing my 2016 Goals accomplished & unaccomplished and Prayers answered in this post.

2016 Goals and Prayers – Review

  1. Gift of Giving

God has been so good to me ever since and he never stop showing me that He is my Jehovah Jireh, my God who provides. There are a lot of people around me that always give so I prayed and desired to exercise the gift of giving. It was kinda difficult for me because my status here in Aruba is not stable but still I wanted to share even little things.

  •  I donated some of my clothes.
  • I helped a friend with financial.
  • I gave handmade bookmarks
  • I created handmade cards and gave to those I loved and appreciated.

     2. Driving Lessons/License

Unfortunately I still didn’t get my license but practicing driving.

      3. Bank Account

Yey! Finally, I opened February 2016. I arrived here in Aruba 2012 and I struggled to open an account because of some circumstances. I am not trying to broadcast everything about my life but for me this is really an accomplishment. HAHA 🙂 Thank God.

     4. Read books/novel. (10 or more)

Hmm.. I only read 5 books:

  • Kontento ka na ba sa kaperahan mo? Vic and Avelyn Garcia (Unleash the highest Potential of you Money)
  • Tuesdays with Morrie by Mitch Albom
  • The Power of Right Believing – Joseph Prince
  • Best of Me – Nicholas Sparks
  • Become a Better You (7Keys to Improving your Life Everyday) – Joel Osteen
  • Hunger Games (Mockingjay) – well this, until now I didnt finish the last book. Hihi (almost..almost!)

   5. Study /Learn Papiamento

I understand but I can’t speak fluently.

   6. Be confident.

To be honest, I struggled so much with confidence but God is guiding me. There are times I really feel brave and confident.

     7. Apply for a New Job

I did. I had part times. And again, because of my status here in Aruba which is not stable, I couldn’t get a full time. But I am good. I thank God for His provision and grace everyday.

       8. God’s presence and obedience to Him.

This should always be the top priority of every Christian.He is so good and deserve our service. I still am a Worship Leader at our church and a Tambourine Dance Coordinator.

    9. Cover Songs with Brandon (him playing guitar, me singing)

Well we jammed few times but we still haven’t record any. HEHE this for 2017 Goals 🙂

     10. Travel (anywhere God wants)

This is unexpected but I prayed for this and when I returned to my notebook. I was really in tears for he answered prayers. Places I went to:

  • Curacao
  • US – Orlando, Georgia, Savannah, South Carolina

    11. Write Consistently.

I can say that this year I did write so much. Blogs, journal, personal etc.

    12. New Laptop

I know maybe those who read my old posts, I always say about God’s grace. I am not exaggerating it but His grace is truly amazing. I got mine for free. 🙂

    13. New Printer

Yes, I got one. Thank you Lord

   14. Get more followers on WordPress.

When I was writing this last year, I had 6 followers on my blog. I targeted and wanted to reach 50 followers. I have 62 followers now. WOW! hihi Thank you so much.

     15. Dental Check up.

I had a root canal operation.

   16. Receive an unexpected blessing! Great things. I am excited.

I wrote them exactly like that. The monster blessing was US Visa was approved. I got a chance to travel last year and visit my mom. It was really awesome experience.To God be the glory!

     17. Lose Weight.

HAHA. Sorry but I gained more. 🙂

The Bible says in Proverbs 16:9, In their hearts human plan their course, but the Lord establish their steps. 

I do not ask more and unbelievably ones. I only asked God that whatever I have, to help be content and be happy. I think that is more important in life. BE CONTENT. I had so much blessings last 2016, I also had down moments but those are also blessings so I can draw more closer to Him. I thank God for everything. For material blessings, unexpected ones, great ones but also for all the pains and struggles for they are also used to make me brave. God makes me brave. I praise God for the last year and I will thank and adore Him for this new year. Better Late than Never. Happy New Year! 🙂




Bakit ba ako nandito?

Sinusubukan kong tapusin ang mga write ups ko na na-tengga na sa Drafts. Isa to inumpisahan ko. Ako ay napangiti nang nakita kong pamagat lang pala ang naisulat ko dito. LOL. Bakit nga ba ako nandito?

Sa apat na taon ko dito, patunay lang na hindi pa rin klaro sa akin ang dahilan kung bakit ako nandito. Nakita ko naman ang mga pagbabago sa buhay ko. Ang ilan dito ay maganda pero hindi rin makakaila na meron or mas marami ata yung hindi maganda. I do not want to sound complaining about my life. But if I will be honest with you, mas marami ata ang masakit na nangyari dito.

OFW. Di ko naman siguro kelangan pa isa isahin ang hirap ng isang OFW. Talaga naman kasing para tayong lage nasa battle, laban ng laban. Hangga’t kaya, sige lang. Pero dumarating talaga yun mga oras na hindi mo mapigilan hindi maging malungkot at alalahanin mga naiwan mo sa Pinas.

Dinadaan nalang yan sa tawa at sa panonood ng Koreanovela. Aba mahilig naman kasi talaga ako dyan. Bukod sa ang popogi nila at makikinis, talaga naman maganda ang stories ng mga Korean series lalo na pagdating sa pag-ibig. Ang pure kasi. Kaya marami ang nawiwili dito dahil lahat naghahangad ng fairy-tale love story. LOL 🙂

So Bakit ba ako nandito? :

  1. Dahil kay Papa

Lahat ng mga OFW ang major reason nila ay ang makatulong sa family financially. Syempre yun din dahilan ko, di ako gaya-gaya HAHA pero alam naman natin na ang hirap talaga ng buhay sa Pinas, diba?

Pero isa sa mbigat na dahilan ko kaya ako nandito ay dahil gusto ko makasama si Papa. Bata palang ako OFW na ang parents ko. Broken family din ako dahil din dyan. Hindi ko naman sila masisi pero isa akong product ng broken family. Kung maganda siguro ang buhay namin noon, hindi na kailangan mang-ibambansa ang Mommy. Oo, sya ang unang umalis. 6years old ako noon. Sad truth, hindi ko talaga na experience yung Mommy-daughter moment. Kasi naririnig ko lang sya sa voice tape pa noon. Nararamdaman lang sya sa mga packages, yung pakiramdam na binabalot nya yung mga padala nya sa amin. Di pa uso skype noon and hindi pa techy mga tao. So, buwan ang hihintayin bago mabasa mga sulat namin.

Mahirap ba yun? Aba syempre hindi… hindi ko makaka-ila. Mahirap at masakit. Sa picture mo lang sya napagmamasdan. Kinailangan rin umalis ng Papa, that time ako ay nasa High School na. Third year HS ata ako noon. Pero dahil nga nagkakalabuan na rin sila Papa noon, umalis din si Papa pero ibang bansa din. At dito na nga yun sa Aruba.

Marami na ang nangyari pero gusto ko din linawin na wala akong galit sa mga magulang ko. Tanggap ko na at mahal ko sila kahit ano pa man ang mga naging desisyon nila sa buhay. Bilang isang anak, ayaw ko isumbat sa kanila ang mga naging pagkakamali din namin dahil wala sila sa tabi namin upang gabayan kami. Dahil naniniwala ako na ang lahat ng pangyayari sa buhay natin ay may dahilan.

Ang haba na nito no? Andyan ka pa ba? So to make it short, I wanted to feel having parents beside you. Kasi matagal tagal namin di naramdaman yun. Maniniwala kaba kung ang tanging dasal ko lang noon bata bata pa ako ay ang magkaroon ng ‘family picture’? Simple lang siya pero malalim, mahirap makamit. 🙂

Sa kagustuhan ko mapalapit sa magulang ko dahil sa paniniwala na magiging kumpleto ako pag maramdaman ko na kasama ko sila, nagdecide ako na magtrabaho na din abroad. At alam mo ba na hindi naging madali sa akin iwan ang comfort zone ko? Dun ako nagkamuwang, nagkaroon ng kaibigan, nagmahal at minahal at nagkatrabaho na akala ko hindi pa enough.

Dahil kay Papa kaya ako nandito. I want to be closer to him. Pero alam mo ba na malungkot ako? Hindi ko kasi alam if na-aapreciate nya yun. Hindi ko alam if ramdam nya na mahal ko sya. Hindi ko alam if proud ba sya sa akin. Siguro one day, malalaman nya din na kahit ganito ako ngayon. Nasa bahay lang ako ngayon isang buwan na, jobless. HAHA balang araw magiging proud din sya sakin.

So, may isa pa akong prayer. Si mommy naman. Bago man lang ako magsettle down (naks! ikakasal na ang bata), maranasan ko naman ang Mommy-daughter bonding. Sapat na siguro ang kay Papa, though alam kong kulang pa. Pero I know Papa loves me at mga kapatid ko, lahat ginagawa nya para sa amin. Alam ko na kahit hindi man sya showy, mahal na mahal nya pa rin kami.

2. Para sa kanya

Maarte.’para sakanya pa’ nalalaman. HAHA. Nakilala ko dito ang mapapangasawa ko. So, kaya ako nandito ay para makilala ko sya. O diba? Ang magbabago ng takbo ng buhay ko at apelyido ko. Boom! Wait… wag nalang makasiguro baka pagdating sa dulo hindi rin pala matuloy at sasama na rin ako sa mga organisasyon ng mga single na sumisigaw ng “Walang Forever”

3. God alone

All for God’s glory. Nandito ako para patunayan na kahit na anong hirap ng buhay hindi pa rin magbabago ang katotohanang ang Diyos at tapat kailanpaman. Mahirap maging katulong kahit na tapos ako ng pag-aaral. Pero dahil nga kelangan ko mag-comply sa rules nila dito, tiniis ko. Sa mga panahon na iniiyak ko ito sa Kanya, isa lang napatunayan ko. Never ako iniwan ng Diyos. Sa bawat patak ng luha at pagtawa ko Sya lang ang nagiisang may alam ng tunay na laman ng aking puso. Sige seryoso na to. HAHA Basta ang sinasabi ko langh. Bakit ko nakakya lahat? Kasi andyan si Lord.

Kung binabasa mo pa din ito, salamat po. Naapreciate ko po ng sobra. God bless you!

-Princess in Aruba

Hello baby ko!

Cringggg! Cringgg! Cringg!

“Hello baby ko!” I answered

“Hi baby ko, I just want to at least, at least hear your voice and say goodnight. It feels you are near whenever I hear your voice” he said.

I asked him to go to sleep early tonight because he wants to have 7 hours sleep everyday. He needs to wake up early the next day for a walk with his mom. He is trying his best to be healthy which is a good thing.

“But.. I miss you” he replied. Few seconds after, I received the call.

He is a sweet person. No doubt. He never fails to make me feel beautiful all the time. Well actually, every single day he will randomly say “You are beautiful” “Why are you so beautiful?’ “Bakit ang ganda mo?” (in Tagalog)

I am blessed to have him. I want to say more about him. If I won’t control this, I will obviously show that I am head over heels in love with this man. I feel like saying all the endearing words to express how I feel LOL 🙂 I am in love, am I?



One of the sweetest messages I’ve ever received. It was posted on my Facebook account. He really knows how to make his fiance smile. I thank God for Him. I do not want to sound cheesy but really.. this is cheesy! LOL. Hallelujah Thank you Jesus! I am loved and so blessed.

It is important that even you are in a relationship for so long, you have to appreciate your partner all the time. Just because you are comfortable with each other you will not do any effort to make him/her special. We had ups and downs but we make sure to look at each other how God sees us. We are loved unconditionally by God. Only Him can really love us perfectly, of course. Therefore, we should try our best to love others unconditionally.

English Standard Version
We love because he first loved us. 1 John 4:19

I will not say that we have the perfect relationship because we do not have. What we have is God, who is so gracious in teaching us how to love, forgiving us and loving us with unending love. The goal in any relationship is to be God-centered. I will share more on future posts. 🙂 this is good for now.

Prayer for him

Dear Jesus,

Thank you for this man. You have heard me a lot of times that I am really grateful you brought him in my life. He is truly my answered prayer. I pray that you will help him grow more in your knowledge. Remind him always that he is loved by You. Make him a  man you wanted him to be. Thank you God for your love that cause us to love each other this way. Thank you for bringing us together. Guide him and protect him together with his family. I know you will always make him happy because you want me to be happy as well. I love seeing him laughing. I like his smile, his eyes. Okay, Lord I better stop. HAHA  All I want to say is thank you because he is one of the greatest things happened in my life. Ooops. I should really stop, I want to reserve words for my vow on our Big Day. 🙂 We love you Jesus. Amen 

Thank you for reading. God bless you


This time… Part 3 na hihi

Thank you so much. The third part wishes and prayers from my family and friends. I re-blogged this so late. HAHA 🙂 It’s really touching. It makes me see myself a different way. God bless my sister and them!


Sana napasaya ka namin Yhang =D.

Habang ginagawa ko ito mixed emotions pero ang nakakatuwa ang lakas ng pakiramdam mo, nakakainis noon pa man di ko magawang taguan or mag-lie sa iyo at magawang tiisin ka grrrr.. Che!

Proof? ito oh!!! Kaw talagang bata ka, di ka pa rin nagbabago hmm


#KULITNABATA. wala ako surprise sa iyo kasi alam mo na, token of appreciation lang bwahhaha #anodaw#DEADMAKANASAKINSAVIBER#BLEH

O siya ituloy na natin ito !!!! hapon na sa pinas haha 🙂

VII. Mga Taga Aruba naman 🙂

From: Pastor Roel 


From: Faisa


From: Eugene


From: Rj

rj.jpg Amen =D

From: Tita Mergy


From: Jeriah


jeria2 Adorable girl 🙂

From: Glyz


glyz2 Dito na kita sinama ah 🙂

From: Tita Agnes, my Rose and Kim


Tita I appreciate you 🙂 Thank you for helping me on this.. I miss you Rose and Kim and also Jeriah.. =D

From: Tita Mildred



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Realizations on turning 29ish

Kids want to get old and old people wanted to be kids again. The same feeling as others who turned at this age, I had that moment of truth as well. Like “Wait, really? What happened?” This is also a moment where you evaluate your life and will have a deep realizations. Let me share my thoughts on turning 29ish.

  1. LIFE IS SHORT, Be Content.

We usually hear this when a person dies, but this time no one dies. I just become more aware of my age. If we only know when will we die, I am sure all of us will live everyday as if it is your last. But reality check, we do not know when. But we all know that our life here on earth is short to be negative all the time. Why not spend your years meaningful and happy? How?

Contentment is one of the answers. Life is not a competition. We are all given a life to enjoy. Just because some are rich you should hate yourself being poor and choose to pity yourself.  Just because you are in Philippines and most of your friends work abroad doesn’t mean you are not successful. Also, just because they work abroad doesn’t mean they don’t experience struggles and hardships. We all do, wherever we are, whatever we do, we all undergo in the process of learning and enjoying life. Admit it or not, we have and/or had depressions and anxiety attacks at times. You started to look down on yourself and believe the thinking that you are nothing because you also starting to compare yourself to others.

We always want more. I remember someone who once said “If I will only have that phone, I will end up there and will not ask for more” he got that phone, but guess what every year he wants to change his phone. High technology, trending, everyone has it and ending up “I want that too”. If cellphone is only a way of communication and if it still works, why should I buy a new and expensive one? It is okay to upgrade or buy whenever and whatever you want. Its not a problem as long as you can afford and know your priorities. My point is, in our lives we never be content if we will freely let ourselves flow how the world goes. You get frustrated when you can’t have what you want, the luxurious life that everyone wants, and start to be feel jealous and compare self to others. Be content. If they are rich, let them be rich. If you think you are poor, you are wrong. God has given us everything we need. You just have to know the difference between NEEDS and WANTS.

Hebrews 13:5(ESV)

Keep your life free from love of money, and be content with what you have, for he has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”

1 Timothy 6:6-11 (ESV)

But godliness with contentment is great gain, for we brought nothing into the world, and[a] we cannot take anything out of the world. But if we have food and clothing, with these we will be content. But those who desire to be rich fall into temptation, into a snare, into many senseless and harmful desires that plunge people into ruin and destruction. 10 For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evils. It is through this craving that some have wandered away from the faith and pierced themselves with many pangs.

When I was younger, I used to be like someone who wants more. I want this and that. I had deep thoughts of being rich. Big own house, car and beautiful branded clothes. I spent time thinking and wishing my life to be like that, perfect as others look at it. And when I came back to reality, I started to get mad at my parents. “If only they are rich” But as time goes by, as I learned from life and see what truly the real treasure is and through God’s word, the light unto our path, I changed. My perspective in life changes. That “if only they/I am rich” turns to “If only I am content”. If only from the very start, I am content, I would be happier and appreciate the beauty of life. It is okay. It’s not to late. God wants us to be content. I do not want to spend my life on earth comparing my life to others. I want and choose to be content. Thank God for his correction and learning.

 2. Love Yourself.

This is a broad topic to discuss. I do not want to be misunderstood when I say “Love and Be yourself” God loves everyone of us and he accepts us for who we are. I will only talk about a situation where self pity and low self esteem  overwhelm me.

Many of us dwell on the thoughts “I am not good enough” “I am not capable” “I can’t achieve great things” “I am miserable” “I can’t achieve my dreams””I will be forever like this” Regardless of age, we tend to dwell on negative thoughts. “Buti pa sila” “Buti ka pa” Those words and thoughts unconsciously destroying your character and personality. You forget who you are because you are filled with others attainments and start to even look on their flaws as well to make yourself believe either you are better than them, or you think you are wretchedly unhappy.  Both results are not good If you don’t know how to balance, you will become insecure and ending up comparing yourself to others and hatred starting to fill your heart to the people too. You think they’ve got them all good together in their lives and you don’t. Sadly you become hard on yourself unknowingly. You become jealous about other’s possessions and achievements instead of focusing on your abilities and accomplishments.

Social media is something we can have an access on others’ lives and you started to think that they are more blessed or fortunate than you are. It is normal that we sometimes feel jealous, everybody feels that, admit it or not. But it always good that you will have a good check in your heart from time to time. If you want to have a peaceful life. Star to love yourself and see the good things in your heart. I personally admire people who are happy to others success. They are very few. Do not be somebody else. Be yourself. Love yourself.

There will always be someone who is better than you, prettier or more handsome than you, smarter than you, richer than you but there is only one YOU. You are unique. When I realized that I really wanted to write, a dream held in my heart for a long time. I doubted it first because I focused on others’ works. They are so good and I am not. I admit I still have to learn things. But one thing I have learned, I won’t achieve any goals in my life if I won’t step on it. JUST DO IT. I do not write because everyone has the ability to write (for bloggers and writers), I write because I love to. I need this to make me feel happy and fulfilled. They are better than me yes, I know. I admire them but instead of focusing on those ‘more than you’, look into your heart, START appreciating your own self and you will be amazed how God becomes gracious in bestowing blessings and favors, abilities, skills, talents and gifts upon you. I can’t say that I am able to write good but by doing this, I am loving myself. It helps me to express myself. So whether people won’t like what I am writing or saying here, I will still do it because I love doing this. 🙂 I am God’s masterpiece. You are God’s masterpiece. It means you are His great art of work.

Ephesians 2:10 New Living Translations (NLT)

10 For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.

3. Nobody to Somebody 


I am 30 and during my younger years, negative thoughts like these empower me. It does happen to me still at times. I don’t like it. I do not want my heart be consumed with dirty things such us hatred, greed, anger, jealousy, frustrations, depressions and all. Everyone does not like them, of course. I do not want to live like that, so seeking the ONE who created us is the best way to know what is good and what is not, to have a knowledge between right and wrong. I am so thankful that the life God has given us everyday is a chance and challenge for ourselves to be better. To live a life with a purpose. You learn along the way, your journey of being Nobody to Somebody is not an easy journey yet it is fulfilling. I used to believe that I am just nobody and won’t be able to achieve great things.

Yes, if I have to compare my life to my college friends and batch mates, and define success as possessions and career growth, I would say I am nobody. In my previous posts, you would read how was my life  in 4 years living in Aruba. Click A part of my Story if you want to know. 🙂  But I would say I am Somebody now. I am not boasting about my life, honestly, I have nothing to boast about. At this age, I do not have a job everyone dreams, I don’t have a house or a car, I don’t have expensive clothes, I do not have gadgets that everyone wants. I don’t have money to eat to some fine dining restaurants, name them, I have nothing to boast but.. let me tell you, I have a job, not a good position but I have at least I have a job. I do not have my own house but I have people who treat me like their own family, besides from my father’s place, I still find home by those people who are nice to me. Gadgets? To tell you honestly, I didn’t spend a lot of money for my phone, laptop and ipad. They are almost free. Freely given to me. Restaurants, I can eat sushi which we all know are expensive. I ate at fine dining restaurants because of lovely people who invite me at times, again it’s free.

This how I call favor from the Lord. I don’t demand for things, God is showering His blessings to me. I am so blessed. Really. I don’t mind if other people look down on me. I am not explaining myself for the ones who think I have all together. I also experience things here huh! You just have to be content, love yourself and to be somebody. Somebody means, knowing your identity in Christ. When negative of this world strike you, remember who you are in Christ. You are accepted. A new creation, blessed, cherished, designed by God, favored, forgiven, saved, unique, you are loved and you are victorious. The Lord sees us so wonderful, you gotta believe you are. From that person whom I think Nobody, I have learned to embrace the love of God to be this Somebody, knowing my worth.

4. I am Egg! HAHA

Just like an egg mixed to other ingredients to bake a cake. I am like an egg, I used to like to be isolated, I cover myself with my shell. I don’t like to see the world for not being open minded and just believe what I want to believe. I do not want to open myself to anyone. I am okay being inside, comfortable. But I had to let someone break my shell for me to be useful and to live longer I guess (mabubugok ako e!). Breaking the shell could be painful for me, adjustments will happen because I’ve been living inside my shell for a long time. Time comes that I need to be put in a bowl and mixed with other ingredients. I am an egg, that is my purpose of living so I let myself mixed to others. In mixing process I need to blend in for the baker can create a perfect cake. Mixed and put in a pan. When ready, put in an oven to bake, you cannot make a cake if you won’t put the mixture in an oven. Inside the oven, the temperature would be so hot  but it is needed for a cake to be baked. As soon as you are ready, the sweet delicious aroma will spread the whole area. Just like when you pass a bakery, you smell the delicious cakes and breads. whooo 🙂 Dushi! And you are ready to be eaten.

I let God break me and release me from my shell. Shellfishness. Haha Selfishness. It is not always about myself, being comfortable, and not to see others needs.I have to give myself to be used and be useful. It does not give you satisfaction when you are alone inside your shell. You are made for something else that is why you are longing for that purpose for you to feel the satisfaction. He needed to break me so I can give myself away. When I say, “Okay, Lord have your way” I let the Baker do as he wish. It was not easy, it’s uncomfortable. “What? why do I have to mix myself to others? Why do I have to blend in? I can be alone.” “I don’t care about them. I will live my life on my own. Yeah. “self” where we can only think about ourselves all the time, what we want, what we feel, what makes us comfortable without desiring to see others needs or situations. That is the moment I go to see different and difficult people around me but still I have to accept them for who they are and blend in because they are also God’s creation with different function in the world just like me. I am not saying that you have to please everyone. The point is, God shows me that I am loved and little by little he also teach me how to love. I am not saying also that I love someone perfectly. Only God can do that. But Jesus inspires us to love others. Well in fact, the greatest commandments God gave us:

Matthew 22:36-40

36 “Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?”

37 Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’[a] 38 This is the first and greatest commandment. 39 And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’

Loving yourself makes you love others. Loving others is loving God.

Fruits of the Spirit

The mixing process produces you with these characters that God wants us to learn. I am not saying I have them at all times. I am human. I am not perfect, I am so perfectly imperfect but I have a perfect God who loves me just the way I am and teach me how to live a life meaningful. His word is a guide for me to be in a right path. Sometimes I am in doubt to write things about this, I don’t want to let people feel uncomfortable by making them feel “I have the perfect life.” Of course not, again, I am not gonna boast about myself but I can boast about the ONE who helps me becoming like this. I still have things to learn, I know. Just like the saying “Experience is the best teacher and the worst experiences are the best lessons” In life, learning is unending cycle. Live to learn.

When the mixture is ready, I have to be put in the oven. Those are the times when you want to get out from it because it is painful, you feel like you can’t endure the temperature anymore. This stage could be the painful experiences in your life, dealing with difficult people, facing different tragedies in life, financial problems, broken hearts, broken lives etc., you feel like there will be no escape. There is a time for everything. Even the baker wants to get you from the oven, he still has to see if you are ready. I have to wait for the right time until I am really ready. Sometimes you really have to endure it the long time, but guess what? When you wait, the result will always be great. There is a blessing in waiting and obedience. When the Baker takes the cake out from the hot oven, he knows that you are ready. The aroma will spread out the place. You will see the smile from the Baker and from the people around you wanting you to be part of their lives. The praise will always goes to my Baker for making a good cake or bread. You are becoming a blessing. You make them happy. It is so fulfilling to see you are blessed to be a blessing.

Final Words

Life is short. We should learn how to be content and enjoy life. I will say it again, stop comparing yourself to others. While living on earth, do not waste your time on comparing yourself to others instead appreciate yourself. We are unique in our own way. Find things that make you happy. If you have a desire and dream deep down your heart and you still didn’t act with it, just do it. We are all learning. If you fail, its okay but never stop learning. Just like what I am doing, if writing makes me happy, even there are people that is better than me, I will keep doing this, I guess. HAHA. because I am becoming proud of myself for I used to have a low self esteem yet I am sharing my deepest thoughts now which help me seeing my worth. When you learn lessons from life, choose to be a blessing. There’s someone out there needs your story to be refreshed, encouraged and be reminded again. Share yours! Be a blessing!

If you are still reading this, thank you so much for your time. These are some of my great lessons in my 29ish living in this world. I still want and have to learn a lot of things. And may this be an encouragement to you. I would love to hear from you by writing on comment box. Yey! God bless you 🙂






Keep Calm You’re 29ish

Have you ever think to stop and start again? 🙂  I just turned 29ish yesterday. March 1, 2016, Tuesday. When someone ask my age, it’s kinda difficult to admit I am 30, so I better say 29ish. Okay? I am trying to calm down but really? Am I this old? I demand a recount. LOL.

CTO: Google Image

Hahaha. I really laughed when I see this. What happened? … LOL 🙂

I didn’t plan anything actually. I just wanted to stay home and have a birthday sleeping mode. My friend, Cherry, encouraged me to do something fun. It’s only once that I turn 30. True enough but for me “sleeping”is fun. haha I asked for a week vacation from work. It’s good to have rest like this. Thank God. So yeah, had to gather myself, relax and have fun!

How did I celebrate my 29ish:

  1. I cleaned my room (half cleaned haha)
  2. I washed my bed sheets.
  3. I stayed home with my cousin because everyone was at work.That is sweet of him special mention to Christopher Neil Grajo for going straight here after school. He accompanied me.
  4. My brother took a half day off, well actually I was not the reason, he had to fix some documents. But then I am happy he came home early. Yey! May kalaro na ako.
  5. Papa arrived in the afternoon, nice way to spend your birthday with the family
  6. Decided to eat dinner out with relatives and friends, Papa and Tita Blessie couldn’t join because Papa was not feeling well. But he gave me his gift. 🙂
  7. Had fun at Peanuts Restaurant with them

Busog na busog na ako halata sa tyan. Patawad HAHA

with my fiance and mother in law to be 🙂

Tito Mommy Miles and Tito Daddy Emong , Tita Janet


Sige Birthday nyo? Kayo na malaki image. Sila yun walang sawang mang asar sa akin pero kami tatlo lage magkakasama, I am their Princess. kaya nga wala ako dyan. I am their favorite pag dating sa bully-han 🙂 I love you men! My cousin and brother.


I woke up early in the morning, heard my phone beeping continuously. So I checked it and yeah it’s March 1, people are giving their greetings, encouragements and prayers posting on my Facebook Timeline. One of them is a blog greeting surprise for me made by my sister Queen. I remember making her one last year. I interviewed her friends for some silly and serious questions about her. She did it to me this time. How sweet! 🙂 I am blessed to have her and the people participated. Thank you so much. I feel so loved

She asked three questions:

  1. Who is Yhang to you ? (Yhang is my nickname)
  2. What is/are unforgettable moments or experience with her
  3. Birthday Messages/Prayers for her

Click if you want to know more : Birthday Messages from Friends and Family created by Ate Queen. Sweet 🙂 Thank you so much for the effort and love, people. I can’t mention names one by one but I am really grateful for all the greetings! God bless you all!

February 29 and March 1 are my birthdays. 🙂 Philippine time and Aruba time. My first greeter made me cry at first.


Four reasons I cried after reading this:

  1. Ang hirap basahin. Hindi na ako marunong magbasa ng short texts, Jejemon ka sis. LOL
  2. I wanted to hug you and everyone over there but I can’t, I am too far. But I whispered to God to embrace you all for me. I love you!
  3. The surprise. It was very touching, though I know you all making that for me, I knew it, you guys were so busy na naseenzoned lang ang beauty ko 🙂
  4. My scrapbook materials kept in the baul for 4 and half years. Haha You guys used my materials for the surprise. Funny! It’s okay, I really appreciate the effort 🙂 I am excited! I would surely love it!

My day was already made by the touching messages and revelation from the people close to my heart in the morning. I grabbed my journal and start to write. Thanking God for all the blessings. Its not money or material things but it was a very great gift. God made me feel I am so much loved by Him by giving me those people in my life. Nakakaiyak malaman na naiiyak at namimiss nila ang old times with me. Thank you God for their friendship and love. I feel so blessed and loved, really. Ang sarap sarap nilang basahin. 🙂  Thank you to my sister, dalawin nyo sya, follow din Queen’s WordPress Blogsite. I really really like them, you know? I had so much tears and laugh while reading them. Thank you for everything. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH 🙂 Panalo sa effort te. Pak na pak. I feel loved.

Only One Regret : Yesterday, I could have gone to Starbucks. If it’s your birthday, you do not need to pay anything. It’s free! 🙂 Here in Aruba, it’s free. I do not know with other countries. I was already tired and full from the dinner so we all went home 🙂 I will have to wait another year to have a free Starbucks. Haha Now I want it. Grrr.

To my Facebook friends, thank you so much for the greetings. I appreciate you all. May God bless you abundantly. 🙂

This year is my year! Yey 🙂 On my next blog, I will be writing about My Thoughts on Turning 30. Thank you for reading. I know I am not that good blogger, but I have to do this because I love doing this, it helps me express myself through writing. So, even I am not that well (yet) please bare with me. Let me enjoying blogging. No bashers please. 🙂  Cheers!

I am craving now. this is what I ordered yesterday at Peanuts Restaurant:Fish Chicharon

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Pahabol: I love him, I carried him when he was a baby, I did it again on my 30th.

My brother King 🙂

Family. My inspiration. I love you all


Ako na ang latak! haha my Queen and King 🙂

My Grandmothers. I really miss them. Tears 😦 Thank you Mama Esther and Lola Nena

Me! Small and looked terrible 🙂 haha


Princess at 29ish . Happy Birthday to me! Thank you Jesus for another year. 🙂

Tell me now, do I look 29ish?