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I am not Alone- Cover

I admit, I really love singing and most of the time, well always, I worship. I feel home when I start to pour out my heart to Him and worship. I know that there I belong… in His presence

God is my strength and in every season He never leave me nor forsake me. My response to His faithfulness is to thank Him and worship for who He is. He deserves all the praises and adoration.

You are welcome to join me in worshiping Him through listening and if you know it, sing this with me. 🙂

Thank you and God bless you!

-Princess

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Dahil sa kanya pakiramdam ko pangit ako!

Minsan nagkukwentuhan kami ng kapatid ko at mga pinsan, bigla namin napagusapan ang High School life sa Pinas. At may naalala ako bigla, isa rin yun sa dahilan kung bakit pakiramdam ko sa sarili ko noon ay pangit ako.

Kapag Intrams Day or Intramural, may mga iba’t ibang pakulo ang mga students to add some fun and fund raising na rin para sa iba’t ibang organization na kinabibilangan nila. Habang ang mga laro ay nagpapatuloy, may mga ginawa rin sila iba’t ibang booth tulad ng “Marriage Booth” na kung saan kunwari may ikakasal, may magrerequest na kukunin nila ang taong ito para ikasal kay ganito. Meron din naman yung blind date na same procedure pero nakapiring kayo, pwedeng pagtitripan lang kayo ng tropa or nirequest talaga ng isa sa kanila para makasama nya ang crush nya. Atbp.

Hindi ko matandaan kung paano kami naging partner ng isang lalakeng yun na hanggang ngayon hindi ko makalimutan ang ginawa nya. Hindi ko rin matandaan kung sino ang nagpakulo noon. Basta ang natatandaan ko… ganito yun.

Naka-piring kami dinala sa isang room (adnun din ang ibang students), magme-meet kayo dun at paghahawakin ang mga kamay nyo. Ako naman, hindi naman ako masamang tao, kung sino man may kagagawan nun naki-ride on lang naman ako at hindi ko din ipapahiya kung sino man sya. So, hawak kamay… naramdaman ko nalang na bumitaw sya sa kamay ko ng pagalit or para bang may tinapon na gamit na ayaw nya.

Nauna sya nagtanggal ng takip sa mata nya. At yun ang una nyang action na para bang nandiri sya sa akin. I felt so embarrassed. Una, wala naman akong planong something romantic sakanya. It’s part of the kalokohan ng mga students. Naki-ride on lang ako. To be honest, hindi ko matandaan kung crush ko ba sya noon or what, kung may ganun naman, dapat ba na ganun ang maging reaction mo sa babae? Pangalawa, hindi sya pogi I realized. HAHA Sorry.

Kahit sino pa man yan kahawak kamay mo hindi mo dapat ginaganun ang isang babae. Ayaw mo man dyan o gusto, hindi ganun ang dapat na pagtrato. Ngayon ko lang naisip na magsalita, dati kasi tahimik lang ako, hindi ako lumalaban. Pero kung meron lang akong tapang noon, siguro kinausap ko sya about this.

Dahil sa mga ala-ala noon, I searched him on Facebook at nakita ko sya. Hindi nalang ako magmention ng name. Pero kelangan ko na rin sya patawarin, tanda ko na o! Haha 🙂 Bata pa kami noon. Pero grabe, isa yun sa dahilan kung bakit mababa ang self esteem ko dahil napaniwala ako ng mga negative thoughts na hindi ako attractive or maganda. Yung tipong hindi ka kelan man magustuhan ng mga lalake. But it was lie. Lahat tayo ay maganda at pogi in God’s eyes. And sa mga previous posts ko, I really emphasize beauty within hindi sa panlabas lamang na kaanyuan. God looks into our hearts at mas magandang pagandahin higit sa lahat ang puso natin.  Kung ganun man ang tingin nya sa akin, pangit,  ayos lang din kasi natuto ako na mahalin ang sarili ko at tanggapin ang pangit at embrace ang mga magagandang traits na meron ako.

Move on na ako? HAHA Naikwento ko na e. Pero isa yun sa mga nakakahiyang sitwasyon nung High School ako. Bitter ba? Hindi na.. kasi hindi na ganun ang tingin ko sa sarili ko. God made me believe that I am unique and precious in His eyes. He loves me as who I am and bonus, I found people who accepts me for who I am.

Ngayon,may malaking bonus pa ako, taong nagpatibok ng puso ko.. Haha 🙂 Yung kahit sa tingin ko pangit ako para sakanya maganda ako. Yung ipaparamdam nya sayo araw-araw na maganda ka. Inside and out. Yung hindi ikakahiyang hawakan ang kamay mo sa public places, i-kikiss ka sa noo kahit nasaan kayo. Hahawak sa kamay mo at ikikiss nya randomly. Yung hindi magsasawa iparamdam sayo na kahit na may mga weaknesses or flaws ka, tanggap at mahal ka nya at higit sa lahat yung nagpepray with and for you. And when he prays, he always mention how blessed he is and thankful to God that he has someone like me? O diba? Ako na mahaba ang hair!  Thank God

Ang sitwasyon nung HS na yun ay isang part ng story ko para mas maappreciate ko kung ano ang meron ako ngayon. Nakwento ko lang naman to! Okay na ako.

Sa mga High School friends ko? Kilala nyo ba ang tinutukoy ko? Haha I forgive him anyways. God bless! Nakakamiss ang High School life. 🙂

-Princess

Ako’y kinikilig!

Kasalukuyan akong nakangiti ng napakalaki abot hanggang tenga! Kinikilig ako:) Isang love story na napaka common. Babaeng simple, hindi nag aayos pero napansin ng lalakeng mayaman, sikat at higit sa lahat pogi! Nangyayari pa kaya to sa totoong buhay? Oo man o hindi, this fairy-tale-like story ay nakakakilig pa din. Nakakatuwa naman talaga ang mga Koreanovela e no? Bukod sa napaka pure ng story when it comes to love and relationship e ang lakas din makabata nito e! High Schooler lang ang peg. Yung feeling mo ikaw yung babae hinahabol ng lalakeng pogi. HAHA MAngarap! Nganga naman kasi sa totoong buhay. Kaya nga siguro dami single ngayon na babae kasi naghahanap ng perfect guy or tinatawag na Mr. Right. Umaasa may ganun pang mga lalake sa mundo yung alam lahat kung nasaan ka, susundan ka, nakabantay sayo para lang ma-make sure nya na safe ka. Yung palihim ka piprotekatahan. Yung kahit mayaman sya at against sayo ang parents pipiliin ka pa rin nya na mahirap lang pero mabait, simple at maganda din naman. Sige maniwala ka kasi na maganda ka! 🙂  E ambot lang sa totoong buhay. Hirap makahanap nyan.

GANOINpaman, ako’y kinikilig pa din. Ang sarap naman kasi ng feeling kapag may nag-aalaga sa yo diba? Kapag may nagmamahal at concern sayo, yung tipong ngingiti lang sya sa harap mo kasi nacucute-an sya sayo? at magtatanong ka “Bakit? Bakit ka nakatitig? (yung tonong nagiinarte, enebeyen! Sabay hagis ng buhok pataas) At sasagutin ka nyang nakatitig “Bakit ang ganda mo?” Tunaw! HAyyyyy.. Ang sarap mainlove. Eto ah! Hindi ako nagiinarte pero kinikilig talaga ako pag may nagmamahalan. Kahit nga married couple kapag nakikita ko silang sweet, kinikilig ako! Di ko alam bakit. Kasi siguro yung LOVE andun e, ramdam mo.

One time naging crush ko si Kimpoy Feliciano, online hearthrbob, social media sensation. Dami dami nya followers karamihan babae. Nacurious lang ako nun e. Nasama pa nga ako sa closed group sa FB na sya mismo ang nagcreate. Talaga namang nakikipag communicate sya sa mga fans nya e. Kanya kanyang papansin sa mga posts e. Dahil single din sya, maraming kababaihan ang talaga namang I am sure umaasa na mapansin ni Kimpoy. Sinubukan ko lang naman if mapapansin ako sa post. Napansin naman ng ilang beses. Nag-umpisa na ako magpost sa group kasi nila-like nya nga talaga. naging isa na rin ako sa papansin, naghahangad sa like and comment ni Kimpoy. Attention. Kamote stressful, dami ko kaagaw! HAHA Nakikinig na din ako ng song nya noon yug title ay “Ikaw Lang” Akala mo naman talagang ikaw ang kinakantahan ni Kimpoy e.

Ikaw lang pag-ibig sa buhay ko
Ngunit bakit ka naman ganyan
Walang tiwala sa akin
Mahal na mahal naman kita
Tunay ito, aking sinta
Hindi kukupas kailan pa man
Kahit itanong mo
Kanino man, mahal kitang talaga

Gabi-gabi na lang sa pagtulog ko
Ikaw lang ang panaginip
‘Pag ako’y gising na
Ikaw pa rin ang na sa isip
Kahit hindi mo ‘ko kaipiling
Asahan mong sa iyo pa rin
Ang pusong ito na iyong inangkin

Ikaw lang ang tanging minamahal ko
Huwag makinig kaninuman
Ikaw lang naman at wala nang iba
Sana ay maniwala ka na

Tunay ito, aking sinta
Hindi kukupas kailan pa man
Kahit itanong mo kaninuman
Mahal kitang talaga

 WEH? Di nga? Haha. Aba may votes votes pa yun nagsisipuyatan sila para maging top 1 lang si Kimpoy sa list. Yes, number 1 sya nung mga panahon na yun pero hindi ako nagvovote nun. 🙂 Over na ata! Pero meron talagang mga fans na talagang full support sa kanya. Like lang or mention lang sa post ni Kimpoy e masaya na ang mga iyon e nagsisitalunan na sa kilig. Ganun nga talaga ang karamihan sa babae. Mababaw ang kaligayahan. Mapansin lang, ayos na! Mahalin mo lang, okay na. Kayong mga lalake dyan wag kayong paasa. HAHA Kung wala naman pag asa bakit kelangan pang hayaan mahumaling sayo ng husto, itigil mo pang impress mo kung mangiiwan ka din naman. #Hugot

Isang araw habang nakikinig ako sa kanta nya na yan. Napaisip ako, may parang kumausap din sa akin. At sa maikling conversation with God that moment nabago na ang takbo ng love story ko. Yan yun araw na sabi ko.

“Lord ang gara naman, babae ako bakit ako naghahabol sa ganyan, sikat pa. Dami ko kaagaw. Di naman ako desperada mapansin pero tulad ng maraming babae nahangad din ako ng fairy tale story. Mapansin, mahalin din? Actually di naman talaga ako choosy e. Di ako mahilig sa pogi. Mas gusto ko ang character. Higit sa lahat yung malakas din sayo. Ayaw ko ng ganito Lord yung ako ang maghahanap. I am your princess, I believe. Hindi ko kelangan maghabol sa kahit kanino para mapansin lang at mahalin. Ibibigay mo yun sa akin sa tamang panahon” (wala pang aldub dialogue ko na yan! haha) Sa tamang panahon. Kaya maghihintay ako kasi pag galing sayo laging Okay. Kaya tama na to Lord.”

” Tska ang gara no? Ang tao ang dali dali nila gumawa ng kanta tulad nito, mga love songs para sa tao. Dahil sa love, masarap magmahal at mahalin. E panu kana? Mas nakakakilig ka kaya! You are LOVE itself. Kung nagagawa nilang makagawa ng song for a person, pwede rin naman para sayo diba? Mas bongga ka nga magmahal e”

Yung araw na yun, nakagawa ako ng isang kanta. Masyadong madrama ang araw na yun, punong puno ako ng emotion. Habang naglalakad ako, bulong nya “Sino ba ako para sayo Yhang?” Aba kahit na nasa daan ako ang luha ko naman talaga bumuhos e.He is my everything, narealized ko na kung gaano nya ako kamahal na hindi ko na talaga kaya pag wala sya. Yung joy at peace na binibigay nya everyday. Walang makakagawa sa akin nun kahit sinong lalake. Yung love nya unconditional, walang ganun sa tao. Maari mawala silang lahat, iwan ka or saktan ka pero sya? Hindi e, Iba sya magmahal. kaya ang sabi ko sknya “You are the lover of my soul” Isang araw ko lang nabuo. Inspired na inspired ako. Yun ay kanta ko for God na naging way din na matagpuan ko ang Prince Charming ko 🙂 Nakakatuwa! Hindi ako nagmamayabang pero parang totoo talaga na fairy tale happens in real life. Yung parehas kayo nagseek sa KING para matagpuan ang isat isa. Ang pogi nya kaya. Latak ako. Lage nila sinasabi Jackpot daw ako, nakaksakit na kayo ah. Maganda naman ako ah? At least sa mata nya HAHA. Di ko akalain mamahalin ako ng isang tulad nya. Pogi sya inside and out. Thank you Lord! 🙂

Ako ay kinikilig. Yung habang nagkukwento ka, daldal ka sa harap nya tapos nakatitig lang sya sayo, nagsmile. Nagtanong ako ng bakit. “You are so cute, You are so beautiful. I am so blessed” Ayyyyyy

Sa Koreanovela pinapanood ko kinikilig ako sa love story nila, lage ko inaalala ang araw na nagkakilala din kami at paano kami nagkatagpo. Kinikilig pa din ako. Kinikilig ako kung gaano ako kamahal ni Lord at ibinigay nya sa akin ang tulad nya.

Realizations on turning 29ish

Kids want to get old and old people wanted to be kids again. The same feeling as others who turned at this age, I had that moment of truth as well. Like “Wait, really? What happened?” This is also a moment where you evaluate your life and will have a deep realizations. Let me share my thoughts on turning 29ish.

  1. LIFE IS SHORT, Be Content.

We usually hear this when a person dies, but this time no one dies. I just become more aware of my age. If we only know when will we die, I am sure all of us will live everyday as if it is your last. But reality check, we do not know when. But we all know that our life here on earth is short to be negative all the time. Why not spend your years meaningful and happy? How?

Contentment is one of the answers. Life is not a competition. We are all given a life to enjoy. Just because some are rich you should hate yourself being poor and choose to pity yourself.  Just because you are in Philippines and most of your friends work abroad doesn’t mean you are not successful. Also, just because they work abroad doesn’t mean they don’t experience struggles and hardships. We all do, wherever we are, whatever we do, we all undergo in the process of learning and enjoying life. Admit it or not, we have and/or had depressions and anxiety attacks at times. You started to look down on yourself and believe the thinking that you are nothing because you also starting to compare yourself to others.

We always want more. I remember someone who once said “If I will only have that phone, I will end up there and will not ask for more” he got that phone, but guess what every year he wants to change his phone. High technology, trending, everyone has it and ending up “I want that too”. If cellphone is only a way of communication and if it still works, why should I buy a new and expensive one? It is okay to upgrade or buy whenever and whatever you want. Its not a problem as long as you can afford and know your priorities. My point is, in our lives we never be content if we will freely let ourselves flow how the world goes. You get frustrated when you can’t have what you want, the luxurious life that everyone wants, and start to be feel jealous and compare self to others. Be content. If they are rich, let them be rich. If you think you are poor, you are wrong. God has given us everything we need. You just have to know the difference between NEEDS and WANTS.

Hebrews 13:5(ESV)

Keep your life free from love of money, and be content with what you have, for he has said, “I will never leave you nor forsake you.”

1 Timothy 6:6-11 (ESV)

But godliness with contentment is great gain, for we brought nothing into the world, and[a] we cannot take anything out of the world. But if we have food and clothing, with these we will be content. But those who desire to be rich fall into temptation, into a snare, into many senseless and harmful desires that plunge people into ruin and destruction. 10 For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evils. It is through this craving that some have wandered away from the faith and pierced themselves with many pangs.

When I was younger, I used to be like someone who wants more. I want this and that. I had deep thoughts of being rich. Big own house, car and beautiful branded clothes. I spent time thinking and wishing my life to be like that, perfect as others look at it. And when I came back to reality, I started to get mad at my parents. “If only they are rich” But as time goes by, as I learned from life and see what truly the real treasure is and through God’s word, the light unto our path, I changed. My perspective in life changes. That “if only they/I am rich” turns to “If only I am content”. If only from the very start, I am content, I would be happier and appreciate the beauty of life. It is okay. It’s not to late. God wants us to be content. I do not want to spend my life on earth comparing my life to others. I want and choose to be content. Thank God for his correction and learning.

 2. Love Yourself.

This is a broad topic to discuss. I do not want to be misunderstood when I say “Love and Be yourself” God loves everyone of us and he accepts us for who we are. I will only talk about a situation where self pity and low self esteem  overwhelm me.

Many of us dwell on the thoughts “I am not good enough” “I am not capable” “I can’t achieve great things” “I am miserable” “I can’t achieve my dreams””I will be forever like this” Regardless of age, we tend to dwell on negative thoughts. “Buti pa sila” “Buti ka pa” Those words and thoughts unconsciously destroying your character and personality. You forget who you are because you are filled with others attainments and start to even look on their flaws as well to make yourself believe either you are better than them, or you think you are wretchedly unhappy.  Both results are not good If you don’t know how to balance, you will become insecure and ending up comparing yourself to others and hatred starting to fill your heart to the people too. You think they’ve got them all good together in their lives and you don’t. Sadly you become hard on yourself unknowingly. You become jealous about other’s possessions and achievements instead of focusing on your abilities and accomplishments.

Social media is something we can have an access on others’ lives and you started to think that they are more blessed or fortunate than you are. It is normal that we sometimes feel jealous, everybody feels that, admit it or not. But it always good that you will have a good check in your heart from time to time. If you want to have a peaceful life. Star to love yourself and see the good things in your heart. I personally admire people who are happy to others success. They are very few. Do not be somebody else. Be yourself. Love yourself.

There will always be someone who is better than you, prettier or more handsome than you, smarter than you, richer than you but there is only one YOU. You are unique. When I realized that I really wanted to write, a dream held in my heart for a long time. I doubted it first because I focused on others’ works. They are so good and I am not. I admit I still have to learn things. But one thing I have learned, I won’t achieve any goals in my life if I won’t step on it. JUST DO IT. I do not write because everyone has the ability to write (for bloggers and writers), I write because I love to. I need this to make me feel happy and fulfilled. They are better than me yes, I know. I admire them but instead of focusing on those ‘more than you’, look into your heart, START appreciating your own self and you will be amazed how God becomes gracious in bestowing blessings and favors, abilities, skills, talents and gifts upon you. I can’t say that I am able to write good but by doing this, I am loving myself. It helps me to express myself. So whether people won’t like what I am writing or saying here, I will still do it because I love doing this. 🙂 I am God’s masterpiece. You are God’s masterpiece. It means you are His great art of work.

Ephesians 2:10 New Living Translations (NLT)

10 For we are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago.

3. Nobody to Somebody 

 

I am 30 and during my younger years, negative thoughts like these empower me. It does happen to me still at times. I don’t like it. I do not want my heart be consumed with dirty things such us hatred, greed, anger, jealousy, frustrations, depressions and all. Everyone does not like them, of course. I do not want to live like that, so seeking the ONE who created us is the best way to know what is good and what is not, to have a knowledge between right and wrong. I am so thankful that the life God has given us everyday is a chance and challenge for ourselves to be better. To live a life with a purpose. You learn along the way, your journey of being Nobody to Somebody is not an easy journey yet it is fulfilling. I used to believe that I am just nobody and won’t be able to achieve great things.

Yes, if I have to compare my life to my college friends and batch mates, and define success as possessions and career growth, I would say I am nobody. In my previous posts, you would read how was my life  in 4 years living in Aruba. Click A part of my Story if you want to know. 🙂  But I would say I am Somebody now. I am not boasting about my life, honestly, I have nothing to boast about. At this age, I do not have a job everyone dreams, I don’t have a house or a car, I don’t have expensive clothes, I do not have gadgets that everyone wants. I don’t have money to eat to some fine dining restaurants, name them, I have nothing to boast but.. let me tell you, I have a job, not a good position but I have at least I have a job. I do not have my own house but I have people who treat me like their own family, besides from my father’s place, I still find home by those people who are nice to me. Gadgets? To tell you honestly, I didn’t spend a lot of money for my phone, laptop and ipad. They are almost free. Freely given to me. Restaurants, I can eat sushi which we all know are expensive. I ate at fine dining restaurants because of lovely people who invite me at times, again it’s free.

This how I call favor from the Lord. I don’t demand for things, God is showering His blessings to me. I am so blessed. Really. I don’t mind if other people look down on me. I am not explaining myself for the ones who think I have all together. I also experience things here huh! You just have to be content, love yourself and to be somebody. Somebody means, knowing your identity in Christ. When negative of this world strike you, remember who you are in Christ. You are accepted. A new creation, blessed, cherished, designed by God, favored, forgiven, saved, unique, you are loved and you are victorious. The Lord sees us so wonderful, you gotta believe you are. From that person whom I think Nobody, I have learned to embrace the love of God to be this Somebody, knowing my worth.

4. I am Egg! HAHA

Just like an egg mixed to other ingredients to bake a cake. I am like an egg, I used to like to be isolated, I cover myself with my shell. I don’t like to see the world for not being open minded and just believe what I want to believe. I do not want to open myself to anyone. I am okay being inside, comfortable. But I had to let someone break my shell for me to be useful and to live longer I guess (mabubugok ako e!). Breaking the shell could be painful for me, adjustments will happen because I’ve been living inside my shell for a long time. Time comes that I need to be put in a bowl and mixed with other ingredients. I am an egg, that is my purpose of living so I let myself mixed to others. In mixing process I need to blend in for the baker can create a perfect cake. Mixed and put in a pan. When ready, put in an oven to bake, you cannot make a cake if you won’t put the mixture in an oven. Inside the oven, the temperature would be so hot  but it is needed for a cake to be baked. As soon as you are ready, the sweet delicious aroma will spread the whole area. Just like when you pass a bakery, you smell the delicious cakes and breads. whooo 🙂 Dushi! And you are ready to be eaten.

I let God break me and release me from my shell. Shellfishness. Haha Selfishness. It is not always about myself, being comfortable, and not to see others needs.I have to give myself to be used and be useful. It does not give you satisfaction when you are alone inside your shell. You are made for something else that is why you are longing for that purpose for you to feel the satisfaction. He needed to break me so I can give myself away. When I say, “Okay, Lord have your way” I let the Baker do as he wish. It was not easy, it’s uncomfortable. “What? why do I have to mix myself to others? Why do I have to blend in? I can be alone.” “I don’t care about them. I will live my life on my own. Yeah. “self” where we can only think about ourselves all the time, what we want, what we feel, what makes us comfortable without desiring to see others needs or situations. That is the moment I go to see different and difficult people around me but still I have to accept them for who they are and blend in because they are also God’s creation with different function in the world just like me. I am not saying that you have to please everyone. The point is, God shows me that I am loved and little by little he also teach me how to love. I am not saying also that I love someone perfectly. Only God can do that. But Jesus inspires us to love others. Well in fact, the greatest commandments God gave us:

Matthew 22:36-40

36 “Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?”

37 Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’[a] 38 This is the first and greatest commandment. 39 And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’

Loving yourself makes you love others. Loving others is loving God.

Fruits of the Spirit

The mixing process produces you with these characters that God wants us to learn. I am not saying I have them at all times. I am human. I am not perfect, I am so perfectly imperfect but I have a perfect God who loves me just the way I am and teach me how to live a life meaningful. His word is a guide for me to be in a right path. Sometimes I am in doubt to write things about this, I don’t want to let people feel uncomfortable by making them feel “I have the perfect life.” Of course not, again, I am not gonna boast about myself but I can boast about the ONE who helps me becoming like this. I still have things to learn, I know. Just like the saying “Experience is the best teacher and the worst experiences are the best lessons” In life, learning is unending cycle. Live to learn.

When the mixture is ready, I have to be put in the oven. Those are the times when you want to get out from it because it is painful, you feel like you can’t endure the temperature anymore. This stage could be the painful experiences in your life, dealing with difficult people, facing different tragedies in life, financial problems, broken hearts, broken lives etc., you feel like there will be no escape. There is a time for everything. Even the baker wants to get you from the oven, he still has to see if you are ready. I have to wait for the right time until I am really ready. Sometimes you really have to endure it the long time, but guess what? When you wait, the result will always be great. There is a blessing in waiting and obedience. When the Baker takes the cake out from the hot oven, he knows that you are ready. The aroma will spread out the place. You will see the smile from the Baker and from the people around you wanting you to be part of their lives. The praise will always goes to my Baker for making a good cake or bread. You are becoming a blessing. You make them happy. It is so fulfilling to see you are blessed to be a blessing.

Final Words

Life is short. We should learn how to be content and enjoy life. I will say it again, stop comparing yourself to others. While living on earth, do not waste your time on comparing yourself to others instead appreciate yourself. We are unique in our own way. Find things that make you happy. If you have a desire and dream deep down your heart and you still didn’t act with it, just do it. We are all learning. If you fail, its okay but never stop learning. Just like what I am doing, if writing makes me happy, even there are people that is better than me, I will keep doing this, I guess. HAHA. because I am becoming proud of myself for I used to have a low self esteem yet I am sharing my deepest thoughts now which help me seeing my worth. When you learn lessons from life, choose to be a blessing. There’s someone out there needs your story to be refreshed, encouraged and be reminded again. Share yours! Be a blessing!

If you are still reading this, thank you so much for your time. These are some of my great lessons in my 29ish living in this world. I still want and have to learn a lot of things. And may this be an encouragement to you. I would love to hear from you by writing on comment box. Yey! God bless you 🙂

-Princess

 

 

 

 

Keep Calm You’re 29ish

Have you ever think to stop and start again? 🙂  I just turned 29ish yesterday. March 1, 2016, Tuesday. When someone ask my age, it’s kinda difficult to admit I am 30, so I better say 29ish. Okay? I am trying to calm down but really? Am I this old? I demand a recount. LOL.

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Hahaha. I really laughed when I see this. What happened? … LOL 🙂

I didn’t plan anything actually. I just wanted to stay home and have a birthday sleeping mode. My friend, Cherry, encouraged me to do something fun. It’s only once that I turn 30. True enough but for me “sleeping”is fun. haha I asked for a week vacation from work. It’s good to have rest like this. Thank God. So yeah, had to gather myself, relax and have fun!

How did I celebrate my 29ish:

  1. I cleaned my room (half cleaned haha)
  2. I washed my bed sheets.
  3. I stayed home with my cousin because everyone was at work.That is sweet of him special mention to Christopher Neil Grajo for going straight here after school. He accompanied me.
  4. My brother took a half day off, well actually I was not the reason, he had to fix some documents. But then I am happy he came home early. Yey! May kalaro na ako.
  5. Papa arrived in the afternoon, nice way to spend your birthday with the family
  6. Decided to eat dinner out with relatives and friends, Papa and Tita Blessie couldn’t join because Papa was not feeling well. But he gave me his gift. 🙂
  7. Had fun at Peanuts Restaurant with them

Busog na busog na ako halata sa tyan. Patawad HAHA

with my fiance and mother in law to be 🙂

Tito Mommy Miles and Tito Daddy Emong , Tita Janet

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Sige Birthday nyo? Kayo na malaki image. Sila yun walang sawang mang asar sa akin pero kami tatlo lage magkakasama, I am their Princess. kaya nga wala ako dyan. I am their favorite pag dating sa bully-han 🙂 I love you men! My cousin and brother.

REWIND

I woke up early in the morning, heard my phone beeping continuously. So I checked it and yeah it’s March 1, people are giving their greetings, encouragements and prayers posting on my Facebook Timeline. One of them is a blog greeting surprise for me made by my sister Queen. I remember making her one last year. I interviewed her friends for some silly and serious questions about her. She did it to me this time. How sweet! 🙂 I am blessed to have her and the people participated. Thank you so much. I feel so loved

She asked three questions:

  1. Who is Yhang to you ? (Yhang is my nickname)
  2. What is/are unforgettable moments or experience with her
  3. Birthday Messages/Prayers for her

Click if you want to know more : Birthday Messages from Friends and Family created by Ate Queen. Sweet 🙂 Thank you so much for the effort and love, people. I can’t mention names one by one but I am really grateful for all the greetings! God bless you all!

February 29 and March 1 are my birthdays. 🙂 Philippine time and Aruba time. My first greeter made me cry at first.

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Four reasons I cried after reading this:

  1. Ang hirap basahin. Hindi na ako marunong magbasa ng short texts, Jejemon ka sis. LOL
  2. I wanted to hug you and everyone over there but I can’t, I am too far. But I whispered to God to embrace you all for me. I love you!
  3. The surprise. It was very touching, though I know you all making that for me, I knew it, you guys were so busy na naseenzoned lang ang beauty ko 🙂
  4. My scrapbook materials kept in the baul for 4 and half years. Haha You guys used my materials for the surprise. Funny! It’s okay, I really appreciate the effort 🙂 I am excited! I would surely love it!

My day was already made by the touching messages and revelation from the people close to my heart in the morning. I grabbed my journal and start to write. Thanking God for all the blessings. Its not money or material things but it was a very great gift. God made me feel I am so much loved by Him by giving me those people in my life. Nakakaiyak malaman na naiiyak at namimiss nila ang old times with me. Thank you God for their friendship and love. I feel so blessed and loved, really. Ang sarap sarap nilang basahin. 🙂  Thank you to my sister, dalawin nyo sya, follow din Queen’s WordPress Blogsite. I really really like them, you know? I had so much tears and laugh while reading them. Thank you for everything. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH 🙂 Panalo sa effort te. Pak na pak. I feel loved.

Only One Regret : Yesterday, I could have gone to Starbucks. If it’s your birthday, you do not need to pay anything. It’s free! 🙂 Here in Aruba, it’s free. I do not know with other countries. I was already tired and full from the dinner so we all went home 🙂 I will have to wait another year to have a free Starbucks. Haha Now I want it. Grrr.

To my Facebook friends, thank you so much for the greetings. I appreciate you all. May God bless you abundantly. 🙂

This year is my year! Yey 🙂 On my next blog, I will be writing about My Thoughts on Turning 30. Thank you for reading. I know I am not that good blogger, but I have to do this because I love doing this, it helps me express myself through writing. So, even I am not that well (yet) please bare with me. Let me enjoying blogging. No bashers please. 🙂  Cheers!

I am craving now. this is what I ordered yesterday at Peanuts Restaurant:Fish Chicharon

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Pahabol: I love him, I carried him when he was a baby, I did it again on my 30th.

My brother King 🙂

Family. My inspiration. I love you all

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Ako na ang latak! haha my Queen and King 🙂

My Grandmothers. I really miss them. Tears 😦 Thank you Mama Esther and Lola Nena

Me! Small and looked terrible 🙂 haha

 

Princess at 29ish . Happy Birthday to me! Thank you Jesus for another year. 🙂

Tell me now, do I look 29ish?

I said Yes!

I’ve been wanting to write something about my engagement a month ago but I couldn’t because of busy schedule and at the same time, I did not know how to start. Still can’t believe? Haha 🙂

Looking back, months before I met him, I was earnestly praying to God to show me and send me the one He created just for me to be my lifetime partner. I was not desperate but in everything, this time, I want His will to be done in my life. One morning, I was praying and ended up composing a prayer song about it. One of the lines goes like “I want to meet that man, a man who love God more than I, who try to do the will of God. I wanna wait for that man, to be with him for the rest of my life” I won’t write the whole lyrics now.  But this has been in my heart since I was a teen. I will always believe that a person who loves God knows to handle any relationship with purity, love and respect. I am one of the girls who believes in a fairy tale love story. I am okay with imperfection, though. I just simply want someone who loves God.

Two weeks before I met him, I was crying like a baby. With honesty, I prayed to have someone whom I can share my thoughts, someone I can pray for and with, someone I can be silly with, someone I could be myself, exposing my flaws and yet still look at me lovely and beautiful, the way God sees everyone with unconditional love. I wanted a partner. I didn’t ask for just a boyfriend but a husband-to-be. The kind of relationship everybody would ever wanted to have.

God taught me to focus more on Him, seek Him, know and experience His love even more and little by little, He was preparing me to be the ‘someone I want to be with’, Meanwhile, there is this guy who had been praying the same thing. While he was waiting, God also molds him the way He wanted him to be so that when we are both ready, we will just simply share the love God showered us to each other. I looked up to God, gaze on His beauty, I chased Him and He led me to this man unknowingly. It happened when you least expect it huh? This may sound cheesy and crazy but I knew from the start,the moment I saw him, he is the One whom I would call MINE. I can even hear God whispering to my ears “My Princess, yes, he is the one”

Celebrating the new year’s eve, Yeah! I am so late, it’s February now. LOL 🙂 I thought it’s just one of the pose he wanted for picture taking, because it’s normal for us to do silly things. He knelt down his knee, looking up to me, held my right hand. I was just standing there with a bewildered look on my face. I could hear everyone screaming and I was like “Okay, what’s going on?” “Is this for real?” My cousin Abegail asked. With everyone’s whoooooosss,ahhhhhhs and waaahhhhhhs together with the fireworks, I could hardly understand what he was saying. I managed to listen to the last part. “Baby, I love you so much. You are my answered prayer.” He took the ring pop first and wore it in my finger. I loved that part, though. I don’t mind at all if it was not a diamond ring or whatever, I would still say YES to whatever kind of ring it is. But thank you for it is so sparkling beautiful. He never fails to make me feel pretty and special. (Special Child? LOL)

“Will you marry me?”

How could I say No to my answered prayer? I should stop now right?I have to save some for my vow. Haha I am just proud of my God who writes our love story.
To God be the glory.

It was New Year’s eve. Our Two Year and three month Anniversary, January 1, 2016.

 

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Amazed

Amazed

I don’t want to doubt you anymore

‘Coz you’ve proven me your love, O Lord

I just need to have faith and fear no more

‘Coz you’ve proven me your love, O Lord

Every time I think of you

Of the wonders of your hands

Every time I pray and kneel before you

Seeking you with all my heart

I am amazed, I am found by You

I feel not alone

I feel your comfort, Lord

By your presence, I am overwhelmed

I am overwhelmed

When I call, when I pray

You listen, you are there

I will bow down I will worship

For you alone our God

You alone our God

Worth Keeping

WORTH KEEPING

When I feel alone and full of pain

When I’m in trouble and full of sorrows

All I can do is to trust you more

All I wanna do is to give my heart to you, Lord

You said, be strong and have good courage

You said, the battle is Yours

You said, You’ll go before me

And you will be with me

You said, do not be afraid

You said, do not be discouraged

I’ll never leave you

Nor forsake you

Your Word is true and worth keeping

I will keep on believing

That there’s a time for everything

In every season I will trust you, Lord