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7 Things I am awful at

Hello guys and gals! Thanks for stopping by.

I think I am good at this. Like, admitting and sharing some of your weaknesses. I wanted to real in this world full of pretensions.

Everyday we see people posting beautiful stuff on their social media and it always look like they are all having a perfect life. But guess what? It’s not. IT’s UNREAL.

So at this post, I have to be transparent at some point. Sharing things I am awful at is kind of fun, isn’t it?

  1. I am not good at sports. Sometimes, I think the reason why I didn’t grow, I mean literally, my height is 4’10”, because my bones weren’t stretch that much. I wish I am a sports minded, but I am not. HAHA
  2. I got mad easily. I even told this to my husband when we were dating that at times, I got irritated immediately. I don’t know if that is my hormones or just my personality. I have to work it out, you know? I am learning, though. I need more patience.
  3. Stubborn. When I want to do something, I must do it. It’s like ‘What Princess wants, Princess gets’. But believe or not, God changes me. I know I still have this at times but God is good for helping me overcome it. Take note: I am not worse. HAHA It’s just mild.
  4. I need to exercise.
  5. Time Management
  6. Consistency. When I begin to do something to be productive, I started it and then after a while, I stopped. Just like this blog challenge. I wanted to do it everyday the day I started, but it was not easy. I also started a “photo a day” on Instagram but after days, I cancelled it. SIgh! I want to be consistent but I am so bad at this. So help me, God! HAHA
  7. Discipline.

So, these are the seven things I am awful at. They are some of my weaknesses, but I want to believe that knowing and accepting these are just a way of improvement.

We can always try to be better on things we are bad at, right?

Have a great day! 😉

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What Do People Misunderstand about you?

It’s Day 10 of 30 Day Challenge! Though, I am not able to do this everyday, I am trying my best to finish the challenge on my own time. No pressure. I am still grateful that I reached this day. HAHA 10th. 20 more. It’s called progress.

What do people misunderstand about me?

Oh well! I think the way I talk. Some people misunderstood is as an angry tone of yelling. HAHA My husband mostly noticed that. “Why are you yelling?” he asked. Deep down my heart I am just normal talking to him. I told him that before, there will be time that you will think I am angry but I am not. It’s just that’s the way I talk.

When I care, I correct. But that’s one of my ways to care. I don’t want my friends or people that I care about to suffer because of wrong decision. Some will find this positive but others offensive.

I understand. I learned from it. I have to ask permission first if he/she needs to hear my opinion or not. Unsolicited opinion is not okay. So, I guess, I learned to adjust with that.

How about you? What do they misunderstand about you?

Thanks for your time!

If you can’t say it, write it.

I’m kind of inspired to blog today, which I haven’t done like in ages. Wish I have all the time in the world to write every single day. I always want to write about something randomly, but I just end up not doing it because, at one point, I worry so much about how people will handle or look at how I write and view things. And it also because there are so many things to do that I couldn’t get any time to do this. But it is always in my heart to express myself, my thoughts through writing. If some point, I could inspire someone through it, I would love to keep doing this.

“You’re deep.” I’ve heard this a lot of times. I usually show the jolly part of me but for some, like the closest ones, I instantly share my deep self. Or let me say, I am a very open person. I guess? I trust people easily and I get to share my true self if I feel comfortable with a person. Or simply, I am an open book. If you follow my past blogs, I shared mostly about my personal stuff. And I don’t feel bad about them, I think I don’t mind if people will judge me? I just don’t care, anymore. Well, I did, before. But now I don’t care. This is one of the things I am passionate about, I feel better when I do this and this keep going because I love doing this – writing, blogging.

I am writing to express myself not to impress someone. I feel like I am a different person when I start to type my thoughts and put my heart into it. Hmm. different person? I said it wrong, actually. I am being myself. Those words that I couldn’t say, thoughts that continually screaming on my head. I couldn’t say them so I write about it.

I am not gonna boast but I think I am a good listener. When someone is sharing serious things to me, I am that person who just tries to put my feet on their shoes. When I was a youth leader in our church in the Philippines, I have heard a lot of painful stories, heartaches, breakdown, family problems, financial problems. Gosh, name it. Anything under the teenage lives. I and my sister somehow became their counselors. Do not get me wrong, I love doing that. Not that I love the pains they’re going through but the part that I am that someone who can listen when they needed it.

Listener. For many years, I was one of the people they run to when they are going through tough times, and I am flattered. I thank God for the strength and wisdom and for the trust they have given me. Up to today, there are some of them who still remember me and keeping in touch even I am miles away. And I appreciate it, thank you so much! I do not want to sound I am the kindest person in the world ever, please do not get me wrong. I was grateful for the Lord gave me the chance to be their encourager and like a loving ate to them. (ate is an older sister in our language, Tagalog) because these kids, I am telling you, they just need someone to listen to. Someone who understands how they feel. That’s all. You win their hearts.

But with all honesty, at one point in my life, I got tired and burnt out. People look up to you, they think that you are always strong, that you are not allowed to be weak, you are not allowed to make mistakes. You try to help to make them feel better but they never have seen you struggling. They don’t see you weak. Because you are known to be that someone who will make them feel strong. It wasn’t me actually, it was GOD. I was just letting Him used me. God’s grace is just sufficient, and I am forever grateful for that. I do not want to be a bother to anyone, so I chose not to share my weaknesses. I chose to handle them on my own and just simply give them, surrender them to God. God comforts but let’s just be real here, I am human. I am imperfect.

That’s when my love for writing begins. I let my heart out through my writing. Besides from singing my voice and lungs out, HAHA I love to write to express myself – the jolly one and the weak one. It’s not about having a dual personality but I am just being who I really am. I struggle too, I cry too, I get angry too, and most of the time, I couldn’t say my words bluntly, I write them out. And it feels better. I just feel free.

I started blogging a few years ago because of the feeling that I am not being heard and understood. And in here, no matter how bad I am at this, I feel like I have a voice. I had moments when I couldn’t speak it up, they were screaming on my head and then I felt better when I wrote about it.

Today, I want to share the part of me that is about to explode. I am being bullied. And I don’t like it. Who would like it, anyway? I can’t say it because I am avoiding trouble but it honestly bothering me these days. Even though I said it to some and thought I am not affected or don’t care anymore, a part of me is kind of sad. But to be positive about it, it toughens me. To not worry how they treat me, is a tough one. right? For a sensitive person like me, it is not easy.

Living in a foreign country isn’t easy either. When you have to strive harder to live on the island legally, when you accepted any job including being a maid even you are a degree holder, even you finished your college, you have a diploma. You just have to keep going to be legal and abide by the law. When they step on you, you let them because you couldn’t stand for yourself, you just have to swallow it, cried it out and move on the next day. When you are being yelled at because you couldn’t carry an item three times or four times heavier than you, and accused of getting their things.

And recently, when people look down on you because you don’t speak their language when they don’t want to work with you when your colleague tells everyone not to speak English with me and tells you how terrible I am for living in the island for many years and I don’t speak it. Rolled eyes.

Let me tell you, I understood and I speak it a little. They can’t expect me to speak it fluently. And the job I have right now, I talk mostly to English speaking clients. I am not trying to justify it, I know I have to learn it, it’s just it takes time. But I am being judged, looked down and bullied because I am not local.

“You don’t belong here.” a voice telling me.

It’s sad because they don’t even know me. But what is the saddest part? I let them. I allowed them. I let them step on me. I let them look down on me because I avoided confrontation so the result is, I am not myself. I cry my eyes out, I am hurt and it feels like I am the one who did something wrong. I am writing this because it is not about them anymore. It is me. It is me to toughen. I have to stop them there. I have to learn to stand up for myself.

I won’t let anyone look down on me, step on me. ANYMORE. It has to stop.

On the other hand, a person who is so mean has something rough going on in her/his life, full of hatred and insecurities. I pity those people. But this is not an excuse to treat other people bad. We all have to grow up and learn from experiences. This is so hard for me to say or do but I will pray for them. IF this is something I can only do so they will encounter God’s goodness in their lives, I will do it. I will try my best to still be nice no matter how they treat me.

For them: I don’t expect you to be my friends, just respect me as a person. And It’s enough.

Lastly, don’t mess with a person who loves to write.

An Open Letter to my Sister

Dear ate Queen,

I woke up in the middle of the night, couldn’t get back to sleep. I asked God to show me who to pray for. I didn’t forget your birthday. I whispered sweet prayers for you. It’s your day, ate Queen! I hope you are having a great time at the moment. Suddenly, my eyes are full of tears. I know you want us to be there with you to celebrate your birthday. But we all know that it is not that easy. How I wish I can just hug you right now, laugh with you loudly (as we usually do), cry with you as we remember the challenges we’ve been through. I wish I can just fly there easily to surprise you with a party, go shopping with you, eat together and just have sisters bonding. Wish I can make you happy by being present on your birthday. But I couldn’t. To make you feel loved (always) even I am a thousand miles away. This is the least I can do.

I have seen you suffered many times but you got up every time. You are one of the strongest people I know. I can say this not only because I know the challenges you’ve been through but because you have become my inspiration. During the times I was so down and depressed, you never stop lifting me up, praying for me. I cannot thank you enough for all the sacrifices you’ve done for me and King when we were younger. You stood up like our parents, ate (older sister) and kuya (older brother) HAHA. Yeah, that’s why you’re boyish. You fought carelessly when someone tries to hurt us and make us cry. As soon as you know we’re hurt, you are ready to go and talk to them with all your deep words that will make them feel guilty for hurting us. LOL Thank you for being our hero. 

You never look down on us. You always believe in us, in our capabilities, our talents and you are always the ‘Stage Sister’. You celebrate with our accomplishments, you prayed harder for our success that sometimes or most of the time you forget yourself. You are selfless. You think others first more than yourself. Everything is set aside, it’s Princess and King – the priority. Thank you for all your love.

We had a big fight just recently, and I think that was the first time in our entire life. I hurt you badly and I was scared when you told me ‘Simula ngayon wala ka ng ate’ (From now on you don’t have a sister, I am no longer your older sister). I cried so hard like a baby and I know, you did as well. That’s the painful words I ever received in my life. I was scared. You blocked me on your messenger list. Up to this day, I couldn’t believe you did that. I just know that moment that we are both hurt. Brandon, my husband didn’t know how to comfort me. I cried at night, to morning. The next day, couldn’t take it anymore and I was ready to make a letter to my boss and asked for a vacation, go to the Philippines and say Sorry.  I can let others get mad at me, unfriended me, or just disappear in my life but not my sister. I just love her and I was so sorry for hurting her. Mommy scolded us both HAHA, we’re too old to fight. Thank God we talked and apologized the next day. I was relieved. 

I miss you. I love you.

As you pray for our happiness, please remember and know that I do the same. I pray and want the best for you, ‘te Queen. I am so glad that after years of praying and trying you, finally get your license as a nurse #RegisteredNurse. You courageously shared your story to the Facebook world. You didn’t hesitate to tell them that before you pass it, you failed many times. For people’s/ world’s view, they are failures, but for me, they are blessings. Challenges mold you, shape you and made you stronger. You are an inspiration. You inspired us and encouraged us to never give up on your dreams. There will be hindrances on the way, you’ll encounter many obstacles but you just keep pressing on and trusting God that He knows what He is doing.

Secondly, for how many years you were single, you finally found the one. Congratulations on your 1st year anniversary yesterday (Nov 18) – Hashtag #fiance #worththewait #MayForever HAHA. I am so happy for you. I thank God every day because I don’t need to worry for you about your love life any more. HAHA God is always on time, ate Queen. It was not in a rush but it was a sincere prayer that one day, you will find a man God has created just for you. And the day has come.

You are gorgeous, inside out.

Happy Birthday, ate Queen. Di ko na ilalagay and edad, wala na tayo sa kalendaryo.  I will say it again, single or married, I will never stop listening to you, caring for you and loving you.

I rejoice with you for all your blessings! We love you so much

(Wala akong picture this time. Madaling araw na.. ZZZZZzzzz manguha ako saglit sa FB.)

Photo Credit: Kuya Manny Jonah Dela Cruz

I’m back

Depression isn’t easy.

I remember the days when I used to suffer from it. I had symptoms but no one notices, I had a smile on my face every time they see me but they didn’t know I was dying inside. I had attempts and thoughts of ending my….. I don’t even want to say it… suicide. Oh well! What is it to be shy about? People judges you, they know you are a Christian and they thought you can’t experience such things. But let me tell you this, Christians are humans. No matter how we try to do God’s will in our lives, we all have seasons and situations. We have feelings, we struggle too. Maybe the only difference is… we admit that we need JESUS. Whether you are a believer or not, we do all struggle.

God healed me. It took me long years. Yes, long years. Since I arrived here in Aruba, my life changed. I had to face the changes instantly. And I think I am one of the people who can’t just adopt quickly. I have to take my time, people shouldn’t force me. What happened is… people compare their situation to mine. That just because they experience the same hardship, I should also, adopt it quickly. Honestly, it was not easy for me but I tried and I kept moving.

There were times when I just simply want to go back to my own country, but I had to ask God if that’s what He also wants. I grew up with the heart wanting to do what God wants in my life. I failed Him many times and that’s just part of my journey. I learned from my disobedience and stubbornness. But I do believe in Him. He knows what He is doing and He is so good at it. Sometimes we don’t understand His plans are, but we just have to trust that He loves us.

The more I asked him “Why”? Why am I still here?” the more I experienced difficulties during those years. Depression kicks in. I wanted to do my own way, I wanted to control what’s going to happen in my life. I wanted things to happen the way I pictured them. But didn’t happen at all. I started to look down on myself, I have begun to hate myself, unknowingly I am hurting other people too. My behavior changed. And even I tried to look at good things at myself and at others, I failed and ended up becoming negative and isolating myself to others even to those who love me as I am. People didn’t see that. But I noticed it. I didn’t like it. I don’t like to dislike people just because they didn’t match to my personality.

To make it short, I got up and tried to rise up again. It’s a process. I had to make a planner list down I have to do the whole day so I can stay productive. Because when you’re depressed, you don’t want to do anything. You work but just because you need to but your heart isn’t there, your mind isn’t there. You only think about the negatives. You cry so much over nothing. You got mad over nothing. There is no life.

Reading the WORD, having quiet time and worshiping HIm even I was hurting was my ways of dealing with it. I ran to the ONE who created me. I ran to the ONE who writes down my story. He knows how to handle it. He knows me from the inside out. I do not have to worry because even I look at myself weak, even I look down on myself, He sees me beautiful, He sees me righteous and lovely. He never judges me. He loves me. That’s the truth. I clung to that. I held on to that.

Do not get me wrong for saying I look down on myself. People will say, you shouldn’t because God created you. He made you wonderfully and beautifully. Some will ask “Don’t you believe that?” You should, because you are a Christian. And I will say it again, I am human and I can still feel any feelings such as sadness, anger, frustrations, and depression. What I believe — we all have different situations and if we let Him mold us during the process, you will get out from it stronger. And the more you will know that HE is real. When you can’t do anything but trust Him. People will judge you and won’t understand what you are going through, but HIM. He knows everything and He knows me so well.

Everything happens for a reason and that is a truth.

If I will look back now, all I can say is “Thank you, Lord” If it wasn’t for Him, I don’t know where I am now. And I won’t be ashamed to tell my story and reveals God’s glory.

When I say I am back, it doesn’t only mean that I am back here in blogging, but literally, the one who I used to be is back. I met new people in my life and I am glad I could share my days, my thoughts, my heart to them. I got married to the man God made just for me. I got a new job, and I am blessed. Dreams, visions, and plans are active. I finally know what I want to do with my life, to keep living my purpose. I don’t look down on myself. I held to my identity in Christ. Even people will look down on me, I will get hurt but I get up believing that I am not who the people say I am. I am who God says I am. Every day is a challenge but I wake up hopeful, trusting that God is in control.

I still feel afraid sometimes, I am not perfect. But… God’s love gives me confidence. And I am forever grateful.

If you are experiencing depression, find help. You can also talk to me, I will not tell you what to do but to patiently listen. People who are depressed need people who know how to listen. The first step in overcoming depression is to believe that you are not alone.

Thank you for still reading up to this point. I appreciate it!

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P&B Prenuptial Photos

January 1, 2016, I said Yes!

One of the best days of my life. Woah. What’s next? The prenuptial photoshoot was a blessing to us. It’s free! Thank God for my cousin Christopher Grajo for his patience and talent. I am not really good at posing, you know? It’s not my thing. I wanted to be my thing but it doesn’t like me. I could really see my cousin during the photo shoot having a hard time for my smile and pose. HAHA! I am so sorry! But it was a great day.

Actually, this is just arte! It’s not really necessary to have this, you know. Practically, you just want to get married to your partner. That’s it! When you really look at how the world nowadays when it comes to events, it’s creative and elegant. But to be honest, I just want a simple one. I want to stay on that main reason why you’re getting married. But we are so blessed that I have a talented cousin who didn’t charge us anything. God bless him abundantly. Such a blessing!

1…2…3… Smile!

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Okay, not bad.

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Thank God that I didn’t need to smile there and pose. Just stand up and hold hands. The Ring has to be seen. HAHA

Okay. For a better view:

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Could you imagine how our neck is getting stiff and tired? 1…2…3 pose! click! one more, move a little, look up!  His eyes are beautiful. Really! mas mahaba ang pilikmata nya. 

 

Yeah, right. He’s tall and I am short. Perfect combination. LOL.

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Ayan na ‘te! Pose na!  He’s lovely, isn’t he?

What I love most when I get to hug him, I could hear his heartbeat.

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And he can freely kiss me on my forehead… gentleman!

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I know this is a photoshoot, scripted. But in real life, he is like that. I love it when he kisses me on my forehead. It made me feel secured and respected. I am.

Thank God for him.

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For the love of nature. Vitamin SEA. We were under the sun during the photoshoot. But it’s windy…always in Aruba. 🙂

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See that? Ano shampoo mo te? Rejoice ba yan? When hair covered my face, my dress filled with air. Dami ko din atang gas nyan’. Too windy. HAHA

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I can’t help but smile while looking at the pictures. I’m just happy being with him. He is a blessing to me.

 

He carries me when I feel like falling. He encourages me to stand up strong. And helps me to see how God looks at me and reassures me that I am loved.

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I know from the day we started dating, I have someone I can share my laughs and cries with. Isn’t it amazing how the Lord allowed two different people from different culture and race to meet and get to know each other and desire one thing? To LOVE GOD more than anyone else so we could love each other the right way. GOAL. Purpose.

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When you love someone you always want to see that person happy, right? We hope that we will stay like this forever. May forever! Maniwala tayo!

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When I think about the purpose why am I still here in Aruba, the ring will always remind me why. Him. It was the hardest decision ever to live your comfort zone to go to the unknown. When it was blurry, he showed me clearly. God sent him to me. There is a purpose I stayed.  The past years, I was wrestling with God, telling him “I want to go home” (Philippines). He never answered me, I thought. I was home all this time. With GOD always by my side and with him who God sent for me to feel secure. I am home.

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HOME. Where you feel safe. When you are yourself. BE silly. Freely! 🙂 Where LOVE is.

 You will feel weak sometimes but you will help each other to stand up again…

 

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Pata ang labanan ‘te! HAHA

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Gotcha! Am I heavy? :p

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REST is essential to everyone, to any relationship. To pause for a while and reflect how you guys doing. I remember one of our anniversary celebrations where we talked only about how grateful we were that the Lord answered our prayers. He prayed for someone like me and I prayed for someone like him. And how we met was truly God’s plan. In a relationship, we all argue and have misunderstandings but to pause for a while and look back on the day you first met and fell in love is also good to do. Talk about it as much as possible and be always amazed what LOVE can do. What GOD can do.

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And strike a pose. Selfie? Click. HEHE Back to the ball game. Life goes on. Love always.

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Are you still there? There’s more. HAHA

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At this point, we got tired already but had to laugh about it. You want a prenup photoshoot, huh? HEHE… Magdusa ka! LOL

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Okay. That’s it. The reason for this photoshoot… SAVE THE DATE! arte haha.

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The two unggoy(s) [monkeys] are getting married. When is the BIG DAY?

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“Are you ready?” I asked this question many times, I asked him too. When you say, YES, no turning back. Leaving the person behind in marriage isn’t an option at all. You will look at marriage as good thing, not a scary one. I’ve learned that. For me, who has a lot of fears, God reminds me of his Word.

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love. 1 John 4:18

No fear. Just LOVE. God will teach us how to love the right way if we will keep our eyes fixed on HIM. And he never fails.

Hand in hand…with JESUS and with the one He sent.

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The princess found his prince. Finally!

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Are you ready?

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Yes! We’re ready…

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Woah! Finally, I finished this post. It took me a while, well years. HAHA I got engaged, January 1, 2016. We had this photoshoot for fun and for memories. This is kinda late, but yeah! I haven’t shared my photos on my social media (Facebook, IG). I mean I have but not all. Dito lang sa blog site ko shared, first. Thank you so much for your time.

God bless!

-Princess

Photographer:  Christopher Neil Grajo.

Thank you, boy! The best ka. Love yah. 🙂

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My very late 2017 Goals & Prayers Review.

“Better Late Than Never”

I am in the second month of 2018, but my thoughts are still from the last year. I am really grateful for the special events happened in my life. So here it goes. I don’t have fancy plans and goals last year but I love to look back and realized how God has been answering my prayers. On the other hand, those goals weren’t met will still be pursued for this year. Let us not stress ourselves on the things we didn’t accomplish.

  1. Driver’s License  – X

Man, it’s been two years since I am targeting this goal. My gracious Lord, have mercy on me! I supposed to have the test the August of 2017 but I had to go somewhere, out of the island and couldn’t make it. So I changed the date to this year, 2018.

     2. New Permit, my 6th.

I got it! Danki Dios! (Papiamento words mean “Thank God”). I wrote beside it ‘Thy will be done’. For someone like me who works in a foreign country, a legal paper is very important to stay on the island. I am blessed and favored by God that I never got denied, It’s such a blessing. I’ve seen Filipinos who struggle to get a permit to stay or to work here, they risked because they want to help their family. I am not against with such bravery to risk everything even they don’t have papers, they still work and be just alert if immigration officers are around, to run when they have to. To stay home for a while if they are in danger. I feel sad for them and happy at the same time. We all have a different perspective on life. I do respect that. If you are a foreigner, legal papers are important for you to stay. I am grateful, the Lord never let me missed one.

3. Read 12 books.

I wanted to finish one per month. Unfortunately, I only have read 6 books:

  • Have a New You by Friday
  • You can Begin Again – Joyce Meyer
  • So Close, I can Feel God’s Breath
  • Living Courageously – Joyce Meyer
  • Do It Afraid -Joyce Meyer

As you can see, I focused on motivational books this 2017. I really want to get up again so I chose to read inspirational and motivational books which I love most.

4. Blog MORE

Consistent. Oops. I skipped few months but I could say that I blog more this 2017 than 2016. It was my desire to have 15 more followers. I had 62 followers 2016 year end. The current followers I have are 80. Basically, 18 were added. Wow! Thank you guys and gals! Appreciate it. 🙂

5. Be Confident. Be Fearless.

I had a situation where I really had to be confident. I didn’t have a choice. Once in my life, I could say that I think about myself as Princess. And that is my name. It was my wedding day. There were things happened out of control but GOD taught me to stand up there walk down the aisle and think only about HIM being glorified in the event. God is good.

6. Job

Okay, this is a very sensitive topic for me. I found myself untouchable when this is to be talked about. I didn’t like the fact that I don’t have a stable job because of legal paper. But I am grateful that I could work part-time. I worked at Jewelry Store as Clerk from November 2016 – May 2017. I remember how happy I was working there but things changed later on. I left to visit my mom in the US for five months. I’m glad.

7. Be Beautiful on the inside.

What is being beautiful? I remember the year 2017 as one of the great years of my life. There were circumstances that I have to exercise forgiveness and love. When I asked God for this at the beginning of the year, I looked forward to good events, beautiful memories. Tell you what? The year became beautiful for me because of the painful events. I didn’t realize that until today.

Should I forgive? Should I get mad? I ended up forgiving. That is being beautiful for me. Guarding your heart against any anger and hatred is being beautiful.

8. More of God’s revelations.

WOW. I had plenty and they’re surprises I would never forget. God is a great God. He can make all things possible. He never fails to let me know I am loved and highly favored. In every event, God shows me that He is there working and planning things without me knowing until one day… SURPRISE! 🙂

God’s Surprise #1: Walt Disney World

God’s Surprise #2: Jollibee

God’s Surprise #3 Kari Jobe

God’s Surprise #4 Solar EclipseGod’s Surprise #5 North Carolina

God’s Surprise #5 North Carolina

Alam mo yung feeling na humingi ka lang ng konti pero grabe yung binigay nya? Sobra pa sa inaasahan mo. Sa pahinga at sa pagmamahal na pinakita nya sa akin sa taon 2017, wala akong ibang masabi kundi “Salamat po, Panginoon” 

9. Travel to Europe – X

It’s not bad to dream, right? It didn’t happen yet but I still believe I would see it, one day.

10. Visit Mommy in the US again.

My second time. God is so good. I had a wonderful five month with her and my little brother. I give God the glory.

11. Visit the Philippines. X

I was to write impossible things to see at the end of the year how possible it would be if we only believe. Unfortunately, I wasn’t able to visit Philippines but hopefully 2018 is the year for me to see my family and friends there. It’s been 6 years…I miss them so much!

12. Ate Queen – to be Happy

She is my gorgeous older sister. I miss her so much. She lives in the Philippines. We still desire her to come back to Aruba but I prayed for God’s will in her life. I just want her to be happy. She didn’t come back but I am really happy for her. After seven years (if I am not mistaken) she finally opened her heart again to someone. She has a boyfriend now and their love story is amazing. My family is rejoicing with her. She needs someone there to keep her strong. She was separated from us. I and my brother are here in Aruba with my father. My other little brother and my Mom are in the US. Ate Queen is in the Philippines. I love my family no matter what.

13. Cover Songs

I covered some songs but not a lot. I still sing almost every day but privately mostly.

14. WEDDING

Tadaaah! I got married last December 2017 🙂 Finally. I and my husband (now) were in a relationship for four years and two months before the BIG DAY.

15. Unexpected Monster Blessing 2017

Last 2016, I looked forward to an ‘Unexpected blessing’ and turned out it was a Monster Blessing. Didn’t expect that my US Visa will be approved. I and some of the church members tried and we are all approved. Thank God. Amazing!

2017. I was challenged to write again and expect more from GOD. Expect the Unexpected. Besides from my Prayer and Goals for the year, I have a separate one for my Bucket List. Some of them were accomplished:

  • Disney World – I only wrote to hope one day to go to Disney. God gave me the best, It’s not Disney Land, it’s Disney World. I am forever grateful.
  • Kari Jobe Concert – To tell you honestly, she is one of my favorite worship leaders. I wanted to attend a Christian Concert of known artists. God just directed me to my favorite. I was in South Carolina that time when I saw her post about her “The Garden Tour” and when I asked mommy how far Aiken from her place. She said it’s nearby. I begged her to attend this concert. And we did.
  • Travel. I waited long for my papers to be processed here in Aruba. I can’t travel outside the island if my paper isn’t ready yet. As soon as I got it, my mom bought (unexpectedly) me a ticket to the US. Before going to South Carolina, I attended some conferences first in Georgia with church leaders. There, we also went to different places such as Stone Mountain, Baby Land / Cabbage Patch kids, Anna Ruby Falls. We also went to Alabama to worship with fellow believers there. It was an awesome experience!

16. Save More Money.

Well. you know? It’s really difficult to do this. HAHAHA.

17. Be Content. All the Time

I’ve learned to be thankful and content with whatever I have. And for that God pours more into my life. He is an amazing God and Father.

18. Be in A Magazine. X

HAHA. Dream dreams! It didn’t happen. Dream pa more.

19. Write a Story.

I always think about writing a story like the others, a novel. I am not there yet (hope, one day) But little did I know, I am truly writing one. MY STORY.

20. Compose New Songs X

I started writing songs five years ago. I stopped. And I literally forget about this. I should, huh?

‘Nah… there’s nothing to write about what happened last year.’ I was wrong. While typing this blog, I realized that there is plenty to be thankful for, prayers answered. Mostly, it’s only because of HIS GRACE why I received these things. To have a good check from what HE has done in your life is a blessing. You only not remember the painful events, but to really look at them, there is more good stuff than the ugly ones. So, for my hand who typed and my thoughts being poured out to this. I am proud. Wow. I said that “I am proud”… 

All this time I could only see the negative ones. But I am truly blessed, loved and highly favored. Thank you 2017! I am ready 2018..

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Thank you for reading!

-Princess

 

 

God’s Surprise #5 North Carolina

I am so grateful for all of these things happened in my life. I literally don’t have the budget to travel. But I call this — God’s favor. I was down and depressed for past years but the Lord helped me get up and begin again.

I got to see places I couldn’t imagine I would be able to. The Lord has proven His faithfulness to me. Yes, it is great to have a good paying job, work hard, be diligent and have determination. But the past years were not so good for me, living in a foreign country. I couldn’t do what I want to, I couldn’t get the job I want to. I had to be strong and silently being brave. I would admit that there were days that I wanted to give up but the Lord re-opened my eyes once again.

I felt bad that I couldn’t trust him that much during those times. I only see the negative things in my life. It’s not me. I wasn’t myself and I wanted to get up. So I asked God for help but at the same time, I decided to get up. It is a decision only you can make. I have to be clear that even I serve Him, there were days that problems and trials overwhelm me and anxiety and depression take over. But I believe that God is fighting for us. So here I am, still alive and fighting.

I believed again. I hoped and this is it. God has shown me that my circumstances don’t define me. 2017 was an eye opener for me that HE can do impossible things possible. I live in Aruba for six years and I am thankful that I survived and still surviving.

I got to see the US for the second time. This time was a little bit longer. Since I don’t have any responsibility I was able to visit the US, most of the days in South Carolina. I was in the US for five months. Wow. I am really grateful for God’s favor.

God never ceased to amaze me, huh? I had surprises from Him all the time and I am loving it! Before going back to Aruba, he let me see part of North Carolina.

  1. Down Town Asheville, North Carolina

We went to Downtown Asheville, historical place. I am not really good at HISTORY, you know? So I am not here to tell what happened in that place HAHA :)But what I love about history areas is you get to see and walk where important events took place.  I will try next time to learn about the places I went to. For now, I want to share how it looks like somehow.

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Thought they were at a rally. I was only gonna take pictures of the building. You know, believe it or not, I am not used to noisy place anymore. I lived in the Philippines for 26 years, I managed to live in a city. But for 6 years in Aruba, where it’s quiet and peaceful, island life and called ‘One Happy Island’, I got shocked seeing people walking around, horning their cars loudly. There’s this car who stopped in a pedestrian lane, so the people were kinda mad at her, they’re giving her strange look. We happened to cross the road and I was talking to Mommy about something and raised my hand pointing to something else, the driver thought I was saying something to her like “Why did you stop here?” Of course, I didn’t say that even it was on my mind. So she started to curse and call me “Bitch”. I had to laugh, looked at Mum and Uncle Mike and they smiled. I hope Nathan, my seven-year-old brother didn’t hear it. We kept walking and on the other pedestrian where people are crossing headed to us, a lady was crossing with a dog on a leash, she was wearing a blouse, an underwear and cardigan, while she was walking you can see the side of her treasure. I don’t usually care how people dress, if that makes them happy, I really don’t mind but of course, I have eyes. Followed by a sports car who drives recklessly and music on playing so loud. OMG. And I suddenly whispered “Welcome to the city”

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One thing I realized is I am not a ‘city person’. I prefer tranquility. It’s good to visit places and see huge buildings and many people at times. But I got used to Aruba vibes and I prefer a quiet and peaceful place. It’s not a perfect place all the time. But I think God let me see this another side of life for me to appreciate where I am.

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I love music so I took pictures to one of the bands in the street. I also noticed that there are a lot of homeless people. It’s a new thing for Nathan, North Augusta, South Carolina isn’t like this, it’s quiet there. So here in North Carolina is different. I enjoyed it though.

 

 

I was amused by this food place. Giant Spiders look real. My childlike character showed up quickly as soon as I see them. The idea was great. Clap clap to the owner.

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For more pictures, you can add me on my Instagram account (Naks!Arte!) These are some of the photos taken at DownTown Asheville, North Carolina.

IG: princessyhang01

 

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2. The Blue Ridge Mountains

This is the main reason why we were in North Carolina. Uncle Mike and MOmmy want me to see the beauty of it, not only the mountains but at least it’s about time where leaves are changing. They said some call it ‘leafing’ during Fall Season. It was a long drive, though. But it was really fun especially spent with loved ones.

We went first to Blue Ridge Parkway, where you can get directions and of course souvenirs. I started to collect magnets from places I went to.

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I actually don’t want to show my face anymore. The background is more important when you travel. HAHA. Am I right? But yeah, I would still like my face to be seen at times.

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Inside, you can see and read the history. As I have said I am not so good at collecting information. I wish I am that kind of person who can give you accurate history. We’ll be like that one day. HAHA 🙂 But Blue Ridge Parkway/Mountain is also known as “America’s Favorite Drive”

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We went driving after Blue Ridge Parkway.

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I love nature. And I can’t explain how it felt seeing the beauty around me. God is so good. His creation was amazing. Like, God, you’re here. The work of His hands is wonderful.

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Do you see that? The green leaves becoming red. Well, it’s my first time to experience this. 🙂 I’m so happy, though I couldn’t see them all changed. I’m still amazed.

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As we went further, we got to see this.

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What I loved more is the weather. It was cold there. I loved it!

I’m really grateful for the experience. God is so good. To God be the glory.

Truly, God never ceased to amaze us. I know this happened the last year October 2017, I am so late but I am still determined to share things I experienced. For me, they are miracles and favor of the Lord. His surprises are the best. I will be forever grateful!

 

It’s me,

-Princess

God’s Surprise #4 Solar Eclipse

Yes, I am so late in posting this. Haha I am sorry. 2017 was so great to me that I wanted to share good things happened.

I am so happy that I got to experience Solar Eclipse with my little brother and my mom. I live in Aruba but that day I was in the US for vacation. SO I am blessed to see that for the first time.

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I am not a photographer so I wasn’t able to take good pictures during that day. But I am just thankful that I got to see it. 🙂

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*** Sorry for this super late post. (August 21, 2017) I praise God for this experience 🙂

-Princess

God’s Surprise #3 Kari Jobe

One of my prayer lists is to attend a christian concert. I visited Mommy in the US for few months, while I was browsing on Facebook, I saw a post from Kari Jobe announcing her ‘The Garden’ Tour. My mom lives in South Carolina so I asked her where Aiken is. She said it’s only 15-20 minutes away from their place. And I begged her “Mommy please, I wanna attend Kari Jobe’s concert”

To make the long story short. Me and my mom got to see her and worshiped with her. I cried because I couldn’t believe that it was actually happening. I sent a message to my worship team in Aruba and told them the good news. I went live on Facebook so they could also see. Well, for others this is just a small thing but for me it is a big thing. BLESSING!

I admire Kari so much. I like her heart towards God. She loves Jesus so much. She inspired me through her voice and songs. God bless her. I don’t idolize her, I am just grateful that during my vacation at mommy’s I would experience more of God’s love. First, the Disney World, second – Jollibee and now this… got to see her and worshiped with her. God is so good.

Kari Jobe is so beautiful inside and out.

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With my mom 🙂 Isn’t she wonderful? She supports me. God bless her.

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For everything, for all the surprises. I give God the glory! 🙂 So excited for more of His revelation and love.

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*** August 5, 2017 God answered my prayer. Thank you for reading. 🙂 God bless you!

-Princess